Living in a world with the image of hell
What becomes of me and you only time will tell
The work of sin, it's an easy trade
With the lies ive been told from the friends i have made
When apathetic minds lead apathetic lives
The views of Christianity destroy mankind
Regard for human life spirals down the drain
The world is rotting, rotting in its grave
The quest for domination
Results in mans extermination
Intelligence is lost
At life's cost
The fate of the land is in the demonic hands
Of ignorant men with catastrophic plans
The window to happiness is as clear as crystal
To solve any problem all you need is a pistol
Living in times of decline
A world of decay
At night no stars shine
Crashing into the end of days
Blazing a trail to death
Leaving ash in my wake
Counting my every breath
It's my life to live and my life to take
Lying face down i'm dirty and defiled
I don't wanna be the cause of your smile
I'm not yours or mine, nor man or boy
i don't wanna be your pride and joy
Gimme gimme this
Gimme gimme that
Gimme gimme drugs
Gimme gimme disease
I'm negative charged
Atom age beast
there's a place up the road where the scum of this town meet
The city, is so dirty, you catch infections from the street
The creatures congregate, their motives cloak and dagger
Occasionally, i can be found, drunk i stumble and stagger
I can't breathe, suffocating in this poison town
A terminal social cancer from a carcinogenic crowd
Suffering melted skin from the acid rain,
Fried nerves from bullet burns shot through my brain
And you're polluting my eardrums
With your toxic verbal sludge
And your tarnished silver tongue
Is lapping up my blood
I see my reflection in a sea of smoke
And there's nothing i can do
i see myself go under, i can't breathe i only choke
And there's nothing i can do
There's little truth in the world. Practically none in my surroundings. I'm waiting for that moment, that time where it all turns around. I'm waiting for the seasons to change. Until then, I'll climb back into my bottle and wait.
What do i need to do?
It's a vicious never ending cycle
A broken record
Will work for a bit
The needle gets stuck in a rut
It repeats over and over and over and over
Maybe it can be fixed
Maybe, just maybe the chips will fall into the right place
And everything will work out for the better in the end
And then again
Maybe not
To hell and back again
My permanent residence
Everything is so heated
It's all fucked up,...
...My choice i guess...
What else am i supposed to do?
Just swallow the poison?
Humor the idea
"everything is gonna be ok"
Sad state of affairs
This mess i got myself in
Point my finger at the mirror
Though it's not been spoken
We know where to place blame
...it doesn't need to be said...
I just want a release,
An escape.
I want the most magnificent illusion
"it's all gonna be ok"
...No cracks,
No flaws,
No imperfections
Until then...
I walked across a tightrope
Balanced on a razors edge
Trying to cut a diamond
Out of an arrowhead
Its facets were dirty and murky
It shined underneath the crust
I cut and i carved and wouldn't you know
This diamond turned to dust
Naive for thinking
I'm foolish for believing
We had a future
Everything's fucked and it's all gone astray
At least for just right now anyway
Go ahead and leave we know i can't make you stay
Left with the bitter sadness and its unforgiving embrace
And so here i sit with no company
In my lake of mistakes, i want no sympathy
If i should ever fall from you angelic grace
Then i'll drown in my shame knowing i lost this race
It's time to place blame, to point all our fingers
I'll point a gun aimed directly at the mirror
There's nothing left to feel, i won't make another mistake
I'll enjoy my last meal that's led me to break
Alone for the last time, loathing in self-pity
In my lake of mistakes, i want no sympathy
And if i shall ever fall from your angelic grace
I'll disappear and put myself in my place
I feel my mind is decaying
My conscience is constantly saying
My life is just a waste
With no meaning
No significance in space
I've come to find in this human rat race
I'm always coming in last
I try not to last at the time that's passed
Because the future is coming too damn fast
In the desert
As the vultures circle over my head
The only people i see
Are those who are already dead
I have to fight to survive
What's the point in fighting
If i'm just gonna die?
I'll never accomplish my dreams
My aspirations from when i was a child
I'll be known as an accomplice to the conformist nation
To the scene parents thought was too damn wild
Yes, the wolves are in vicious circles
Waiting for their time
Their perfect moment
Yes, they will have there day
We may have made these chains
With our apathetic memories
Who's pulling the reins?
Who's controlling your destiny
We may have made these chains
Immobilized to our own tragedies
We can break these chains
And set ourselves free
I have witnessed the end of the world
I have seen the world melt into a swirling cyclone
Of blues and greens
Yellows and brown
Reds and orange
I saw it melt around me
Spiraling down a drain
Leaving me behind
To sit and weep
In all the sorrow
That it left in its wake
The infinite darkness
The blackest black
Engulfing every disillusioned soul
Every god forsaken life
In the furthest proximity
And this is where i am,
Where i start,
And where i continue
Chained to this organ grinder
No strength to break free
This is where i am,
Where i start,
Where i end,
Where i continue
The names we have are meaningless
The things we say are emotionless
The actions we make are pointless
The lives we live serve no purpose
Labeled from our birth
Made to fit the mold
Eyes sewn shut we're ostracized
All freedoms sold
Declining civiliazation
Condescending to primitive beasts
Kill another innocent victim
Use the body for our feast
We're all performers
On the devils stage
After the final curtain call
We're thrown back into a cage
Is this what it means to be free?
We're drowning in this cesspool
Called democracy
If i could do it all
Believe me, i would
If i could make everything better
Believe me, i would
Beneath these golden dreams
Lies an ugly reality
It's slipping away
And i can't function right
I feel worse each day
As i wake from the dreams at night
Are we torturing each other or ourselves?
Every day we keep putting ourselves through hell
This heartache is what we have and share together
With high hopes the soon we'll be one and forever
i'm sitting here trying to piece together the puzzle of last night
There's the tapping of a hammer in my head
Tap
Tap
Tap...
Wooden splinters stuck in my knuckles
Encased in dried blood, last nights fossils
Bruised, bloodied, and damaged
Tap
Tap
Tap...
The hammer keeps pounding
The memories are still fleeting
Crumbling in the ashes
Tap
Tap
Tap...
A crash as a bottle breaks
Glass slicing through my palms
And everything else is black
Tap
Tap
Tap...
Regain consciousness with the sunrise
Look for my connection back to the world
With the hammer tapping in my head
Tap
Tap
Tap...
There's a dark figure on my wall
The silhouette of my fate
The shadow of a dead man
Only sights to which i can relate
Skeletons dance around my bed
Feeding the voices inside my head
Am i in hell, have i lost my mind?
Have i any sense of reality, any sense of time?
In the midnight sky the shadows consume me
These malignant thoughts take over slowly
Those hurtful words you spoke to me
Have torn me apart now i'm empty
I'm tired of this heartache
The burdens of the worlds
Bleeds through my veins
Everyday i hope for a change
But everything,
Everything stays the same
There's something i can see
But it's everything i can't seem
To face
From the flames of my hell
From the walls of my cell
To my eternal resting place
There's no joy
In my somber state of mind
I've lost all direction
I've run out of time
I'm falling down
I keep falling down
i search for help
There's no one around
It's come to me
I'll die alone
My life and my spirit
Drained from these bones
Fade out into the night
Guess i'm doing alright
My sanity's slipping away
Can't find a reason to stay
Traveling, going nowhere
I just don't really care
Did you ever care
I can't sleep at night
Up 'til the mornings light
Stay up the whole day
Piss it all away
Escape for awhile
Done living in denial
Give it all away
Throw it all away
I look back on my life
I'm full of confusion
I stop and ask myself
Could this all be an illusion
Wandered through the world
Trying to find my home
I was always so lost
Always so alone
I wasn't happy
No matter where i went
Felt like my time
Here was spent
Since my birth
Since my conception
I've been struck down to my knees
Never pleaded for redemption
Now i sit here, I'm left
In the the dark
With a knife in my back
A hole in my heart
I'll continue to struggle
I'll continue to fight
I'll continue this battle
This war I call life
Falling through space
Falling faster and faster
Burst into flames
Burn forever
Angels have all fled the scene
Demons surrounding
Fire Walk With Me
Inspired by the great David Lynch
