Look at me. What do you see?
Do you see the calm, cool and collected girl in front of you?
That's what they all see.
I look at you. What do I see?
I watch you laugh at the jokes I force upon us to fill the silence.
That's what I always see.
Look at me. What do you see?
Do you see the confidence of a girl with an easy life?
That's what they all see.
I look at you. What do I see?
I see in your eyes the contentment of your soul; the heart of a life that is full.
That is what I always see.
Look at me. What do you see?
Can you see my green eyes on the verge of spilling over ready to expose my lonely soul?
Don't worry, no one ever sees.
My heart finally healed but it's once again shattered
I showed my true self but it didn't even matter.
I thought I'd found love but instead I found sadness,
the butterflies are dead now my mind is all madness.
I laugh to drown out
the deafening yet eerie sadness
held within myself.
You told me your timid lies from behind the closed door,
Forgetting the truth that I was actually inside the peeping hole.
Between the tears there is...laughter
Between the tears there are...smiles
Between the tears there is...sunshine
Between the tears there is...life
But the tears are where he is and where my heart will always be.
I
just want to dance.
Feel each rhythm inside my veins,
pump no blood, but the soul that's been
dead for ages.
Move in slow motion,
jump to stay still,
combat boots in the air,
crowd surfing the faces of passion.
I just want to dance,
have the muzik be a funeral
to all of my stoned anguish,
have it be the only layer,
that can make love
to my skin.
Long hair being curled
by the sound waves,
eye lashes never blinking,
for this is no time
to bring into the past.
Smell of sweat and
flowers drenching the air,
Giving me goosebumps,
taking away my sins,
ah music,
a heaven's whore.
More, let the pain serve more,
Eat it and gain.
I unfocus my eyes so often
They wonder where I go
But it’s you, my dear
Since you’ve gone so long
I can’t bear to finish the book
We shared mutual feelings on
So it sits collecting dust
On my shelf alone
Like your picture in my yearbook
With such a goofy smile
That’s all that’s left
I don’t see you anymore
But you live in my dreams
And I wonder maybe
Am I in yours too?
Do you remember the girl
With the book under her arm
The one you looked at
With your wily charm
That made her fall
With one look in her eye
Now you’ve left me at night
To think of your smile
Your abrupt disappearances
The twinkle in your eye
Your voice pitched too high
Wondering if you think
Of the girl you left behind.
its nights like these when i wonder with all my being,
if i will ever be able to rid my mind, my heart of you.
though most days i get through as easily as before,
but just like before i slip back into your unknown grip.
i dont want you anymore.
i try so hard to believe that you are better with her.
if it were ever possible to live a lie completely id choose that.
people say they understand how i feel but in reality
no one knows how i feel.
i dont want to want you anymore.
i refuse to continue this lifestyle.
loving someone that is loving someone else.
its okay though...
i understand...
I feel the shrug of the passing winds,
That gather beyond my solemn place,
Where indifferent birds fly to and from,
With only lost dreams, real as her face.
