It’s funny that I am not sad,
Not funny ha ha,
Funny in the fact that I’m just simply mad.
I am enraged,
Livid
I am ******!
I loathe the world for this brief time.
I hate it for its cruelty,
For its poor timing,
For its humorless jokes.
I want life to materialize in front of me,
Just so I can take swing after furious swing at it.
I want to beat the sunshine out of its eyes,
I want to rip the gleaming smile from its lips,
I want to plunge a dagger into its body,
Like it has so kindly placed in my heart.
I want to carve my initials into its chest,
Just so it will remember how it all felt for me.
I want to scream
And drop,
And cry.
till my body has dissolved into tears.
-ALC February 1, 2017