There was once a guy who would do his best to treat me well
Wiped all my tears and tried to make sure they never fell again
He would go to extraordinary lengths to make me happy
Now he's the reason why my tears fall
Now he mistreats me
There was once a guy who cared non-stop for me
And gave his all for me
Now he doesn't care
And the effort doesn't exist anymore
There was once a guy who thought I was precious
I was worth his time and he wanted to spend most of it with me
He would stay up just to talk to me
Now his time is too precious to be spared for a few minutes
And I'm worthless to him
He's gone and I'm left to face the lonely nights alone
There was once a guy who would try to fix all the problems
He would stay and talk till it was solved
He cared about the relationship that much
Now he leaves
Now he's tired of this shit
And this relationship doesn't mean anything to him
There once was a guy who would have given me the moon and stars
He would make my dreams reality
Now he gives me pain
And made my nightmares reality
He changed and I don't recognize him anymore
He used to be the guy who used to whisper sweet words?
Now he yells curses at me?
He used to make promises and keep them
Now he is stomping those promises to pieces
There was once a guy who loved me
Now he doesn't.
You say you miss me
But where are you
You say you love me
But you hurt me
You say you care
But you rip my heart out
You've changed into a devil
Feeding on my pain and heartache
And now you let me go
I will leave without turning back once
Just remember, if you ever regret it
I won't be there to say, "I told you so"
Goodbye forever, my bittersweet love
Don't miss me when I'm gone
You left me
with a broken heart
I miss you
want to be near you
want to run away from you
You are happiness
My world is
Where are you?
I want to disappear
The time for our end is near
I can feel it weighing on my shoulders
I know because you treat her the same
The same way you treated me
I am slowly being replaced
I have now become the source of your pain
Our forever is ending
It's closer and closer everyday
The anxiety rises and I'm the only one who feels it
With every harsh word, I feel the hate
And it is making my heart stone cold
The feeling of worthiness you once gave me is gone
And soon the love will be gone also
Slowly drifting away
Forever is over
There's a storm
Time to take cover
Hide in my house in the dark
Disaster is here to ruin everything
Everything we worked so hard to build
All the effort and hard work was worthless
The lightening is booming
It hurts my head
I want it to stop
But when it starts, there's no way out
The horrible storm drove you away
Leaving me broken and alone
In the ruins of the past
With my tears falling as heavily as the rain
The storm is gone and so are you
Nobody ever misses me right away.
I have a tendency of making my way into parts of your life that you don’t notice until long after I’m gone.
You’ll think of me in the laundromat, when someone three washers down has the same fabric softener I had just washed my clothes with the night before our first date.
You’ll think of me at the coffee shop, when someone ahead of you in line asks for three sugars and two creamers, like I used to.
You’ll think of me when your sister shows up to your house wearing the same nail polish I did the first time you kissed the back of my hand.
You’ll think of me when you’re in the car alone and you realize you don’t turn on the radio anymore, ‘cause our silence used to be better than whatever was playing.
You won’t really realize it until it’s too late and I’m too far gone.
Until I’m so deeply embedded into your memory and intertwined into your everyday life.
You won’t miss me immediately.
It’ll take some time.
I miss my razor blade
I miss it sinking into my skin
Slowly breaking open the skin
I miss having that comfort
For when I'm shaking uncontrollably like this
For when I feel like I'm losing my sanity
What's standing between my blade and I?
A stupid promise
A promise that's making me go insane
I can feel it
My heart rate increasing
The lust for my razor blade against my wrist
I want it, but I can't have it
I almost wrote you a love song once
but then I remembered how much I hate love songs
and I decided to just
write you this instead
see most people live life backwards
they’re dead before they find life
and it’s usually too late
and I was that person until I stumbled across you
I found my heartbeat in your spontaneity
and I found my smile in your lips
you touched me in places without
using your hands
and when I cry, you don’t silence me by telling me
"it’ll get better"
you don’t wipe away my tears
you let me cry
and that’s more than anyone has ever done for me
and when I want to thank you
I realize I don’t know how
but you tell me “you’re welcome"
in a million different ways
and I want to thank you for that too
but I don’t know how to do that either
that was when I almost wrote you a love song
but I stopped when I realized that I hated love songs
and I loved you
so I wrote you this instead