A Poem by AshliJane
September 19, 2009

My mind
Is racing
Wanting to explode
I can’t take this **** now
Emotional overload
My tears
They fall
It’s you they’re for
With every thought
They hit the floor
My heart
It aches
It’s physically hurting
With every message
I feel it burning
My stomach
Is sick
I feel like ****
It makes me wonder
Is this it?
My body
Is numb
I’m going crazy
My future all of a sudden
Looks real hazy

September 13, 2009

Never have I been so sure
Of what my heart does feel
I wake every morning
Thinking its real
When I saw him standing there
Across the crowded room
No one else mattered
It all happened so soon
My temporary courage
Came well into play
My whole world changed
That very day
In a state I shouldn’t remember
I will never forget
My eyes are wide open
I can never regret
I have given him my heart
And his it will always be
No matter what happens
Its always you and me

December 1, 2009

Now I know what its like
To be the one who needs saving
I’m trying to stay strong
Without caving
My thoughts I’m enslaving
Try to save everyone
From hearing what I have to say
My mind will be free one day
To all the people who ****** me over
Its going to come back to you
You’ll **** the wrong person off
And they’ll come with there crew
You’ll have nothing to do
You’ll be *******
All the other people you ****** over
They won’t help you in the end
They just wanted there **** back
That’s why they were your friend
Now I’m gone and happy
By the time you get up
When you call me for help
I still won’t give a ****

Ashli Jane

December 11, 2009

Give me one ******* minute to breath
Baby lets just leave
Earn our reprieve
That we both need
This world is ******* insane
The memories my thoughts contain
And eruption in my brain
This city is nothing to gain
I want to leave
Everything that eats away at me
I want to be out of contact
My valuables are compact
You’re all I need and that’s that
Baby you’re all I need
Forever and always
The only one I want
Even on the bad days
I can never complain
When everything’s insane
Cause you’re on my brain
Then you keep me
From catching that plane
My love is strong
We made it this long
We can’t be wrong
The phone rings
Its 3 o’clock in the morning
She’s calling, morning
But she deserves to know
What made me grow
Made me get up and go
I am so over you though
I am tired of being let down
I’m not ******* around
Let’s get out of this town
I’m not worried about letting them down

Ashli Jane

November 30, 2009

Side by side
We’ll make it in the end
Be very successful
And have the best friends
One of us will be discovered
Somehow one day
And then its just the two of us
And what the whole world has to say
We will do big things
And be remembered
Then we’ll look back
On the best November
When times got the worst
And I didn’t want to hang on
You hold me just right
And didn’t let me fight
I ****** you over
But we got through it
Whatever it is baby
You and I can do it
I had the best birthday of my life
And she had the worst
You get what you pay for
For what its worth
This is my rebirth.

Ashli Jane

December 1, 2009

I have opened a whole new door
With a lot more to face
My mind will retrace
Everywhere everyplace
This is my race
I’m going to come out on top
I can’t be stopped
We are going to leave
My heart on my sleeve
Everyone will know
I will find my reprieve
That’s all I need
I don’t smoke seeds
We will start all over
And turn over a new clover
Starting to realize
What its like through my eyes
It’s easy to despise
You guys
And your lies
I’m done trying this time
This is my ******* rhyme
I will do as I please
You’ll ******* see
I’m just going to be me
My heart has been freed
It no longer has to bleed

Ashli Jane

December 1, 2009

My heart can be heard
Just listen to my words
Don’t be absurd
And flip me the bird
Don’t be jealous cause I made it
And you still fake it
Its nothing to hold on to
I finally grew
Now I know not to listen to you
Just do what I do
My troubles are through
It took me coming unglued
I didn’t mean to be rude
Everything I said was true
So I am done and gone
In the end I won
I had some fun

Ashli Jane