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"Without light we would be forever in darkness..
Without darkness, we would never know the light."

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-Vyscern, ©
"Without light we would be forever in darkness..
Without darkness, we would never know the light."

Without express permission, all work is subject to copyright

-Vyscern, ©
Vyscern
Vyscern
5 days ago

The things that I’ve been told,
And all the lies that spread
The rumours I watch unfold
Let torture claim my head

To open who I am
A lock that gleams so cold
To end where I began
To sell before I’m sold

A tragedy unfolds
Not all that gleams is gold
My actions deemed as bold
My habits have grown old

Tiring of this life
Aged before my time
I wish to say goodbye
Unlock a deep bloodline

The dark drowns the light
And the light no longer shines
The key, it gleams so bright
And now I bid goodbye

#time   #dark   #lock   #blood   #emotion   #light   #cold   #age   #key   #vyscern  
Vyscern
Vyscern
5 days ago

My past was always blurred,
From when I was a child
All I knew from others was
I was angry, reckless, wild

I've recently learned the truth,
My eyes are growing wide
As the barrier within becomes
More a longer, broad divide

How do I love my parents
When two were not mine?
The other two were always gone
And this barrier just won't die

Biology didn't dictate
That she would ever try
When depression caught and set in
All she saw was failure, alive

Behind closed doors, physical
Or within her mind
She shut herself from me
From the world, alone she cried

But I cannot forgive
You were supposed to be there for me
Too young to understand her marriage
Didn't stop her cheating

Step Father didn't do much,
Believes her every lie
Made it the world of his past
But neither did he try

Father on deployment,
So the connection isn't there
I see it as a friendship
And it is too heavy to bear

Step Mother was a saint,
Made me fit again
But I have no love for her
Just respected as a friend

It's a hole deep inside of me
Like acid to my heart
My mother never tried,
And that tears me apart

Feeling so unloved, alone,
In sorrow
And although I have three houses
Not one of them is home.

Truth hurts... it disturbs me that... this is me...
#love   #father   #past   #friend   #mother   #sorrow   #family   #connection   #loyalty   #disconnect  
Vyscern
Vyscern
Mar 16

Everything I do just seems so wrong
Out of place, and I can't face, that I don't belong
I know we're all different, but I am different still
Every battle I've ever fought, I always fought uphill...

Another nobody in training to belong, to become
And maybe someday, I'll mean something to someone
Recognition for the things that I wish I hadn't done
And I'm done....
Nothing was ever perfect, and so nothing I've become

Nothing was ever perfect, and now I am No-One

Now I am no-one...
#pain   #dark   #wrong   #perfect   #nothing   #different   #meaning   #belong   #no-one   #vyscern  
  Mar 15  Vyscern
Vicki
Vicki
Mar 13

only two short millenniums ago
we were killing humans
by tying or nailing
them to upright wooden crosses
there's no shortage
in the ways we've thought of
to eliminate our brothers and sisters
from the land of the living.
is it possible
we are the ones dead?
is this hell instead?
a bauble in the universe
we treat like our toilet?
all the victims of crimes
denied
long lives
why?
"only the good die young"
it is said.
who put THAT in our heads?
i
am
here, killing no one
yet rescuing no one either.
what is my worth?
i'm soon to be a mote of dust in the ether,
my hopes for a better world
having meant nothing
having been illusions

somewhere today there are executions
entire governments built on subterfuge
innocent people being tortured
spies working dark corridors

the thrill of making millions
the thrill of watching others die
buried inside
our collective evil soul

our ancestors tossed brethren
into pits to be eaten by lions
i remember it in my blood
for even though those days are gone
fear of my own fellow humans
remains hair-raisingly strong.

Vyscern
Vyscern
Mar 14

If we could wish ourselves away,
How many stars would be left to shine,
And how many would fade?

Hands turning white, clasped in prayer
Eyes closed tears flow where's her saviour?

Got a bad case of Old Mans Blues
Too young to feel like this, but what's my use?
Pining for a love that will never be mine,
And you wonder why I lie when you ask are you alright?
I'm not alright! I'm not fine! Why do I answer when I'm always lying!
Death defying but don't feel alive! Like something deep down has given up the fight!

I wanna scream! Just let me end
I wish to not exist, no point in pretence
Nothing is okay, everything's just the same
I wish I could fade so that no one, no one knows my name...

Let's burn it all, I'll ignite the fire
Just watch the smoke rise, higher and higher
Suffocate on the these toxic fumes
Skin bubbles and blisters, strained under abuse

It's almost time, can you feel it now?
The monster inside has finally devoured
Licks his lips and gnaws the bones...
Why am I always so cold, and so alone...?

Imagine we could wish ourselves away...
How many stars would be left to shine
And how many like me, would fade away....

#depression   #life   #fire   #hope   #stars   #wish   #smoke   #monster   #shine   #fade  
Vyscern
Vyscern
Mar 11

I am the man I am today,
From all the experience I've gained
The lies I made, the cards I played
Watch it all burn around an Ace of Spades

And as I fumble with the match,
My life like flashbacks flashes past
The days I cried, the days I died
Clawing, tearing my insides

I, know that I can't run and hide,
Knowing that, even if i tried
Nothing will be better when I take a peek
Because it's all uncertain, and all left to me

And I, am not satisfied
With the anger we feel and the rage we defy
Why, is it so hard to see
That we're caught in a landslide, an avalanche of debris

Some days, I lay on the ground
And stretch my hands up without making a sound
Reach for the sky, but there's no prize
All hope is lost and I've lost all my pride

Insane, is the only way
That normality fades, and only you change
You've got more control, as we rise and we fall
Being crazy is the only way to stay sane...

I, know that I can't run and hide,
Knowing that, even if i tried
Nothing will be better when I take a peek
Because it's all uncertain, and all left to me

And I, am not satisfied
With the anger we feel and the rage we defy
Why, is it so hard to see
That we're caught in a landslide, an avalanche of debris

#anger   #hope   #burn   #experience   #rage   #crash   #avalanche   #satisfy   #clutter   #landslide  
  Mar 2  Vyscern
WistfulHope

Breathe me in like your last cigarette,
because you swear you're going to quit,
as the smoke swirls past your head
and heads east.

Drain my cup like the last coffee
you pour yourself, even though it's 11 pm
and you really should go to bed soon
because you never sleep enough.

Color between my lines like you tried
to show your little sister, when she stole
your colored pencils and scribbled
all through your sketchbook.

Give me the kind of attention you give
sunset on the beach,
because someting about it makes time stop
and brings you peace.

Love me,
even though the only time you ever thought
love just might be more than a façade or a con
left you detached and empty.

Love me,
because I promise
I'm already trying
to love you.

Verbs.
#love   #life   #relationships   #beauty   #bad   #me   #habits   #wickedhope  
 
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