Chest feeling heavy and overburdened,
Mind foggy uncertain as to whom I am,
Thinking of ways to be me,
But then stumbles upon the thought,
Who am I?

Blood drips down my eyes the closer I look in the abyss,
Fear rips into my mind the deeper I go in,
Terror awaits me as I struggle through the mist,
Never knowing if I can continue on as myself,
What am I?

Death is what I dream while sorrow is what I feel,
Madness is how I think and regret is my burden,
Struggling to be free from pain,
Emptiness may be the only thing to gain,
How am I?

Imagine if your soul was trapped,
You couldn't see or hear a sound,
But you could feel as if you have drowned,
The next thing you know you're whole being is writhing in agony,
As if to pour salt on an open wound,
As a needle would pierce your pupil,
A dagger ****** into your heart,
Your legs crushed into powder,
Arms torn apart as though were by wire,
Could I?

Thrown into this hell,
Where I shall dwell never able to see into me,
Falling down as if there were no end,
Hiding from which it began,
Am I?

This is a plea,
So now as it should be,
I go alone through this agony,
I can't ask for help you see,
Because if I did who would I be?

Those coursing within my own design,
Never fearing when I mention the dimension,
Blood coursing throughout my mind,
Eating to survive on the little provisions.

Enter into the fray,
Holding near my heart as we herald,
Those who provide the weak through prayer,
I seen the foes who've periled.

My true mind not for those who seek guidance,
Nor is it for those who need love,
For it is full of dark subsidence,
Reaching as I put on this glove,
Hating all within me,
Slain by those under my decree,
Blood dripping down my spine,
Blade now dull never again to be divine.

All I see is red,
As I have been awakened,
Darkness sleeps with me in my own bed,
Drowning in my head in the end.

The monster that lies deep,
Demons talking as I sleep,
Doomed I shall be,
Blackened my heart is you see,
For all who have tried to save me,
Save me from the monsters,
From the demons,
From myself,
For all this time you been trapped,
Just as I am locked deep down,
Holding on struggling not to be strapped,
But now all I do is frown.

Because now is too late for me,
I have lost that which I held dear to me,
For now I see,
This whole time my mind,
Is nothing but madness.

As I stared into your eyes
Seeing all that is within your soul
Feeling all the blue and red that resonates in you
I fell in love in that moment and asked "would you love me"?

Four Months,
These months were the best in my life
Laughing dancing caring holding
Looking into your eyes in the sunlight
Mesmerized by the beauty I see in this moonlight
The blue in your eyes glistening
Your face reflecting off the waters
Thinking this is true love I showed you my heart!

Then you showed me that you never cared
Crushing my soul that I thought was here
Loving what apparently was never there
Bleeding through my heart
Crying out as my mind had left
Now laying on the floor as I drifted away.

Never will I be the same
Never leaving as I came
The light now dimmed
Darkness now enshrouded

Never was I loved
Like the way That I had Loved you.

Through the mind we can conceive,
Through our hearts we try to be relieved,
Blood pumping heart pounding,
Mind numbing head aching.

To envision oneself in a glance,
To be remembered by mastering a stance,
A stance to show your hard work,
Never wanting to be a ****,
Always smiling and showing the world your feelings,
But in the end they think that your deceiving.

You gave them your heart,
Showed them you had art,
But never have they known,
How you have been so alone.

Trying to be a better man,
Not becoming those who can be themselves with no fear,
Struggling to reveal that your heart is near,
Near to those you love,
But now fly off like the dove.

Love to those you care to protect,
Lose those that you couldn't prevent.

When the White Flowers bloom,
When your friend is feeling down,
But you don't want them to gloom,
Trying to not make them frown.

You express to them how you understand,
But never know what to say,
You thought of things to say as planned,
And all you want is to pray.

Pray that they feel better,
That they can never be in gloom,
But never frown to stand proud,
So that the White Flower may bloom.

Every time we attempt to express our feelings.
The feelings overwhelm our body.
As it overwhelms us the heat starts to build up within.
Heat waves coursing through my body, mind, and soul.
As thy muscle tense up, vains pumping, blood boiling.
Bones quaking, teeth grinding, all for the way.
The way we feel in our soul to those dear.
Those of us who only wish to be near.
Closer to the one whom we charrish, with whom we love.

But there's a few moments when this is too strong.
So strong we can't even speak not words but sounds.
We try to talk yet no one ever can understand.
Why is it that no one can understand the way we feel.
Though we try and try to no itinerary of where to be.
We seek a place to be able to articulate our love freely.

All we need is the soul's heart within us to simply say.
"I love you and all that is you".
The Soul's Heart!