"Hey guys. I don't really expect anyone to like what I have to write about. I just hope that someone out there enjoys what I write as much as I enjoyed writing it. All of the writing I put here is my own. Some old, some new. Various emotional types of poetry will be placed here. Mostly telling stories of something in my own life.. and some outlandish ones that just can't be categorized. Enjoy. And keep on writing, you fools. :) "
I'm hanging by a thread
At least I feel that way sometimes
A noose around my neck
Though I'd make some pretty wind chimes.
I'm not going to let go
And let myself fall down
Luckily I have my many stars
That guide me through this desolate town.
I wander around lost
In the burning sun
But when the night comes
I can begin to have fun.
My many stars come out to shine
Showing me the way
And though I'll have a sleepless night
I'll be ready for the day.
Maybe you can guess
Who or what the stars are
But all that matters is their brilliance
To show me how to travel far.
Though nothing glows brighter
Then the moon in the sky
I may have my many stars
And that is not a lie.
But this big bright globe
Is more than just a friend
He keeps my heart up there
I know it's more than just pretend..
And more than just a fairy tale
Of a maiden and the moon
One day it will be forever after
Though maybe not so soon.
I wish upon a star tonight
Though the man in the moon is listening
I say: "I wish I can keep him for all time!"
And I swear, after, I saw him glistening...
I know you'll find your way
You always do
Like water in a stream
You flow wherever the current takes you.
And I've been by your side
Since the beginning
Though we're far apart
I don't feel our friendship thinning.
If anything it's stronger
And growing ever more
I don't stop to doubt it
I just let it up and soar.
Like a bird it has to fly
Every living thing must be free
So I'll let it be.
And when I watch the sunset
I often think of you
Wishing I could see you
And ask you, "How do you do?"
Our paths always meet
At the crossroads of life
And I know you'll always be there
When I'm going through strife.
Though when things are bliss
I can always count on you
To swim with me in happiness
Instead of driving it undo.
Born kindred spirits
Taking a similar walk through time
I know I should have told you this
But I express better through rhyme.
So I jot out my feelings
Scribble out my thoughts
Cross all my T's
And top the I's with dots.
But I won't give you this poem
Because of what I think
Some things are better left unsaid
Or written in invisible ink.
I wish the words of my mouth
Could work like a fine stitching
Closing up the holes in your heart.
But I never have the words
To make it all go away
If anything, I just tear it all apart.
I'm not eloquent
Or tastefully soothing
But my heart beats in the right rhythm.
I try to say all the right things
Instead, I stumble and fall
I guess, truly, I am just winsome.
I watch your painful confusion
Unable to help
And we both seem to tumble into turmoil.
I wish could gracefully
Be your divine savior
But unfortunately I'm just a harlequin girl.
I tip them upside down
I throw them on the ground
It's the only way I can look at them clearly.
When they're right in my face
Everything seems out of place
And I can't seem to understand them sincerely.
When they fall apart
It damages my heart
And I have to put them all back together.
To read them right
They have to be in plain sight
So I can interpret the future weather.
What I'm talking about
Brings upon some doubt
That's hiding in the back of my mind.
But when I lay them straight
I can predict my fate
And the truth I will know, and can find.
Many things are applicable
And possibly despicable
To what I'm trying so hard to explain.
But really what it is--
The answer to this quiz
Is that my emotions are difficult to preordain.
So I'll look at the sky
And release them to fly
Because that is the best thing I can do.
Let them go free
And just let it all be
Then they will be easier to construe.
Heal the wound before it hurts
But it will still leave a scar
Brush the ashes under the rug
But it's like keeping them in a jar.
The scar is a reminder
Though you never felt the pain
And the ashes carry a memory
Like a carpet stain.
Let the scar be a part of you
But not what has the say
And don't brush the ashes under the rug
Just let them blow away.
The ominous cloud
Looming on the horizon of your heart
Brings tears to my eyes
It's bittersweet and tart.
I wish, oh I wish
To send the cloud away
Like a Goddess of the Wind
I would blow it astray.
But every cloud has it's purpose
To let the rain fall in power
Though it's saddening at first
It cleanses, delightfully, even the wall-flower.
All I can do
Is provide the sunny rays
To warm the chill left behind
And brighten the darkness daze.
Though I wish to be a Wind Goddess
To stop the rain from falling
But I'd rather be of the After-Rain Sun
Instead of the forestalling.
I'm having trouble breathing
It doesn't hurt
It's actually kind of nice.
This tension in my lungs
Is because of your love
And in my ribcage there are mice.
Maybe it's a little morbid
Rather than to say butterflies
But those can be freed with a sigh.
Maybe it's a little demented
But I like it that way
I wear a noose as a tie.
I guess I'm probably backwards
To say the least
I prefer blood to water.
Your love is psychotic
Like a psychedelic trip
From a blotter.
It's so nice
As wrong as asphyxiation sounds
But it's as macabre as it is pleasing.
And if you were to leave
The warmth of my body
Would undoubtedly turn to freezing.
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to hide
Somewhere warm, somewhere sweet
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to sleep
In his hair I find my hands
Searching for what haunts him
But gliding through every strand
I soothe him with my love.
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to find
Somewhere lush, somewhere bright
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to play
In my arms I hold him close
Covering his skin with my soul
Goosebumps, on each others skin
I love him with my body.
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to seek
Somewhere dangerous, somewhere high
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to run
In his eyes I see the signs
Locking our gaze of flowers
Smiles, stretching our mouths
I speak to him in song.
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to be
Somewhere far, somewhere clean
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to keep
In my heart, in my soul.
The sun it sets on tonight
It reminds you to let everything go
The day following is new and clean
So just let the good vibes flow.
The sun it sets to remind us
That it's time to go to sleep
But more importantly
It ends the day we try to keep.
Hanging on does you no good
To the day you should probably forget
It only causes you more pain
Then the original regret.
So let the sun set on tonight
And remember tomorrow is a new day
Holding on only makes it worse
Go on, forget about yesterday.
All I want is to be something great
I just want to blow everyone away
Can it be that easy?
Is it something I have to say?
All I want is to expand minds
I just want to cause raptures
Can it be that simple?
Will my word be what captures?
Just let me be the star
That I know that I am
As rare as a pearl
You find within a clam.
Just let me be moving
As powerful as a river
Like a creeping on your skin
That causes you to shiver.
I know I'll come
Like a rain in a drought
With a sporadic route.
I know I'll come
Like a raging fire
Not far from desire.
This is all I want
It's nothing to you
But when I change the way the tide pulls
It's something you might look up to.
You soothe all my aching pain
You cleanse me like refreshing rain
You leave behind a pleasant stain
You are sweet like sugar cane.
You teach my I've got much to gain
You keep my from riding in the tame lane
You allow me to be a little vain
And you love me as powerful as a freight train.
Our love is a smooth but scenic terrain
Though sometimes we go against the grain
Our passion is nothing close to plain
And more comfortable than a ball and chain.
I love you
Through thick and through thin
Though innocence and sin,
Like flowers to sunshine
It's not hard to define
I will love you
Like the sound of a rhyme
And hopefully, for a glorious time.
Fraudulent like lies on paper
Written in blood so thick
Your sin it smells like perfume
The envelope sealed with a kiss, it makes me sick.
No one stands for your tales
Of truth created from spite
It's written on your forehead
I think you know that it isn't right.
You are aware of what you say
What you do and how you do it
You work up a smile like a wolf
But your prey won't fall into the bottomless pit.
Soon you will progress into destruction
From the venom of your own bite
Topple like a tower
Out of everyone's sight.
Funny how the cards fall
Interesting how it collapses from the inside
Weak in the middle of a hard outer shell
Destroyed by the relentless tide.
Down you go!
Into your own pit of hell
A familiar smile above you
From the ones that you didn't wish well.
I think it's appropriate to say
That spending time apart
Is a good way
To bring upon a fresh start.
People hold onto ideas,
Opinions and thoughts.
And when they can't catch a break
They tie things into knots.
All these knots make complications
Which turn into frustrations
That create a complexity
In their current relations.
So when you do get a break
It's suddenly nice
To see someone again
Rather than standing on thin ice.
This is something I've discovered
But now been able to put into words
We shouldn't always be together
Like a flock of birds.
Our migrations should separate
Go their different ways
And maybe they'll cross paths again
Later in our days.
The time apart we should cherish
And learn what we need to know
To form new ideas, opinions and thoughts
And move on from our relation woe.
So I don't take distaste
In the distance that's been created
Our routes will cross again
When the frustrations have dissipated.
I think I've decided I'm crazy
Like really lost my mind
But you're just as crazy
So I've come to find.
"Let's talk about how beautiful you are," you said
And snuggled into my shoulder
"Let's talk about spaceships," I said
Maybe I was growing bolder.
Then you replied, wittily,
"You'd look beautiful in a spaceship."
And that was when I realized
I was biting my lip.
Because you see, the mingling
Of the Strings, all around you and me
Have intertwined our crazy minds
And thus set us free.
I might look pretty in a spaceship
But that is not the point
The point is, the ground we fell upon
Has a common joint.
And maybe that doesn't make sense
But to me, I see the factors matching
Connecting all our String Theory Strings,
Each others breath we are catching.
And maybe that's what love is
When our wriggly Strings combine
Or maybe that's how you teleport
And even read my mind.
Either way, I think we're crazy
And match up fairly true
Pretty in a spaceship, or not
I am definitely in love with you.
Why aren't you smiling, Sun?
You shine, but you don't smile
In face you seem dimmer today
Would you like to talk for a while?
It seems you drag today
It seems you are down in a hole
You have nothing to say
But the truth has clearly taken a toll.
Can I make you smile today, Sun?
Will you shine on me?
Despite your dimness, you are still warm
Won't you talk to me?
Is the worst kind of sadness
At least I think that's how it goes.
You tell yourself to smile
You tell yourself it's okay
But that's simply not how it flows.
It engulfs you like a fire
Swallowing its surroundings
Swallowing you entirely whole.
It's a new kind of sadness
Though you've been sad before
This one continues to burn hot like a coal.
You try to stifle it
You try to drown it
But it keeps eating you day by day.
Little did you know
That this type of sadness
Has to be put out a different way.
Is the worst kind of sadness
I've pretty much figured that out.
It might take you a while
To put out the fire
But then you'll know for next time, what it's all about.
It's dark outside and the moon is bright
It casts a glow across where I stand
I'm thinking of you tonight
Wishing I could hold your hand.
Right now I'm thinking of love
Right now I'm thinking of sorrow
I raise my eyes to what's above
Yes! There's still hope for tomorrow.
I haven't lost my sight
I can imagine the world is lonely
I'd rather like to bask in the moonlight
For this one time only.
But my skin it itches with wonder
And my feet want to dance
This must be some spell that I'm under
Or is this my second chance?
Youth strikes my features
But at the center I am old
Out from the night come the creatures
And with them comes the cold.
I know so much and yet so little
My mind has expanded to infinity
Though my reality feels brittle
I can hang on through serendipity.
This is my magical power
I weave the world with my fingers
The clouds in the night rain down a shower
I'm am the dancer, the thunder the singers.
This is my chance!
I'll fashion a quilt of morality
I'll swirl it as I dance
Making the divine fabric a reality.
But alas, this is only a dream
And I'm dreaming of love and sorrow
As I finish up the last seam
I think there's still hope for tomorrow.
It's dark outside and the moon is bright
As I'm sleeping soundly
Such a dream won't slip from my sight
I'll remember it profoundly.
I feel like I should be writing
There is so much to say
And yet so little
At the same time.
I want the world to know
That happiness is easy
As long as you know how
To look past the grime.
It can be found anywhere
In a far off land or on some mountain
It's right under your nose.
It can be found in anything
In a smile or a wish
How it goes.
Happiness is sometimes fleeting
But often it is always there
You just have to find it in the right spot
Sometimes it's simply in the air.
Other times it can't be found
But you're sure it's where you left it
Maybe try looking somewhere else this time
It hasn't up and vanished.
And when you think there's none left at all
That's when you probably have it the most
You just don't see it in the obvious places
It's like looking for a ghost.
Lift the veil from your eyes
Happiness is everywhere
Just remember to look in every corner, crack, under every rock
I promise you, it's there.
I think you've got your head up in the clouds
And it's time to come down
You're not making me proud
Can't you tell by my frown?
You're fading quickly, I see it
I don't wanna watch you burn your life away
You're choking on the bit
I guess tomorrow is another day.
You can always try
Don't give up, don't tap out
You secretly want to say goodbye
But you don't want to face the drought.
I miss the you you use to be
I miss the smile on your face
I just want to see you free
Away from this place.
I wish I could get you out
I wish I could save you some how
But you have to defeat your own doubt
I just can't help you now.
You'll pull me down with you
So I have to leave you behind
This is the conclusion I've come to
And it hurts, so I find.
It has to be this way
This is my love speaking
I guess tomorrow is another day
For you to find what you're seeking.
I thought I lost my inspiration
And lacked a current destination
Now I'm in deep concentration
Writing down my contemplation
As I write these words in desperation
I wonder on the worlds damnation
Now I seek inebriation
Within my words correlation
So here I am at my writing station
Thinking in exasperation
What do I know of segregation?
How do I change it to integration?
Do you understand my stipulation?
How do I defeat this abomination?!
I will wait in anticipation
Then I will take a needed vacation
After my attempt at world domination.