North Hollywood, CA   
My official title is Singer/Actor/Writer/Dreamer/Dork...and that "dork" encompasses a LOT of things--hobbies, interests, and a general state of being. I'm an Air Force Brat--from Everywhere and No Where. It's been yeeeeaaars since I've felt like writing poetry. Instead, I've been writing blogs, novels, and short films. I'll probably post some of my older stuff, as well as a few new pieces that I'm willing to share. We shall see.
My official title is Singer/Actor/Writer/Dreamer/Dork...and that "dork" encompasses a LOT of things--hobbies, interests, and a general state of being. I'm an Air Force Brat--from Everywhere and No Where. It's been yeeeeaaars since I've felt like writing poetry. Instead, I've been writing blogs, novels, and short films. I'll probably post some of my older stuff, as well as a few new pieces that I'm willing to share. We shall see.

Bloody bastard.

Verily, thou art.

If thine own charms woulds't not deliquesce my pow'rs,
       mayhaps my quill
woulds't obey my

commands...

Yet ~ evermore ~ am I slave

to thy smirks

and provocations

...both vexations to me.


I turn 'round,
but come back

                       time again.

(Provoking my ire.)

Thou

                   knave.

    Rogue.

(bloody bastard.)

Thou've been a naughty swain.
Get thee to my rooms.

Have you put a spell on me?
Am I tips?

Yours
?

Drubk texting is for the bus.

Bird s.

Good lord.

Yeah. Foxy.

Are. Foxy, nor dodgy.

Ahhh,

G'night! Not focus!

Foxy

OH MY GOD.

the fire the burns the scraping away
the meat the pink the bruises
you
the coals the blood the artery
the pulsing the rhythm the dirt
are
the hallucinations the strangling the hold
the unbearable the rust the nails
not
the vomit the pulling the heat
the pumping the stretching the lips
what
the fucking the magic the death
the waste the freak the wild
you
the wings the mess the struggle
the danger the light the nobility
wish
the limits the explorer the calm
the unruly the time the definition
to
the orgasm the pain the cutting
the lie the tremble the sweet
be
the words the smoke the eyes
the grasping the want the now
.

So many people, so many moments, so many memories. Or maybe it's all my imagination. Or something I once heard...a story somebody once told me...

my morning blush, which fathers a star, brings the childlike ghost of

              need.

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I'd been thinking about writing this poem for a while, and when the media was so concerned over the rapists' future and not the victim (Steubenville), I decided I should stop jotting down random thoughts and actually write it. We keep hearing the term "rape culture." Here's a victim's viewpoint...and remember that this victim could be your mother, your sister, your grandmother, your best friend, your girlfriend, your wife, your child.

I'm pleased with it, but am frustrated that I couldn't get all the NOs to be perfectly aligned! Ah, well.

P.S. The subject is hidden (not too well) in the title.

I have spent

So.


Many.


Years.



hiding my tears from everyone.

I discovered today that

                                           even when alone


(not a human soul in sight)


                                i hide from myself.

(i cover my face

          and turn away)

Realizations. Discoveries. Trying to stay Happy and Strong for too long.

P.S. I was crying over my dog. I had made the decision to say goodbye. A poem will eventually come about her and me and us...but I have a tough time really digging into my soul, so that may be a long time in coming.

You want to know what I want?

       A proper date.
    Flowers. Not always. Once every few months is fine.
  To be wooed, courted a bit.
Gooooooood sex. Bodies drenched and flushed.
A Damn Fine Kiss. (Suddenly gathered in someone's arms in the middle of the street.
   The kind that leaves you breathless, panting, and needing more.)
     A good cuddle on the sofa during THE WALKING DEAD.
       Hours of intellectual conversation as foreplay.

You want to know what I get?

Hanging out with friends.
    Pictures of flowers sent to my Facebook inbox.
      Someone letting me know they're quite keen on me, but only until I show an interest back.
        Half-hearted whatever-the-hell that's supposed to be.
           Lazy kisses where the mind wanders.
        Forcing my dog to cuddle during walker attacks.
     Having to explain what "Beware the Ides of March" means. Among too many other things.
   Mind games.
And secret messages so their wives don't see.

I get creepsters
and/or
married men
and/or
people from out of town/state/country who fancy me.

That last one's not bad, mind you. Just not very possible.

So if you're keen...
ask yourself...

...which one of those categories do you fall under?

Feeling bitchy today. It happens. I just don't usually voice it...certainly not in public.
 
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