It's impossible to like you

I never truly did


It's impossible to like you

when I’ve always loved him
Even though we're not together,
we’ll always have this thing
Me for him
him for me
We’re simply meant to be.

Time ticking on the wall
It enters my thoughts, consumes them all
Envelops me, body and soul
It simply devours me whole
Why do I care? Why am I concerned?
I wish I had never learned
Then I wouldn’t know what the ticking meant
And to my mind it wouldn’t make the slightest dent
I need to tear it down, that petrifying sound
Break free and live my life unbound
So here I go and down it crashes
To me all time turns to ashes
I am free - free to soar
Inside I hear time’s distant roar

I can’t get to sleep
Because my brain over thinks

I wish I could shrink it

For a night at least,
Just close my eyes and drift off 

But my mind is racing
Steadily chasing
The thoughts overcoming me,
The thoughts keep outrunning me
I wish I was with you
I can't help but miss you
I try to tell myself otherwise
Keep piling lies on lies
I wish the lies were true
I don’t know why I want you
Alone the sleep won’t come
But you’re not coming either

Astronauts dance across you
Leaving trails of star dust and milky way paths
Illuminated by the glow of the night
I trace the patterns with my earthly fingertips
Jumping from star to star and moon to moon
I say you belong in outer space
You're far too perfect for the world I'm bound to
I star gaze at your eyes, the planets of your soul
Smile, see what I see, my dear
For you are my beautiful atmosphere