Not going to die today
you give me life in the new way
struggling to find you in the chaos in my heart longing for a new start

realness from the heart
realness in me in all I am
I'm just here waiting wanting to hear the sound of your heart beat waiting to hear your heart not skipping a beat

Not so overwhelmed but slightly insecure in you
my future
my life is secure
Your Faithfulness is what I want to know
your gentleness in the afterglow

Tipsy Gaga for you I want to be even as the Wind Blows beautifully through the trees
I feel you strong in the just being
in the just now and the Here and Now

learning new skills learning to write learning that in your goodness and Stillness I can fight

you fight for me so in you I rest
my trials circumstances don't even put you to the test

You Are The God That fights for me the one who comes sweetly to set me free

free from worry free from doubt
learning to slow down
learning that in you my life is not lost but found
more more of you I cry
my heart my spirit groans and sighs

my soul longs for you in my secret place where I'm flooded with tender mercies boundless love unending grace

peace you give hide me in your love no striving gentle peace from above Dwell in my presence you say as I trust you for today

gentle sweet spirit take control
put a hold around my heart Speak Life Into My Soul

free free free like a bird in the tree trust me and you will find trust me and you will see
all the goodness
and great things I have planned for thee

all the thoughts running through your head give them to me instead don't worry don't strive
just rest as I give you new life
free from worry free from strive
just trust and you will see
the beauty that is in me for thee

Ever gentle ever graceful
Ever peaceful in embrace
Not shying away from truth amazing grace

Gently he ran into his saving grace
The arms of his father as he sought his face

Not looking way
But staring into the son
He knew that his life had just begun

On the tipping point of falling over
On the tipping point of giving In
He fell into grace
So life could begin

Thank you for these sweet moments
When my heart comes alive
When all I see is you
In the beauty that surrounds

All I want is you
All I want to know is your presence
Your goodness through the heartache that seems to abound

For a little while I am here on earth
For little while I go through this process of rebirth

Losing all I held dear all I cherished
But I know you are near
In the mystery of the heartache and pain
You are remaking my life molding me
holding me no more shame


Touch me gently now
and lead my soul to
the sweet surrender of loving embrace
where I am broken only to see your face.

I am broken but still you come
Arrest my soul and heart once more
I am learning that your love is hard-core

Never changes never wanes
Never fades never melts away
In fact it only becomes more
as you show me what's in store

You are the sunlight in my soul
The light that guides me
leads me on and makes me whole

Use my life for your glory
I have to let go so you
can write my story

All I am for all you are
All I am for all you are
My heart cries
Wash away the bitterness the lies

Touch me gently now
Reach into my soul
Emptiness now whole

All I want is you
I open up to your love
Your love so true

Simplicity is what you seek
Gently as my heart leaks
As my hurt and trauma wash away
Listening to your words of love spoken in a new way.

Needing your covering today
Needing your anointing today
Needing your presence today
Without you I won't go far
I want to be where you are

Where I go I don't want
to go without you
Don't leave me
don't hide your face from me
Wash my heart and hands clean again
Never the same

In your love I want to be found
Love that burns love that abounds
Love so so deep
Deeper than the Seas
Overwhelms covers
washes away miseries

Cover me with your feathers
fill me with your love
Simplicity is what you want from me
A true heart
Heart like a child innocent new
So I trust and rest in you

My heart may fail me
But you will not
You will not fail me
You will hold me
In your shade
Arms open wide
In you I am made

You Calm me down
Put my life back into shape
Give me a new song
I trust in you alone and all along

Your presence
Your covering
Is what I seek
Longing for you
By the quiet misty creek

It speaks life
It oozes permeates
Breathes life
Into my soul

Joy soon abounding
Out of control

To the God of my life
My salvation
My stronghold
All glory

There is nothing i can't say
that won't take your breath away
nothing i can do that will make
You love me more
Nothing i say
Nothing i do
Makes you love me more

Inside my heart
Inside my mind
Knowing that You i find

I am here waiting for you
with open hands
Open heart
and you come to me
and pour love
deep deep into my soul

It burns it hurts
it overwhelms me to the core
But still i want more

Wholeness in you i find
wanting to be held
wanting to be hugged
caressed
and you make beauty of my mess

You love me all the same
Even as i am riddled with
guilt and shame

You cast it all aside and pour
Your love deep inside

Why do you come for me
I often ask
Why do you come find me
hiding from you

Learning to breathe
Learning to love
Learning that all
comes from above

Gentle Sweet
My heart entreat
With my saviors sweet
Love that burns and courses
through my heart through my soul
through my mind

Come hold me
come love me
again and again

Moving forward to embrace the glory in store
Leaving behind the old that i loved to find more

In YOU than i could ever wish to find
and have and hold
Help me to be strong help me to be bold

As i step out into YOU
that step of trust and faith so new

Sadness will soon fade
as in YOU i am remade

Am raw inside today
Bruised, shattered
Like nothing matters anyway

Heart is heavy
Heart is torn
Can I make it through this life?
Without the scars ripping open
Without all I have rebuilt being torn

I don’t want to do this alone
I need you in my life
My place to call home

The tears are flowing again
Down my cheeks
Flowing from deep out of my heart again
From somewhere deep inside my chest, it leaks

Wanting the pain to end
Wanting life to begin
Taking the leap with you
Trusting all I am to you

Vulnerable emotional
Don’t let me down today
Be my rock my comfort
My warm hug, my warm embrace
As you gently kiss my face

Disintegrated in places
I didn’t even know I had
How am I supposed to heal?
When am not allowed to feel

I feel too deeply
Maybe that’s my problem
Feeling and loving not cheaply
Gets me broken
But now I must mend, unspoken?

Sometimes my heart says
I can't take this anymore
oft contrast of new beginnings
Still, aching heart sore

But still I stand
to see the light of day
arms wide open as
You wash the pain away

It's getting late now
but I cant sleep
Will you come to me
as my heart bleeds

Come, tell me everything
Will be okay
Come strengthen me once more
Drench me with love to the core

Forget the past
and move on they say
It didn't, doesn't matter
anyway

I beg to differ you see
All the long lost laments
The miseries

Embedding in my brain
what if's what could have been's
leave me in pain
Oft drive me insane

Memories of yesteryear's
what they meant to me
precious moments I see so vividly
The one's I recall that make me cry
The one's that creep in my soul
The one's that won't die

Take me away from this place
Where darkness reigns
Out of the muck and mire
Where oft so many things seem dire

On a new path that has begun
A beautiful song yet unsung
Hold my hand as I journey on
Be my guide be my hearts song

To new beginnings to life begun
To songs yet unsung
True story man!!
life has begun!!