In my chest resides a heavy weight,
rage and pain stir as I contemplate
if you're worth the ache
I've been feeling these last few days

I yearn for a taste of you
and yet I just want you to leave
so this pain may cease

And in the heat of my own hate
I can feel myself suffocate
Loving you and leaving you
are just the same,
different phrases
with the same name

But never will you reduce me
to be completely desperate for you
never will I plead on my knees
for the return of
someone who never learns.
My anger you cannot sedate
and when you'll crave my forgiveness
It might just be too late.

Puke puke puke
Pity self pity puke
Laugh
Smile pity puke
Help
Pity puke
Ignore
Puke puke puke
Pity help puke
Ignore
Ignore
Ignore again
Puke again
Yell
Again
Loud. Very loud. Scream
Rudabega
Fade
Where do we go from here

I want to die
I'm gonna **** myself
Not so goodbye

It's selfish for u
To say it's selfish for me
To want to die

It's a little selfish
That u still want me around

Now that I'm dead,

Inside
       and
Out

I am no walk in the park
On the sweet spring morning
Where flowers erupt
And whistles fly

I am no dip in the ocean
On the hot summer afternoon
With salt on my tongue
And sun in my eye

I am no star studded sky
On the cool autumn eve
Where leaves change their colors
And so do I

In winter comes hope
That the seasons to come
Will bring forth better things
And in seasons so will I

Remind me now
I am the erupting flowers
I am the sun in His eyes
I am the changing colors
I am in season for life