In the beginning
Your butchering words,
Went through my head.
As a child who listens,
To every word you say.
Your constant sarcasm,
Your words which,
I thought were the truth.
Just to let you know, Dad
Those butchering words,
To me are now worthless.
For I know now,
It was only your sickness.
A lot of things have changed.
Looking at the ceiling
Thinking,
Just thinking..
What you're gonna say
What you're gonna wear
What you wanna share.
Some think it's easy
To drift away anytime,
Some think it's hard
To go away 'til next time,
Some pray all night
Friends, family, health and all,
Some just like to listen
To the silence throughout the hall.
It can get so quiet
You don't want to break it
You just want to feel it,
Within your mind
Within this art
Within your eyes
Within your heart.
It's hard for me
To just start sleeping
But then I just look
Right up at the ceiling.
For reasons that are unknown,
like my existence and my own.
Words are often hard to find,
to capture your heart, soul and mind.
Better than any dream,
Unreal than it can seem.
Better than any fantasy,
different to what people can see.
These works that I speck,
is what makes you truely unique.
No friendly gestures.
No fake smiles.
No hugs no kisses.
I cant be wowed.
No reason to run.
Your time will come.
Love hurts thats why they say knowledge is pain.
My pad and my pen are my best friend.
Don't look at the way I dress or the color of my skin.
Get to know me the person within.
Until then I will still win.
Because the pad and the pen will tell a story again.
No need for nonsense,
I’m taking the time to trust.
Safe and secure in his arms.
Sealing our perfect pinky promises with kisses,
Sharing secrets under silent stars,
Dancing until daybreak.
We find eternity in each other’s eyes.
Falling for my first “forever.”
The endless blue sky
No clouds in sight
How peaceful to be there at first light
Peacefully looking up
Not a sound
Not even a critter.
The yellow, orange leaves
The cool fall breeze
There’s nothing like sitting there on this gorgeous fall day.
I smell like coffee, bruises
and insomnia
for the night I spent weeks awake
in bed,
from 12:17 to 12:32
counting heartbeats instead of seconds
and listening to
the wind, howl me reasons
to step outside.
It yelled through the blinds
where the window
doesn't latch shut
and picked up the edge
of the goose feather
hollow
to remind me
that no one else was up.
I'm a pretender.
Filled with nothing but confusion.
I may look whole.
But I'm no more than an allusion.
I try to feel complete.
But the puzzle pieces are still scattered.
I'm trying to hold on.
Then I slip and all is shattered.
It’s coming, believe it or not.
In fact, It’s already here.
What if I told you It’s been here for years?
Since you were born, Since your parents were born.
Even before that.
Can you guess It?
I’ll give you a hint;
It never looks the same.
It’s always different. Always in a different place.
Always affecting different people positively and negatively.
It never takes a break, even when It’s taking a break from you.
It never shows its face, even when It’s standing right in front of you.
It comes at you so fast, you don’t have time to prepare yourself.
It’s there when you wake up, go to bed, go to school.
It’s happening everywhere.
It can make you feel disoriented, abandoned, and anxious.
It can make you feel courageous, independent, and capable.
Too much of It can cause corruption, discomfort and chaos.
Too little of It can cause frustration, lethargy and dependency.
It means nothing one minute, but everything the next.
It is a very dangerous thing;
yet today’s society cannot survive without It.
So what is It?
It’s-
Change.
You give me, butterflies inside,
I get so nervous I want to hide.
But you bring me, out of my shell,
Inside, inside, I must rebel.
I want to break lose, and fly away,
They hold me down, they make me stay.
I’m tied up, I cant break free,
Then you come, and rescue me.
Faster, faster, we must escape,
Our runaway plan starts to shape.
You hold my hand, a kiss on the cheek,
All of a sudden, I feel so weak.
I feel a shiver, all down my spine,
Because for this moment, your all mine.
Today I found a friend,
Who knew everything I felt.
She knew my every weakness,
And the problems I've been dealt.
She understood my wonders,
And listened to my dreams.
She listened to how I felt about life and love,
And knew what it all means.
Not once did she interrupt me,
Or tell me I was wrong.
She understood what I was going through,
And promised she'd stay long.
I reached out to this friend,
To show her that I care.
To pull her close and let her know,
How much I need her there.
I went to hold her hand,
To pull her a bit nearer.
And realized that this perfect friend I found,
Was nothing but my mirror.
Dreams and memories float by,
Like the stars of a distant galaxy,
Undetected and dim.
I reach out my hands and I laugh,
Feeling the hot-cold sensation of love and dreams fufilled.
And so they float on,
Slowly and wistfully,
Down and out of the sky.
She warned me-
They all did-
But I dove into the horizon without remorse.
Now that it's done,
The stars have rejected me,
The comets have spit on me,
And the meteorites have poisoned me,
I cry not for myself, or for you,
But for the stars that burnt out along the way.
I dreamt that you kissed me,
Then the moon smiled at you,
And you drifted to her,
Leaving me in my stardust.
I don't want to pull you away-
She shines so much brighter than I do.
In the beginning it was considered lust
Nothing more than just a crush
Minor words of flirtation
Did everything to increase the temptation
It wasn’t long after words became an action
This soon enhanced the attraction
The feeling was something unknown
With the craving to make it shown
It’s an aching that lurks deep within our veins
It’s a feeling that most words are unable to explain
It’s a power that makes your body lose control
It’s a mystery unsolved but make your heart feel full
It’s an element that is indescribable
It’s a thought in your mind that’s uncontrollable
It’s a challenge that the world takes for granted
It’s a passion deep in your core that needs to be chanted
So in the end the lust was still existent
But the passion became persistent
A few thoughts lurk deep in my mentality
And what I desire, I hope to become a reality
I know what I feel is true
And what I wish to say is I love you.
The sun slowly sets over the ocean,
Melting the warm,
orange glow with the still,
blue water.
I loved the person I shared that moment with.
I love him still.
But like the sunset,
...the moment faded all too fast.
Hold me like you'll never let go
Kiss me like it's the first time
Love me like you've never loved anyone before
Promise me you'll stay mine.
How can it be described?
An unsolved mystery
A lasting affliction
Watching the world through a hawk’s tiny eye
Finding a forgotten baby fox
Painting a picture
Smelling the earth’s new rain
Meeting someone new
What is life?
A cold slap in the face
A dagger through your heart
Love’s vow.
My heart won’t beat
Unless you start it
So wind it up
And let me go
I will run a thousand miles
Trying to collect
What’s been lost from me
I promise
When we collide
The sparks that ignite
Will light the world
For only a day
But what we make of it
Is truly up to you
I will be content
Listening to your soft breath
As you hold me tight
A faint heartbeat
Whispers everything will be alright
With only 24 hours
We must live up to the moment
With every precious second
We must act like it is the last
What little time we built
So delicate
Oh so beautiful
They will never think to look
Where we hide
Behind our eyes
Runaways
Holding the others heart
Walk in stride
Side to side
Pacing through our day
Once the sun sets
The heart rests
And these feelings fade away
Be glad we made the best of it
As the light
Of our day
Dims away.
Love takes you away
so you might not return to day
It makes you go to a place
you always wanted to taste
When it burns in your heart
like some sort of mystical art
You could try to fight
but it wouldn't feel right
You need to just give in
let the love flow from within.
It's bright outside, I can tell
but today im sure will not be well
Your judgmental eyes pass against me
You dont know all I want is to be free
Society has betrayed me
Hating, Killing, Fighting
Trusting liars with me liberty
You have failed me and I will not forgive
There is nothing worth waking for
To be spat on, far away from home
Without a friendly face in sight
And nothing ever changes.
Like a bird in the sky
I will fly high
Up to the stars
I will see my destiny
Of what I can be
When the planets are align
They’ll show me the sign
Where to go
And what to see
So I can find the element
When chemicals react
I know I’ll have it
I knows it’s out there waiting for me
To the sky
I will fly high
Up I go come catch me,
Love me,
For I will love you to
Cause you are my destiny
Of what I should be
My element,
My key.
I watch her from a distance
Waiting
Screaming through my soul
And she doesn’t know I’m there.
I see her in my dreams
Wishing
My heart about to explode
And she doesn’t know I’m there.
I gaze upon her sparkling eyes
Holding back tears
I feel I am paralyzed
And she doesn’t know I’m there.
I watch her walk away from me
Frozen
I will never see her again
And she doesn’t know I’m there.
I can’t forget her perfect smile
Stigmatized
I know she’s somewhere out there now
And she never knew I was there.
