More souls, your minds crumble weak
As touchless, formless
obsessions with the
Virtual eyes, lazy sighs
Rot facing blind screens
Touching nothing, you
See yourselves wasting away
yet you do nothing!
Vivid, the memories morph into fantasy.
Stark, become the unreal details.
What seems possible occupies the space in my mind
Flowing like a dropped stone that stirs up the riverbed's dust.
Too short seems the infinite & too long before I'm content.
For which heartache shall I choose: blind or no surprise?
This has been done before, maybe during my lifetime,
But it is surely known that the moment decides itself
In spite of my delusion that I know what's best.
Maybe it's my languid nature.
Maybe biology reveals the deepest tales of our character,
Even though we each contain within ourselves the greatest good & the greatest evil.
when I acknowledge the infinite space within & around me,
But also fleeting.
So, maybe biology remains a facet,
Revealing though it is,
For what do we know?
Much, but certainly not all at once.
Maybe we know deep inside all there is to know
But we've got to bounce along the surface
Experience the splashes as the come &
Constantly reminding ourselves
That they have also brushed against the fins of angler fish & beings long gone.
This being said,
It becomes amusing to observe & experience my biological impulses.
The expanse to which we are privy is
Simultaneously a curse & a blessing,
For what do we know but all &
What do we forget but all,
& on it flows.
To the Lovers
Who are to enter my life:
It will always vary, but
What we draw from each other
Shall be the same as if
We bathed in each others' rivers &
The gold flakes reflecting on our skin.
No matter what our paths are,
They cross at this time.
May the delight, joy & ecstasy we cultivate & culminate
Pulse through all that is &
Raise ourselves & our fellows into wisdom with pure hearts.
It is my wish that we learn from each other
The most profound information that
We have to make the other's life better
For having experienced one another.
So, Lovers, as we breathe,
So shall we love each other & others.
May we bless one another with exactly what we need.
how hide & seek is a constant game.
The more I find that which was once hidden
Was in & out for any to see
The more fun I see this game can be.
Though I enjoy the changes & what I learn,
Though I delight in the delight of others,
Though I live to be of service & pleasure,
In truth, I live to live.
I wonder why Maya, the illusion,
Is viewed by many as a thing to escape.
Maybe I've missed their idea of its incentive,
The Release while alive.
For my broken heart has healed
In more ways than one, and
Beyond my mind's idea of human capacity.
Inside & outside, the idealism knows
No bounds for my soul, and,
For this reason,
My life is here to be lived, and
I'll melt during it
and when I die.
It's coming in,
Into reality. The dreams
Are becoming manifested.
It flows in,
With intention. The magic
Grows & strengthens.
It grows in,
as well as out. The evidence
remains all but hidden.
To keep my word,
To stay true to the path,
While leaving space for play,
Will guide the experience,
Come what may.
I call the subtle forces,
Be you ancestor or creator,
I ask your assistance,
To aid my heart, mind & soul
In opening to wisdom.
I feel a strange, orange
Warmth grow right now
In my chest.
There's something happening
That my conscious mind
What a small world I live in,
Or, rather, how small it seems.
The motivations & intentions,
The disguises & identities
Seem infinite in their variability.
To fearlessly connect beyond
What is seen,
Is a cinch & a hurdle
Lost in the mind of unattachment~
Relation floats to the top,
Bubbling in iridescent mounds.
Blood spinning full body,
Taken ancient ritual
To lands unknown,
Forms dissolve to absorb.
Human knows, mankind blows its ashes
Into the sea
Where fish nibble surface gifts,
Crawl to form surface, lifts
In sunshine frays,
Grays may blend broken rays
Off the pleasure. Desire
Bubbles & brews to the top,
Furling into forms to which our touch is born,
Our travels sojourn,
Ever sifting, filtering the moon & the sun.
Feeling joy form & torn,
The reverb sung & proverb born,
Chug on, truck on
Traveling Celestial Mist.
The smoke sends its message to our ancestors,
Thanks & quests, may we rest &
Face our tests &
Jump off the highest crests &
Flow down through the darkest depths.
Fearless, shall we be, tearless, never be.
The taste & the smell, Earth’s story we shall tell & retell to our kin,
Our progeny rebel against the story of sin,
Announce the return to our dance, making sense of the din.
We may collapse the columns, but in deep truth
The cycles form regardless of ruth.
With that knowing smile,
A goddess wraps her finger
Round his golden locks,
Open, as always, they dangle and glisten,
If we would listen,
The fear would instantly disappear,
Jeers against the queer would shift into gear
To endear us to the weird &
We would cheer!
The dampness will burn,
The heartache will churn,
Our souls still yearn for
That moment when we lose it.
The bruised tips healing in the instant,
The shock waves reckon this is it
& the feedback expatiates past the limits.
We already have the wildness,
The bliss of expansiveness,
Still spinning in the Spiral Ever Endless.
as i was lying in bed last night, my mind raced, as usual.
thoughts zipped in instants - why what who who who why's
mixed with images of imagined images,
images i have experienced or images impossible to experience - words floating in and out of each other, caressing, lingering fingertips
a few words joined at the hips and rested for a long, tremendous instant –
Reality is a Cage, I am a prisoner of my reality - everyone is trapped in everything - how can i get free! how do i freedom climb jump dive?! FREEDOMFREEDOMCAGEPRISONI I I I I I CAGE I AM NOT THIS BUT ALL I AM IS THIS
i sat up and rolled in my blanket so that i was cacooned AH Waarmth dropped my body sideways and my face hit my pillow
I sit up again
And look around at the black and white
the thoughts SWALLOW ME
everything we do
self control moderation ambition
Reason law health
Children Music Epiphany
love strife religion
self built cages
DULL SELF BUILT CAGES
If this is all i have made for myself!
why haven't i been more creative!
I am THROUGH Dulling My Existence
why have i hid in this pool of peace and wisdom and identity
in hope for understanding and existence
do i wallow in this puddle of thought!
WHY DO I MAKE MYSELF STILL
I dont want to be in the room
this black and white stillness
fear of other sways into me
i see it and i see it
dim weak feeble
I Smash it!
out out out
anything but stillness
anything but warmth
I FREE MYSELF
BRIGHTEN This CAGE
space all around
icy breath exPAAAAND
I walk so quickly but i cant get away there are people there are things everywhere and i cant get away
there fences around all these planted trees
males playing football in the icy 1 am air
i walk through them and laugh laugh
walk walk i see a bunny and I chase it!
you must run fast when things eat you
I slow down
my whole feels
I keep walking climb a fence
see im in a small enclosure
climb this big green metal box
look to my right theres a bigger brick box
climb the fence with ease step on this other square thing
i look around and scream at the top of my lungs
to HEar it with these ears
i laugh delightedly and lay on my back
looks at the stars
feels the chill in her fingers
allows her body to shiver
not attempt to control
gets up and looks around
trees in a row
rusty red baseball dirt
scraggy asphalt rocks
geese waddling away
Vibrant Golden Night!
the lights sphere into the biggest orbs of light rays ive ever seen before!
i sit in a baseball dugout
she lights a wet leaf
smokes spindle away
outline the vague air that i breathe
she holds it up to the moon
casts off her glasses
i see it BLOOM
there is a visible entity
flows into form
clear in the white orb
she sits and stares
ignores her stinging eyes
getting up, she climbs a fence
landing every time
EXHILARATION SENSUAL INSTANT FREEDOM
she walks once more and sees her shadow for the first time
how lovely this absence of form, this evidence of form
she bows to her
she walks once more and climbs a fence once more
to walk on
she plays with her body
Cartwheels for everyone!
I look to the sky
Stretch out arms and SPIN and SPIN AND SPIN
Truth whirls beyond her
Freedom RIVERS Through Her
No reluctance, she returns to her white walled hallways
Freedom RIVERS Through Her
And Sleep Welcomes Her
She forgets her dreams
while i dream
while i paint limitless freedom
Few seem real to me.
Existence justified by
Soft tongue touch my teeth.
I hope so.
What is everything
Is a farce?
How can I enjoy
Splash flailing through the waves
Laugh wild free
Sob wild free
Drizzle away, seep through
The pages, holy farce,
I’ll find my way
To eat you
And burp a lilac’s breath
Placed among wisping green,
Between sea and sky,
Let’s have them swim
In paradoxical ooze
Their ultimate intimacy
To see themselves
I see the foolishness of trying to live
In the mind-world of will.
This double vision
Dizzies me into standing
How I LONG
For which I have yet to experience
How my dreams enchant me!
Half-closed eyes flicker
with transcendent fantasy
How is any of this real?
I see my hand and
I am perplexed!
How am I alive?
How do so many worlds
Ideas minds emotions
Opinions exist at once?
I can’t make sense of it.
Shall I make things
Let convention swallow me?
Or shall I expand my understanding
To the waves of play
And see things as a game and
My tender flesh innocence
To sharp pointlessness
And still not make sense of anything?
Slept during the day
130 I couldn’t fall asleep
went to a tree
took off my glasses
lit a cigarette and
watched the night lamps
pupils contract and dilate
the yellow lights orb into rays and spheres
pulse with my heartbeat while
I listen to Elizabeth and the catapult,
To breezy cricket songs,
To radiohead’s four minute warning for the first time
And the murmurs of passers by
for the first time
I love being me
And I love being
I love loving
And I love to be
Your body’s on fire
Rising up on smoke
Don’t let it choke
You into submission
Your mind’s flowin with sounds
Surrounded by light
Breathe, relax, don’t fight
Your natural reaction
hey little bird you dive in the ocean's waves to exhilarate your tongue
you swim through the clouds, feathers a-flutter with joy
you hide in the trees and bushes, all winky and coy
i'd love to fall hands-first along your side catching my little bugs and my little birds
i wish i could fly
i wish i could fly
oh ho oh i wish i wish i could fly
no wings, no plane, no parachute
so thanks, bluejay, crane, pelican,
all the birds,
for letting me come along
(what a way to die)
so happy i can fly
so happy i can fly
we become one
rolling down sandy hills,
tearing giant palm leaves from their roots
running through grassy fields
climbing thorny trees
hopping tall green fences
singing with open hearts and exuberant souls
the balance of heat and cold
yins and yangs around our mouths
oh our lifeguard tower adventures
lifeguard tower adventures
all we have is love for each other
there is no fear, there is no doubt
there is no jealousy, there is no comparison
we're simply two beautiful people frolicking in our freedom
and the black void of ocean night loves us
i wish i could grow flower meadows on my body
i wish i could grow flowers in my hair
a symbiotic relationship, human-floral beauty
root my toes beneath me
bound to earth
the top of your hair smells like the fire,
the bottom smells like the ocean
still damp, still damp
'it's all my fault'
that he writes again
maybe that's my purpose for him,
for i cannot be what he would like,
i cannot give what he would like
i can only be
and he happens to love me
we exchange white roses
and all is well between us