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A S Guerra Aug 2015
Your images echo off the walls of my mind and all I’m left with is a transparent ghost, a phantasm that will never capture the essence of who you were and what you meant to me. Your features come into focus, clearly and with a precision that only someone who spent years studying you could remember.

Like a blow to the stomach, I intake my breath quickly and sharply. A thousand painful pangs accompany your face now. A hundred thoughts cascade into my head and intertwine until I can’t just focus on one and the result is a jumbled mess of meaningless words that I wish could have saved you.

Like a gun to the ******* head, the bullets ricochet and pierce every part of who I am. The loneliness of your death, the emptiness you left behind. I have no idea how to even begin closing the gaping wound purging a ******* river from inside me.

Like catching water in a bottomless glass.

Your fragility comes into view, the softness of the lines etched into the corners of your honey stained eyes. I see the waves of your hair adhere to your face with the tears that just won’t stop coming. I watch you stumble in confusion and desperately claw your way to what you believe to be your savior. I hear you mutter something to a deaf world, your beauty contorted in pain. I see you take your last breath and watch as you pull the trigger, with the gun to both of our heads.
A S Guerra Jul 2015
Eve
I held him tight and felt the slow roll of slight drops rocket down my arm.
One.
Two.
Three.
Gaining momentum, I lost count. Quickening in speed and increasing in number. The sobs racked his body back and forth and his muffled cries echoed in my bones.
His pain radiated through me.
Weeping pinpricks formed on my dress, his pants; darkening the material, turning it a uniform, grungy grey, running away from the initial impact. Puddles of salt collected in the fold of my bow. Weighed down with everything he felt, they clung to my skin and then they drip dropped.
The oh so familiar fabric of his shirt stretched across his back; arched with grief, his head now buried in the palms of his hands.
I sensed the appreciation of my silence, the aversion of my gaze; the way with which I accepted his broken form and withheld all questions and all speech.
Nothing mattered but us, but now.
My body changed positions, revolving around his anguish; finding comfort in his closeness, his warmth. My hand found its way to his and he returned a gentle pulse.
The storm was not over, but I knew then how much I loved him, how much we needed each other; he was my sun, and I was the moon and the stars.
A S Guerra Jul 2015
Departure
Always bittersweet

Part one --
Flits off the tongue and the teeth
Depa --
Rolling smoothly and richly, whispering through caverns and chasms

Part two --
Harshly invades the palate, like bricks scraping on concrete
Ture --
Severely escaping wind through tree trunks and mountaintops

Linking soft and hard, beginning and end

Departure --
The confusion of words and sounds
A S Guerra Jun 2015
Drip.
Drip.
Drip.
I watched the scarlet specks slap the stage that resided beneath my feet. She grabbed my hand, some unknown perfect stranger, still confined to her own hospital bed, and said, “It’s going to be okay. You did the right thing.” Returning my countenance, that had thus far been afflicted, with a smile. And oh how I wish I could believe her, but even without glancing up I was all too aware that her eyes were out of her lips’ jurisdiction.
Still I stood in place; my palm yet to be released by this compassionate maiden who I knew recognized her own ****** and pangs in my premature senescence. But again, I focused on the crimson beads that remained between my legs, muddying the unblemished sheen of that linoleum floor.
This junction of misery and recognition of loss came to a precipitous end when the nurse tromped through and encroached on our plane. Hurriedly, she jostled and jammed me into a small bathroom; the impression of the unnamed woman’s touch still native to my hands.

— The End —