In the dead of night I yearn for you,
For your connection,
And the belief that you are someone,
And I am someone,
And that there is significance enshrined in our exchange.
I am made small by the vastness of this immense world.
7 billion souls, and I am but a diminutive voice in the crowd.
I hope that you hear my voice,
As I hear yours.
I hope that we might discourse,
You and I.
And I hope that,
We might impact some souls outside our circle.
To think otherwise is too much to bear.
I cannot carry a cross of anonymity,
A cross of insignificance.
I must voice my thoughts,
And hope they are heard.
Because if a poet writes and has no reader,
Did the poet write at all?
So here is to you, dear reader.
My shameless plug for your continued loyalty--
Without you, I am not me.
I have reduced your readership to mere pity,
Still I must ask--
Like the metallurgists of yesteryear,
I must melt, mold, mend, and make.
Like a master teaching his apprentice,
Schooling him in the ancient ways,
So too must I impart on my readers my knowledge, my thoughts, my living.
Leaden words of silver roll off my gilded tongue,
(Perhaps someday you, too, shall have gold-plated lips),
Into the warm, receptive ears of followers devout.
You admire my art,
And rightfully so.
But I need you, as surely as you need me.
You see, intricate inlays and ruby-studded pommels are beautiful, yes.
But the sword dispatches a sterling service, soldier.
It is functional, as are my own subversive talents.
The wars you wage with my weapons are worthy ones,
And we ought both take pride in them.
Without your deeds I would have a mere hobby, not a duty.
But I have traded the battle swords of ages long past
For the fountain pen of today, and tomorrow.
Heed my words,
Even as you would kneel before my sword.
The New World Blacksmith
Lean in a little closer, my love,
And let me tell you my plan.
I have a plan, oh yes.
Don't you worry, I've got a plan.
I've got a plan to love you today,
I've got a plan to be there for you,
To hold you, to cherish you as my own.
I've got a plan to spend my life with you,
Grow old with you,
Grow a family, too.
I've got a plan to keep you by my side,
I've got a plan to make plans;
I've got a plan to plan a plan that will show you my love more true
Than I could ever do.
And so I write this to you,
Its all around.
In the hug of a friend,
In the blue of the sky.
In the life-giving rain,
Still love survives.
In the cookies you eat,
In the garden you sow.
In melancholy partnerships,
Still love can grow.
In the warmth of a bed,
In the card from a friend.
In the darkest of places,
Love is there til the end.
It brings together;
In marriages long-lasting,
In Santa's bottomless sack,
Its all you need.
cliche, I know. Doesn't make it any less true.
I'm going through old desk drawers.
Changing rooms, moving down to the basement.
I must finally be a twentynothing after all these years.
I'm going through old cards,
Things I never had the heart to throw away.
My mom calls me a pack rat,
Says I'm a hoarder.
Maybe she's right,
But I still can't fault myself.
I pack away memories, hoard treasures of information and sentiment.
The base layer of sediment for my being.
In one drawer I find an old model airplane,
From an erector set when I was young.
I remember building it with my dad--
The propellor still turns.
How could I throw it away?
Even now, I think I'll keep it.
And look on it, some years hence,
And remember, as I do now.
I have dozens and dozens of cards.
Birthdays, graduations, christmases, milestones, achievements.
In them I read emotion poured out,
Words too sappy for speech,
Too thick and viscous.
In cards they flow like fine wine,
I have old poems,
Written seven years ago and more.
Hundreds and hundreds of them.
In them I see leaves of growth.
Old friends are enshrined within the ancient artifacts of these dark burial tombs;
I open them and reminisce fondly.
These things are proof that I was here,
That I existed,
More so than my bones could ever be.
They show a person, a being--
Inanimate objects are no less alive than we, dear friend.
They are endowed with our spirit,
And their memories will long outlast our corporeal selves.
Pack away your memories,
Hold them close.
They are not trash,
Despite whatever your mom might say.
Splints are beginning to break,
wounds are seeping through the bandage,
sores have become infected,
scabs picked and pulsating--
Aspirin won't take away the throbbing pain,
nor will morphine numb the brain--
the leg below the bloody turniquet
Maggots inching closer,
flies eagerly buzzing overhead,
divebombing into ruptured flesh
oozing blood and pus--
the body bag lingers menacingly
sporting its gaping maw,
hungry for mangled flesh
and broken bones.
Bloodshot eyes pleading,
crooked mouth on a broken jaw begging,
a sick contortion of a once beautiful body
whores forlornly on busy streets--
writhing in the weak mortal vessel that damns them.
How long has it been lying there?
Trying hopelessly to stand stumbling like an old dog
in its final moments of consciousness
before the impending ejection--
how many have passed it by
with a blind salute
and a knowing fake smile?
How long must this poor soul drudge through time
slowly draining its insides
and flesh feasted by the flies,
dragged along by marionette strings--
when will we see this creature,
in need of its good samaritan--
when will we stop the transient fix,
peel off the blood-soaked bandages,
and ultimately stare into the fissures
for a final, effective prognosis?
Look this bastard in the eye,
peruse its peeling sallow skin
hanging loose off cadaverous limbs--
gasping cries rendered soft moans,
lying in a cesspool of bodily fluids--
piss and shit and blood and pus
drowning within itself--
trace your fingers along the scars and wounds,
inhale the stink of death,
accept your incapacity to understand the weight of its history--
a great anguish heralded by generations afore.
Do not, then,
think it wise to abandon the poor wretch,
as your forefathers had done--
The Poison lies within you.
To heal, then--
is not a matter of medicine,
is not a matter of science,
is not a matter of faith--
it is a matter of action.
It is sick.
It is dying.
And it will take us all with it.
Would you die for its sins?