Reno, NV    1998 -    
I call myself an 18 y/o piece of shit.
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I call myself an 18 y/o piece of shit.
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I'm sorry that I look away every time I catch your glance
But I got hurt so badly the last time I took a chance
I know it sounds cliche but I can't fall into your trance
I can't allow myself to be anything more than an acquaintance

But you're so beautiful
So beautiful
And if I wasn't so fucked I probably could love you
If you wanted me to
You're so beautiful

And love at first sight might not be love at all
I know you have my number, but you probably won't call
The anticipation's enough to make my flesh crawl
I've never felt so tiny, no I've never felt so small

But you're so beautiful
So beautiful
And if you weren't across the room I could probably love you
If you wanted me to
Because you're so beautiful

And I love you
Yes I love you
Your eyes are kind and large
I have to fight the urge
To walk over
I won't walk over

-E (c) 2017

This is for J.M., written on 3/18/17, after a concert at The Jungle.
#eyes   #relationship   #the   #over   #walk   #18   #gaze   #jungle   #jack   #fixation  

Dreams suck
Because you can have a dream
Where a boy kisses you
And you really, really like that boy in real life
Just to wake up
And realize that he didn't actually sleep over
He didn't actually post a video of you guys kissing for the first time on YouTube (?)
You were just
Dreaming

-E (c) 2017

I HAD A DREAM LAST NIGHT THAT HE CAME OVER TO MY HOUSE AND IT WAS STILL CHRISTMAS AND WE PLAYED IN THE SNOW AND HE BROKE A CANDY CANE WHY IS LIFE UNFAIR
#love   #dream   #kiss   #boyfriend   #dreams   #boy   #boys   #girlfriend   #kissing   #unfair  

we didn't have a honeymoon phase
you did
i didn't

deadwood haiku is
exactly what the fuck it
sounds like, cocksucker

#haiku   #deadwood  

Took a bat to a truck at a party
It wasn't my truck
I was pretty drunk, it was at a party
Struck the glass and made the truck bleed
The owner wasn't even mad about it
He let me hit it again
He started beating it with me with a ski
Rich people have skis in their garages
Owner said it was his dad's truck
We beat it until it bled out in the street
It felt good to beat something
Feels good he said
To beat instead of get beat

-E (c) 2017

#abuse   #father   #dad   #guy   #beat   #dude   #garage   #truck   #skiing   #ski  

So,
I'm not a bad college student.
We'll start with that.
But,
When I do skip class,
I try to do it on review days.
WHY DO I ALWAYS END UP SHOWING UP ON REVIEW DAYS?

-E (c) 2017

Why is this my life?
#why   #bad   #day   #math   #college   #class   #student   #community   #classes   #review  

maybe we're all
a little bit tired of
fighting for things
that aren't changing

maybe we're all
somewhat bitter
about the people
we failed to love

maybe we just need
a little more hope in
our heads when we
go to sleep tonight

maybe i'm just rambling
like a madman unhinged
& nobody will hear what
i'm actually trying to say

Some days I wish I had a few extra hours to sleep...
 
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