This heat is sweltering
we wait
breathing out evaporated air
dried upon exit
from our humid wrapped lungs.
Our sweat co-mingles
forming a pool
underneath--
I raise to 90 degrees
look to you
watching--as a predator would
your chest raise and collapse.
I watch you the wave motions of your swallow
the slight twitch of your right eye
a bead of sweat loose its foothold
and roll down your temple.
I move to sit atop you
feeling your pelvis against my inner thigh
feel as skin slides against skin
easily done---you see my lips widen
revealing a smile,
and I revel in the response
I feel.

When we were new
I made plans
grand plans
for you
for us.
So young with
caramel fingers and toes
plump and soft as pillows
I held you close
and sang to you those
songs I loved the most.
And now your older
stronger, wiser
off to lands beyond our mountains.
Now I'm old
those plans full grown
and flowered rich
with promises fulfilled
until--
that life that I-with love- created
that was you
was snuffed out suddenly
what am I to do?

Why not
Why not lay here
let the room spin above us
the ceiling fan holds still.
Let's watch as everything else spins away
****** through a hole
that leaves all else dark.

He just lost faith
It ate and scraped away
at his soul
and as he slipped into that wide crevice
--to climb out again---
-----to fall back in----
tears would fall
from his eyes
---and mine.
My love was dying slowly,
then all to quickly he was gone
behind him was a emaciated shell
that I clutched to my breast.

Now that I have you
I find I can't stand you
I wish you'd just go away
for my eyes go a flutter
when he walks on over
pulling me along the way.

The sun pours through the pores
of silken curtains hung.

I turn my face towards its warmth
the colour touches eye lash and cheek.

I turn my face upwards
I feel His lathering, His glow indulges me.

But then a cloud comes heavily
covering both sun and warmth

it leaves my eyes looking up at
dark.

For a long time I craved
-----voice----
I went to edges dangerous
to hear the crashing of waves
liquid thunder against gray cliffs.
I stepped
feet bare
above the grass
green--too green--
too vibrantly alive
in this numb place.
Bending I looked down
on an instant drop
my body quivered
my skin pulled tight
my eyes grew wide.
For a long time I craved
this moment to come
---its here---
and now...
I wish I had never sought it out.