The mind is hidden,
Where shadows remain.
Blood is spilled,
Leaving a dark stain.
For the heart,
It can sometimes die.
And tears will fall,
That will never dry.
I am damned,
With both future and past.
To be never forgiven,
For the things I have cast.
I am here, and I wonder
My mind begins to wander
I am somewhere else, with you
Forgotting the things I went through
Your words, they always touch me
Thoughts of you set me free
If only I could envision your face
To have your beauty I could trace
Take me away from all this sadness
Rid me of my inner most stress
I feel emotions that are ready to strike
Here I am, I wonder what do you look like
From the Beautiful Words story.
I tried to reach you
I failed to do that
So I lost you, my love
Now this man is lost
All I have are memories
I fear they are nightmares
As I relive that moment
Over and over again
I should be the one
Under the earth, not you
You should have been saved
I should have died instead
Forgive me, Megan, please
I wish I could hold you
Still tell you how much I need you
But all I have left are these tears
Forgive me, for I am condemned.
My love I see you every night,
But the flames keep me away.
I try to reach out, to save you;
The heat is too intense, it defeats me.
I can not see you through searing pain.
Your screams tear me apart, I am beaten back.
Then there is silence and I hear you no more,
Tears fall, the agony as they trace my burnt flesh.
Oh Megan, I miss you more than life itself;
You were my life, my soul, my reason to be.
Why were taken from me, love, pray tell me?
You now haunt my nightmares, I still hear you.
Your screams split apart my sanity, and the mirror;
It forever reminds me of this scar that Hell gave me.
Now I only have the darkness inside, and shown in words.
These very words I write, as if I am to be forever cursed,
Cursed to need to remember your face, with this dead heart.
She is gone;
Faded from my life,
But still haunting my dreams.
If only time would turn back,
That those clocks could rewind
But alas, she is gone;
And my tears still remain.
If you knew my story
Of the things I have to tell
Then your soul would hurt
And suffer the untold torture
To feel the suffering deep inside
Everyday becomes one of the same
Like a crack'd mirror showing scars
A reflection that I can never bear
That is a witness, nay it is a warning
Of the man I once was so long ago
I have been stripped down to raw bones
Bleeding inside, a gaping hole is left
From whence my heart used to beat
Alas, I fear it leaves me feeling so cold
Even though I still feel the fires of Hell
Standing in the dark
Living with my void
Afraid of the mirror
Of all it destroyed
Crying in my shadows
Stinging tears of pain
Flowing down my face
Time and time once again
Trying hard to understand
The bleakness of my day
Uncertain of why this life
Decided they had to take her away