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19 year old girl who really likes writing poetry because otherwise she would probably die from asphyxiation of the soul. "I'm not crazy, my reality is just different than yours"- Cheshire Cat It's very hard to make sense of nonsense in a chaotic world filled with broken people trying to ... Read more
19 year old girl who really likes writing poetry because otherwise she would probably die from asphyxiation of the soul. "I'm not crazy, my reality is just different than yours"- Cheshire Cat It's very hard to make sense of nonsense in a chaotic world filled with broken people trying to ... Read more
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 11

It was killing me
To know
That I meant so little to you
But now
It's killing me
To know
That you know that I cared

Inkveined
Inkveined
1 day ago

Of course I am angry

I tried my best not to love you

I tried my best focus on your many flaws

I tried my best not to continuously see past them

I tried my best not to allow the carefully placed ice around my heart to melt

I knew better, I knew better a million times

Than to fall for someone who was always at war with himself

And yet I did

Yet I stupidly, stupidly did

Whatever pain I've felt, I accepted the very moment that I became used to wondering and worrying about you

The very moment I felt my mouth curve up instead of down at your irksome comments

When I began to detest your absence instead of presence

I could not focus on your flaws

I could not stop looking past them

And when I saw that my layers of icy indifference were turning into a puddle

I stood over it, horrified.

But my reflection only smiled back at me.

I have forgiven you for a lot of things, but this.... This I might never forgive you for.
#feelings   #anger   #emotions   #angry  

I wonder if when
He's falling asleep
Through his mind
Pass thoughts of me
Do they remind
Of how things were
How they could still be
Or do they just blur?

#sad   #life   #personal  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 11

My mother warned me to stay away from the big bad wolf, years ago.

I thought it was very strange but promptly forgot about it.

Until the other night when you told me that you were very wolf-like.

But the big bad wolf didn't come to my door saying he wanted to devour my heart.

He knocked first.

#love   #sad   #fairytale   #fantasy  

You.
You, you, you
Why you? Why YOU?
...why you?
I don't know why it was you
But my heart isn't the best
At making important decisions

#love   #heartbreak   #sad  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 11

How painful it is
Loving someone
Who only sees you as
Just another girl
That he gets to say
Fell for him
Just another heart
That he claimed
Is......
Beyond my poetic ability
To express.

I'm not even good enough to express how I'm not good enough.
#love   #heartbreak   #sad   #pain  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

These bloody hands know

Sharp thorns often guard the

Garden's most beloved

Just something I wrote.
#love   #pain   #haiku   #relationships  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

Autumn-when we met
Winter-when I ran from you
Spring-when you'll forget

#love   #sad   #haiku   #nature  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

Sadness and fear rise up inside my soul

We're apart and I no longer feel whole

Perhaps the heart can never be controlled

But I'd give anything to be the one

That's by your side when the day is done

#love   #heartbreak   #sad   #life   #change  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 11

It will never be me that he chooses
It will never be me that he wants
That's why I left
Because I couldn't take it anymore
Knowing he had so much of my heart
And I had so little of his....

Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

Just a fragment of

Your heart isn't enough for

My ambitious soul

#love   #poetry   #life   #haiku  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

My heart is a library
Each book representing a part of my life
They contain memories, good and bad
Best and worst ones, though
Those?
Those were left there by you.

#love   #sad   #life   #books  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

Don't listen to the voices, climb
Forget about old choices, climb
So what if it seems pointless, climb
Hoist a flag upon the mountain
Where you're done with struggling
Against yourself to start punching
Back, when
Life begins to push you around
Hard work's a crown
That may seem somewhat heavy but
You can turn depression upside down
Start gathering smiles from your frowns
Everything might be going wrong
But, cheer up!
Have the courage to stay strong
Step right past the emotional quicksand
Get yourself off the floor, and take a stand
Not a suggestion, a command
Because, once you do
You'll forget about feeling blue

#sad   #depression   #life   #hope  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

I think about him

Far too much for my own good

The boy who broke me

#love   #sad   #haiku   #thoughts  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

He lit up matches

That engulfed my heart with fire

Leaving only ash

#love   #sad   #life   #fire   #haiku  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

Sometimes I can hear

My soul whispering for just

One more day with you

#love   #sad   #pain   #haiku  
Inkveined
Inkveined
3 days ago

Waking up in the early mornings
Just for a few moments of quiet and peace
Trying not to let on that things weren't
Picture perfect, as they say, within myself
Nodding and smiling and playing the part
Using all my practice from over the years
Wiping away stray tears and maintaining
A neutral tone of voice, shifting between
Light hearted and deadly serious
Depending on different cues that
I've learned to notice
Throughout the course of time
I know just when to smile
(When everyone else is smiling)
I know just when to laugh
(When everyone else is laughing)
And I know just when to cry
(When everyone's busy)
And I know just when to sigh
(When I think about how pointless it all is)

#sad   #depression   #life  

The sound of the music box
Isn't nearly enough
To drown out
The sound
Of my still breaking heart

#love   #heartbreak   #life  
Inkveined
Inkveined
Jan 10

How stupid I was

To think that I was the one

Who could calm your chaos

#love   #poetry   #sad   #haiku  
Inkveined
Inkveined
2 days ago

I suppose it was inevitable.

The fact that we would meet.

The fact that I would expect warm sunshine where there was a storm brewing.

The fact that I tried my best to convince myself that I wasn't going to fall when I already had.

The fact that I ignored the alarms ringing through my mind and pretended that they were just music.

And when I finally got dragged back to reality after having lost the argument.
 
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