Serpentine tongue traces
The contours and curves
Of my body

Slithering
                 Writhing
                                  Shaking                  
Shivering

Proclamations of the pleasure I'm so anticipating
Frantic
Animalistic
Carnal hungers of the flesh
If sins were truly deadly
My achiles heel would be his lips

Serene
aqua marine pools
Undress my psyche
Shedding the skin
I let most people see
your breath hot & sensual
tickles the nape of my neck
Your intuitive hands explore my whole body
With delicious detail
The expressions on your face savoring moments in the dark
Each pause, shudder, sigh
Captivated in your eyes
It's never been like this
For me before
You make love to my body, my mind, and soul
Not the typical mechanics
Transcendent,  almost spiritual
Soul Seduction  
Truly bearing it all
So why am I afraid
To tell you
So terrified to fall ?

I offer this
Because theres nothing more
Just two feet a heartbeat
And a sample of my soul
I could write your name
On the receeding skyline
As dusk engulfs the sun
We could chase it forever
Fly too close and surely burn
vaporized, reduced to dust
Ashes on a pire of lost entities
forgotten as the night closes in
As if we were never here to begin with
As insignificant as faint embers
Floating into the breeze
Ascending higher
Chasing infinity
One consciousness subjectively
Reaching out to touch
Eternity.

The calm after the storm
Is an unsettling silence
The quiet that falls into the space
where apologies should be found
But instead we decide
Were both too proud
Too stuck in our ways
To say it out loud
To tell you how I need you
When my eyes meet yours for an instant
Yet I look away
Afraid of the monster im harboring
Trying to keep at bay
The disfigured soul
Behind the mask
Guarded and mutilated
trying to staple shut
Lacerations of yesteryears
That still bleed into today
To steal the feeling of sunshine on my face
Voices that tell me
Its not ok. Look in the mirror. Arent you ashamed? Ashamed of all the things you could never say
In the spaces where your fear
always got in the way of Everything
Always an excuse
Now you get to watch him
Walk away
As you count his strides
Cause you could never just confide
How much you needed his warm embrace
Now its all unfinished business
How his hand once whispered
Across your cheek
Now his footsteps echo into the empty street
Which will slip into the sands of time
Washed away like tears in the rain, dry your eyes
realize
cant relive it, cant rewind, cant take back what was uttered in the spaces where apologies should have resided.
The years go by
And you will still remember
How he didnt even check his shoulder
on the day that his footsteps just kept getting further
& there's no one you can blame
... you let him walk away.

Phantom like arachnid crawl
Ghostly apparition
Descends bedroom wall
Silence
The silence is deafening
As she hangs
Practically materialized
He tries to run
But cannot hide
Cannot move
Paralyzed
Yet his eyes stay wide
Anticipation
Morbid fascination
Voulnerable prey
Trapped in a sickly
Sticky straightjacket
Its color akin
with spun Moonlight
Maddenig
He struggles and squirms
But not for long
Incapacitated by the silence
Succumb to her sting
Gifted the kiss of death
As wind agitates tree leaves
Blackness envelopes consciousness
Mind folds down
Around exhaustion
Eyelids weary, head too heavy
Weathered hands grasp
But his last breath escapes
tired lungs
Tangles into the breeze
Ascends higher, without hesitation
To agitate trees leaves

I cut my psyche open
And the ink bleeds black
Days surpassed
Suppressed inside
Spill onto pages
been Waging war on myself for ages
Depressed by the weight
Of the world
On my shoulders
Just gotta keep on keepin on
dancing to my own beat
Stay on my toes, won't pull The rug from under my own two feet again
Seeking forever in pursuit searching
For a place to rest my weary head
At the end of the day
I fumble, trip, stumble
Fall on my face, humbled
Rendered incapacitated, jaded, numb
But my perspective is refreshed
So I reluctantly succumb
I've accepted the fact
I'm leaving my past where it belongs
Time to wake up, open my eyes
It took so long, but now I realize
I was living in a haze
hypnotized
Manipulated and propped up by lies
empty promises now fall on deaf ears
No mistakes here
Only lessons learned
Another page to turn
The other cheek
Countless passages and chapters
To burn
Won't be dictated, won't be defined
Can't be distracted, the day is mine
For the taking
There will be no more faking my way
Through another smile
I''ve wandered countless miles to make it where I am today
And I'll be ****** if anyone tries to stand in my way

Tiny sunbeams try to leak
through the cracks
Of this damaged, weathered
Emmaculately fashioned mask
The storm has passed, yet
Theres a draught in my soul
Theres nothing inside
No light will reach to shine
Where nothing can grow
where blackness resides