i'm just tired
of feeling like i'm not your only one anymore.
i just never forgave you anyways
and i kept trying to trick myself into believing that i am a good person,
who knows how to forgive, but
i don't know how to
i still can't trust you again -
but maybe i do forgive you
but i think you just ruined what we had
because i don't believe in your feelings for me anymore
even after all of this time
i still hate you so much
for the way you made me feel
i don't care what you do for me now, i don't think you could
ever make up for all that shit you had ever put my through
i just guess i
thought i could never find a love like yours anywhere else
but i'm beginning to realize that
you never loved me in the first place anyways
or i couldnt give you everything that you were looking for
and i'm just here for pleasure
i'm sure i am enough
i've spent too long thinking i'm not
but i keep sitting around feeling worthless
feeling like
you will do me wrong again
and i don't deserve to feel like this every single day anymore
you make no effort
to lessen that feeling
i don't know what to tell you anymore
i can't keep asking you and begging you
to love me more and more
i'm being selfish
and i'm acting in ways i know i don't want to anymore
i'm over it
i just don't want to keep doing this shit anymore
i just don't want to see anymore of you
i'm tired i'm exhausted
i just want to move on and find someone else who will love me
the same way i know that i can love them