I Am Poetry...

Held together by these lines
with my substance
black on white
here for all to see
the true makings of me...
Each word that you see
is a fragment
a shard of the
bigger picture...

And all that i am
is all that was written...
By the hand of another...
My Mother...

I am 1 of 4
Epic Poems
Started by her hand
but unending in stature
I Am "Shandel Louis Pruitt"
For Short it's "Del

:) lightly thrown together.... no real thought in this one

When I look at you
Know what I see?
A divine young queen
Worthy of better things

It may just be me
Since I don’t think
That you really see
Where you should be

True love is near
But you ignore it
No really, it’s here
You’re looking at it

Yet divinity is blind
Time & time again
Since you should be mine
Not just my best friend

A love like this
Should never be ignored
In my heart you’re loves missed
Yet my heart’s still yours

So sing to me
My divine, young queen
Your angelic voice
Resounds in me…

As true to you as the sky is blue
I’ll love you & bear your pain
Yes it’s true, I still love you
That’s one thing time will never change
It seems to me, you’d cry for me
If my life came to an end
But still you see, there’s a love that we
Still hide from all of them
I won’t leave, without you boo
So in pain is where I’ll stay
Until I know you, will be here through
The Joy, Pain, Night, & Day
So I’ll shed these tear, until you’re here
No…. until WE run away
Ill be right here, so have no fear
I’ll wait forever and two days

As I sit and reminisce
I see it’s been so long
I understand it’s you I miss
And the time when we went strong
Baby girl I love you too
That’s something I can’t change
As true to you as the sky is blue
I’ll still carry all your pain
My love for you still grows and blooms
Like a flower long forgotten
It hold’s the heart of a champion
It smells of sweet seduction

What more is there to say
Other than you’re an angel
Who blesses me day by day
And protects my heart from danger
Within your beautiful wings
I’ve found my saving grace
Into my listening ear you sing
As I gaze lovingly at your face
The many bleeding wounds I bear
Are mended by your gentle touch
Enemies attack us if they dare
Our unison will sustain the rush

Laying in this mess
Watching this room spin
Upon my desk
I notice my pen

Like a sword and shield
My pen and pad
The weapons I wield
The strength I have

Like a volley of arrows
I launch my words
My heart it shows
Through these adjectives and verbs

If only I’d verbalize
As sincerely & and sweet
As the words in my mind
Feverously flow onto this sheet

It’s my new year
Time for my new struggle
That’s one less fear
One less reason to be muddled

The emotions of his heart rage through his faltering mind
As he pretends it’s all copasetic he’s dying inside
His ascetic hopes are forlorn, mislead
Yet his vitriolic speech is calm, yet feigned
The deceitful gaze of one who’s dead
This tormented anguish is where darkness reigns

The subversion he’s endured to show her his integrity
The staunch defense he supplies is his loves continuity
Yet truth be told to him it’s all illogical
To him the words are more unsatisfactory than death
A claim of love leaves his heart more thoughtful
Since the same claim of love still resounds in his head

Now I don’t know how well you understand most my words
But what’s being said is what you’ve already heard
There’s more to it though if you can’t really tell
But you’ll know who I wrote about hopefully
And all I’m tryna say is… umm… well…
I do love you and hope you feel the same about me…

I just wanna let you know
I really do care for you
I just wanna let you know
I’ll always be ther for you
I just wanna let you know
I’d give up my life for you
I just wanna let you know
I’ll spend all my life with you

Just because you still love him
It doesn’t change us
Because what we have
And will become
Love has said
“You are the ones”

Since we’ve started
It’s never stopped
Love’s grew
And bloomed
It’s budded
and blossomed

the beautiful finish
is this beautiful flower
I mean the look in your eyes
And warmth of your smile

So I just wanna let you know
that i'll always love you

it’s all the little things you do that keep me so infatuated…
the little changes in your hair…
the days when you want to dress sexy…
and the days you dress classy…
the days when you change your make-up even a little…
or those when you don’t wear it…
the sound of your voice on a good day
and the look in your eyes on the same…
your open expressions of emotion
happiness, joy, & pain…
hell even the days your p----- at me…
and the days you caused me pain…

see honestly
it’s just everything
you are
and all you’ll be

everything I never had
and everything I’ll ever need…

I love you!

It’s really funny
I mean the things that we
Least speculate
To be happening

I mean all around us
Nobody knows
About this love
That continues to grow

They see that we
Won’t give this up
But don’t understand
That we ARE in love

Just think like this
When I bring the ring
And drop to one knee
What will they think

Who cares really
When they’re so simplistic
Desiring not true love
But a hit it & quit it

If that’s what I wanted
Would I still be here
Telling you sweet things
Speaking sft in your ear

I know you’re my love
And I your’s to
My divine young queen
I mean my everything

So when all is gone
And red becomes blue
Throughout the stars you’ll know
I’ll eternally love you

I’m falling
D
O
W
__N
Deeper into the darkness
Without my angels love to guide my heart
My mind is simply regressing.
And readdressing light as darkness
With this forlorn trust
And mislead love
Could it be lust
I’m feeling… huh?

A light in the dark
A ray of hope
Shaped like a heart
Yet formed of gold

A guiding light
This angelic thing
That’s scooped me up
And helped me free
My mind from matter
And hopes from dreams

And finally it seems I’m falling up

Into the graces of heaven
Bringing freedom from pain
and the lust of other men
I’m finally able to live for me
Since after all this time
It’s finally become we.

So protect me
In your angelic wings
Let me fight for we
Making us eternally free…

t’s like I already knew that this would happen
I knew I’d go and break you down
But if we can boo let’s pretend
That it’s just us & no one else’s around

I didn’t really mean anything that I said, I regret that letter
Because I’d sooner be dead Than find love that’s any better
I mean baby please believe in me
At least gimme a chance to replace your wings

I apologize sincerely for making you cry
I mean there’s so much more you became to me

You are the reason I don’t cry
And why I’m so strong
You’re what makes me try
& why I’ll live long

I think of you as my tears
So I won’t cry because I’m afraid that I’d lose you
& you’re in my dreams
So I don’t wanna wake up cause I know you’re not near me…

First you say yes
And we’re back together
A promise was made
That it’d last forever

Again you said yes
And accepted the ring
A light in the dark
If you know what I mean

Once again it’s a yes
But the rings come back
And I’m confused
The beacon of hopes
Ben severely bruised

next question I’ll ask
are you after someone else?
Better yet is he tryna get at you?
Or is it something coming back from your past?

My heart says no
But my mind says maybe
My eyes are fooled
And my ears say yes

But still I’m here
Looking at you in hope
But the rings is gone
So where will we go?

It’s like every time
I look at you
Nothing more than good flashbacks ensue
To way back when
It could’ve been us two
Until that day
I left from you

It’s true
I’ve had dreams of you
I mean you could’ve been my boo

It’s true
I did cry for you
You cried for me too
So what could I do?

It’s true
I fell in love with
I felt you loved me too
But if not that’s you

But to speak pure truth
My dreams of you
Sparked new desires too
Desires brought need
Those need were you
So if you need me
I’ll stand right here

Truthfully…
I’ll stand right by you…

I never thought I’d say this
But you wasted my time
Through all we said & did
Marriage was just a lie
You should have just told me
I wasn’t for you
Slight changes in me
Are still unclear it’s true
After all you said
You’d just leave me now
But my whole family
Will say I let you down
From depressed to obsessed
In forty-three flat
Obsessed turned to love
I want to send it back
Fake love, true pain
Caged dove, scattered brain
Broken heart, bleeding veins
In the dark is where I’ll stay

I regret letting you go
Just thought you should know
I don’t think I’ll take you back
Cause my regrets hurt that bad

You are the air I breathe
& the water I drink
I mean you are my dreams
& all that makes me
Better yet my completion
My protection from regression
The smile I show
& the light of my soul
In a simplistic meaning
You can be called one thing
Because what you are to me they truly don’t see
That you, my boo, are “all the good in me”

i've seen your wings
i've witnessed your love
of you my heart sings
to be free like a dove

as i wholeheartedly gaze
at this dreamscape called love
the world couldn't change
my blessings from above

As a reborn young man
or an awakened sleeper
for you i will stand
protecting you from danger

as strong as i am
i'm nothing alone
the woman i have
is what make me whole

my family believes
your what's best for me
amongst other things
you've recreated me

in the past i've lied
and broke plenty of dreams
but this time i'll try
to make this dream gleam

(this poems out of context)
(sounds nothing like me)
(so let me take a rest)
(while you see what i see)

*deep breath
cleared thoughts
finish the rest
now what will be brought?

Okay...

back in the past
i just flirted with you
i didn't move fast
and i didn't get through

as time went by
you began to realize
you had caught my eye
but i took to much time

i got sent to a group home
and dreams of us died
as far as was known
that was our goodbye

the visits began
and our paths crossed again...
though i wasn't the same
i had the feelings from then

we walked to the store
i made small talk
conversation was a bore
and that was my fault

i had to ask you
and i'm happy i did
i hoped that from you
i'd hear what i did

upon one month
3 words were said
they really packed a punch
but they still play in my head

my response was the same
oh... and about that first kiss...
there's really nothing to say
except the feeling is missed

in the time i spend
away from you
weekly damages mend
at the sight of you

so what i'm trying to say
is you've rebuilt my spirit
you're my main thought day by day
it's just now that you hear it...

I love you

Tic… toc …Tic… toc… Tic… toc…
The rhythm of my heart’s been established…
As my mind synchronizes to the tempo of my emotions
My Symphony Of Emotion Begins…

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Conducting this masterpiece is cautiously managed
Every belief has a unique impression
My Quartet of Passion Begins To Play

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…The Tempo’s Slowing
Let’s Add a nice kick
Through Devotions Blowing

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To Keep Our Place
The Vocals Of Love
Come Into Play

Tic… toc …Tic… toc… Tic… toc…
Keep the metronome’s Tempo
Move This Melody Forward
Before The tempo of the metronome slows down…

What good is a day when nothing goes right
When your hopes & prayer do nothing at all
The dreams & schemes in your mind run irrelevant
& the love from another seems nowhere near passionate

What good is a day of falsely proclaimed love
And those you had feelings for give purely faux hugs
As a kiss leads to pain & a heart drops cold
While a deceptive love is what’s plagued your soul

What good is a day when hope falls forlorn
And the happiness you knew has morphed into scorn
While confusion, disdain, & pain are abundant
And your rage fueled question is a silent “who done it”

Why live a day full of painful emotions
An Emotional stress that can shatter devotion
Darkness and hatred harboring a lie
As the mind opens up one wishes to die

What good is a day when it all falls amiss
When your thoughts are deceived as you prepare to run
In reality the truth to this problem is
The only things wrong are those you haven’t done