I am not a person
I am not a place
I am a Thing.
A Thing.
An It.
I am some Thing but
I am Nothing.
An It.
Alas,
I am just an It.

Dead.
You are not dead.
You are still here,
Alive
You are Alive!
Cant you see?
It will get
Better
buckle up tight.
It's gonna be
Rough
for you tonight
little darling, a real
Hard
swing left then right.
Move your feet.
Swing
again and again
takes those hits
Over
and through the mountains
He will follow
Me
kissing my hands
when he finally
Capture
this instant
Is that what you want?
This?
Do you want this?
It is short-lived.
It will be
Gone
where? but he can't
just leave. I will
Die
upon a cross?
No.
That is not for me.
Keep your cross.
I
am not dead
I
am alive.
I'm alive I'm alive I'm alive
I
will see the light
It will get
Better.
With only
Him.
With only
Her.
I am in love.
Nothing
will ever bring us down.
Nothing
will ever tear us apart.
It is better.
It did get better.

Friendship
chatters like a chipmunk;
piercing into my ear
Again
and Again. Beating itself
Into me. Filling my mind,
Consuming
every last bit of me.
Every. Single.
Peace
is not something I
Find in Others. It is in
Me.
Only me. It is the Only
Piece I have.
I
have no love
I
have no loyalty
I
have no light
I
have no life
I
Am Nothing
except
That one worthy
Piece
by piece you
Tear me apart. You
Gut
me like a fish;
Ripping away my scales
Piece
by
Peace
by
Piece.
I
am Bleeding
I
am Naked
I
gave you my
Friendship
I
gave you my
Love
What else do you want.
No. I will not.
I
have only a little Left to give.
I have only my
Peace
and it is Not yous.

Desperation
is a snake in the grass
Lying motionless in wait,
praying
for you to stride past
so it can sink its
Teeth
In and taste your
Blood with its forked
Tongue
Wags back and forth,
Wiggling like a dying
Fish
in the fleshy mouth of her dead face.
She is pretending to be
Alive
by spreading this disease.
By telling all these Lies Lies
Lies
with her every night
while his Other one just
Paces
back and forth and back and forth
just trying to forget and
Deny
it all. It Is Not Real.
He loves the Other and would not
Break
him. These men with grasping
hands and violent eyes. They
Hurt
me so I will hurt them.
I will never be ripped apart
Again.
Please, let him come to me again.
I cannot live without his
Love.
It can only be him. I am lost.
Only his love can be my guiding
Light
fills her face, turned up in rapture, but
Who
does this?
Who
fills her heart?
Who
Saves her?
Will she accept any
Savior!
My Lord. I will serve only you.
As long as you love me, I am
Yours.

Fury,
flung, thrown, beat, bashed
Against Me
But
it’s never really enough,
my God. It is
Never
Enough. Stop talking.
It is all over now. Don’t
Try
to  justify your actions.
You are nothing compared to
Me
I am unflinching
and you are truly
Nothing
Inside his head.
It is all utterly
Dark
eyes bend towards his face.
Blazing with so much
Hatred
They scorch his smirk
cracking across porcelain cheeks. It is
False
love. lies. broken promises!
How can you look at yourself?!
How
can you believe in
Anything
is a reason for this.
Any reason to run away
and swallow stories
Whole
in him. She shines like a star.
She is alive she is beautiful she never dreams of
Revenge
Is rapture sweet.
Especially against you.
I will destroy you.
Your
porcelain smile will stay
Cracked.

Lost
in the darkness.
Please, God, Please
Help
me. I am
Lost. I need
Hope
stolen. The fear
cracks across her
Face
as he stares
in her eyes and
Laughs,
Oh not to worry
my dear sweet child.
I
am just like you.
I
Am Just Like
You
*******. You Coward.
How could you do
This?
How could you do
This to me? Your
Love?
What Love?
There is no Love
Here.
All Alone. Someone.
God, someone. Please.
Help.
Someone come help me.
Someone come. Save me.
I.
I am Lost.

To see your face, to hear your voice
To feel so much happiness with no other choice
My mind is alive and you've set me free
You've let me become the person I wanted to be