Olivia Baughman
Flash backs.
You.
Me.
Us.
Was there even an us?
I thought you were for me.
The one who won't hurt me.
But, your the only one who did.
I smile.
I laugh.
But when I see you,
I break down.
I think,
I remember the memories we had
The ones I want back.
Why can't it be the same?
Like it was before?
It was picture perfect.
It was a dream,
I knew it couldn't be so real.
smiles and tears,
giggles and laughs,
late night calls,
and photographs,
ill be there for you,
until the day of my death,
best friends forever,
until my very last breath,
Your big brown eyes.
Your soft hands.
Your freckled face.
Your curly hair.
Your everything.
It's perfect.
Your perfect.
I think we should be together.
I think it would work out.
I think it would be good.
As the stars line up,
Our lips gentally touch.
Our hands are held tighter.
We're in love
You don't care about my flaws.
You don't care what I look like.
That's why we're perfect.
You grab my waist,
Pull me closer,
Tickle me to hear my laugh.
I think this might work.
I know it will.
I thought we were friends
I thought you liked me.
I thought we would be friends forever
I thought wrong
I thought.
Your a bitch.
Your an ungrateful bitch.
Your just a plain out bitch
blue hair, piercings all over you
you like it rough, but what am i supposed to do
No matter what, I promise that i'll hold you thru
Anything
I'm not your type, don't lie and say that's not true
For you, tell me anything and thats what I would do
proving you belong with me, now that's my goal
Anywhere you tell me to, that's where i'd go
You're depressed? We'd help eachother to survive
And you ask me, do i want you in my life?
I don't want you, but I need you, just to breathe
My heart would skip a beat if you said you're in love with me
It's true, its true
You're the guy in my dreams who I never get
Too nervous to approach you,
your eyes, whatever color that they may be
And i hope that soon, i may one day see
them, gazing into mine.
because, we'd get lost in them together, together
anyday i see you, i hit the lottery
our anniversary, i wonder what you got for me
that's what i'd think about if you ever got with me
You actually caring, that's something that i gotta see
your girlfriend that's really something that i wanna be
but it might not ever happen... happen
I'd always stick with you, yeah I'll never let you go
The times we talked, I'll never forget what you said
This is an example of what goes on in my head
There's You and me, but will there ever be an us?
whatever the chances, I just wanna see because..
to me, you're perfect, you heard it... you're worth it
The reason I breathe.
The reason I live.
The reason I'm me.
The reason I am this.
The reason,
Why?
What is the reason?
Nobody knows..
Your face is everything i see,
Your voice,
Echoing through the chambers of hell.
The hell,
I call my mind.
My soul is leaking through.
Only bars keep me locked away.
But,
They are breaking.
My soul is finally free.
Let Your waves crash down on me,
And take me away.
I know some where,
Some how,
We'll be together.
Even if it's not today,
Or to
Tomorrow.
Some way,
Somehow,
We will be together
Curled up under a blanket.
With you right next to me.
In your arms,
We lay.
We smile,
We giggle,
We just stare in to each others eyes,
Your eyes are so deep brown,
Mine are so bright green.
It's just a wonderful feeling.
I absoutly love this.
But I know this will never,
Ever
ever
Be the way I want it to be.
The way I need it to be.
The way I,
I want it to change.
I want us together.
I want.
But this will never.
You don't think of me the way I thought you did.
Oh well.
This is mine,
That's mine.
Your mine,
And she's mine.
Your all mine.
No way to escape.
My power is to strong.
Why even try?
Nothing can escape.
So don't try.
Your always mine.
Forever.
we talk,
we laugh,
we hold hands.
I love this.
But this is no Romeo and Juliette fairy tale.
This is going to be my fairytale
my love.
my happy ever after.
your deep brown eyes,
staring into mine.
this can't be right.
its an amazing feeling.
your soft hands,
hold mine.
your soft lips,
almost touching mine.
this cant be right.
your freckled face,
your puppy dog eyes,
this might,
turn out to be right.
you might be the one,
my prince.
im your princess.
it might.
i hope not,
but only god knows.
whats happing next
if we were together,
id hope it will be forever.
you'll be my salt,
and ill be your pepper.
u will be my husband,
and ill be your wife.
we'd be together.
forever.
and forever means life.
Sitting.
Here.
Alone.
Packed away.
In the forest of thoughts.
Everyone walked out.
And bad thoughts poured in.
Now.
Nothing but the memories of all people
He knows I like him.
But he goes out with his ex.
So I don't try anymore.
I am not that lucky.
My clothes are ripped.
their not Hollister or aeropostale.
Their not designer.
I can't afford that.
My parents are not rich.
I don't go to Florida on vacation every summer.
I don't have a phone, laptop, iPod or all that.
I'm happy with 2 crayons and paper.
If I'm lucky,
that's all I get.
I really loved you.
. But you don't love me anymore.
So now, a haiku.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue
did I actually cry over you?
First time,
Shame on you,
Second,
Shame on me.
now,
I look back,
At our ups and downs,
And im happy im done with you.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
so...
I ask myself.
As I sit on the front porch of the house,
Thinking.
Our future will be great!
But not anymore.
The worst has came.
Karmas a bitch.
She came after you.
And it affected me.
It will eventually kill you.
And when it gets you,
I'll just laugh,
I told you so,
Not to do all those things.
But nobody listens.
To a frail girl like me.
I don't know your a cheater.
I don't know your a player.
I don't know what you will do to me.
People tell me the things.
But I believe your better.
My motto...
What I don't know won't hurt me.
But now I know..
And I'm aching inside...
If you really knew me,
You should know what's wrong
