Placid and unsounded vapour beauty.
Igniting the Starless gloom gracefully adrift.
I stand in awe entranced in her transparent, milky glow,
Delicate beauty, so fragile yet so swift.


Softly blinking a melancholic echo
Leaving a frosty dew wherever she roams
Beholden to the forsaken for eternity
Meandering soullessly so alone.

What the hell
Is going on?
Can't you see that?
This is wrong!
Took me
Made me
Against my will
Your words don’t touch
You actions kill!


Sucked the life right
Out of me.
Drained my soul
Won’t set it free.
Haunt me
Taunt me
Draw me in.
You'll be my fate
I'll be your sin!

Although I do try
To contain
These visions still protrude.
Left on me like a stain
Consume me like I am their food.

As flashbacks seep
From within me
Closure seems impossible to find.
Desperately longing to be set free
From this persistent slide show in my mind.

Everyday the knife is turned
Plunged straight through my heart.
No longer here, my other half
Because I did depart.

I feel so empty, in despair.
Long for you at night.
Life so dark full of pain
You were my only light.

And time I wish I could turn back
Now it is too late.
There will be no other one like you
First love and my soul mate.

How you have afflicted me pain
What you have done to me
Does your conscience ever
Whisper my name?

Left in your filth
You left me to wallow
Where you aware of the consequences
To me that would follow.

Did you feel gratified?
Did you get your kicks?
As I laid there terrified
Out of me, you got your fix!

Couldn't you hear me crying?
Couldn't you feel my pain?
You’re the one, who broke me
Yet I am the one in shame.

Addicted to his sent
And the feeling of a heart beating
Next to yours at night
In exchange with putting up
With whatever he feels suits you
Reducing you to tears
Serving you a fright.

Preying on you vulnerabilities
You are like putty in his hands
He twists the key in your back forcefully
You entertain his every command.

Consumed by his own fears
And jealousy
Convincing his self that to your life
He has the right.

You take what he deals you
Emotionlessly
Just for a beat of a heart
Next to yours at night.

Sucked the life right out of me
Drained my soul won't set it free
Haunt me
Taunt me
Draw me in
You'll be my fate
I'll be your sin.

It draws you in
And off you it feeds
You pity yourself without it
You think it is all you need.

Lost in your chilled out
Delusional place
Thrown back any lifeline
Which could replace.

Naive, you think it's
Harmless, recreational fun
A victim of the consequences
As it eats your insides numb.

Coming back to the real world
It grinds you, a constant itch
It plays with your mind aggressively
You’re seduced to your next fix.

My life is hanging
By a fraying thread
Which is straining with
Life’s corruption
And when it snaps
I will be dead
I thrive on thee
Anticipation.

Life itself, infected by ill will
Causing erosion to my heart
Hardened against good in a callous way
I have known this from the start.

The pain the hurt, fear
And anger
Emotions I fail to cease
Go in together combine as one
Savagely waiting for its release.

Let go of in a noxious manner
An agitation of ones mind
As I set it, free on to someone else
How guilt causes me to subside.

Bound inside
These walls of pain
No one to turn to unable to say.

I contemplate life
Insides numb
Heart frozen
Confusion pondered upon.

I sit alone just cannot face
The world outside
The human race.

Quashed by society
Pushed upon a ledge
Pressure building up
I balance on a ledge.

You leave me lying here.
Lost in your last words to me.
I cannot settle or rest
Picturing the way you looked at me so angrily.

No matter how hard I try to dislike or forget you
My heart injects me with the feel of your kisses
Your hugs and the things that only we do.

I long for you to be with me now
Comforting me in your arms
Telling me how much you love me
Protecting me from all my fears and all that harms.

But your not.

I am here so alone left to wither in my world
Cold, dark and isolated
You were my only warmth.
My only light.
These last few nights without you by my side, I have hated.

Thinking of never, holding you again
Or tasting your kisses is too much to contemplate.
You were my other half, my best friend
I wanted to be yours forever and have lost in you a soul mate.

Sadly, you will never find another love so faithful,
Devoted and true.
Another love honest, loyal and pure for you alone,
As mine to you.

A dark void that is slowly
Burring me
Does not bear no name
I know nothing of why I am its chosen one
Or, what it stands to gain.

It places the visions in my mind
It pours the pills in my hand.
Overwhelms me with the feelings
That I will be at ease
If I leave this twisted land.

And as my heart beats on
It hollows out my insides
Holds my emotions captive
Thrives of the hour's I've cried.

Longing for it to release me
I routinely battle it everyday
Showing me no mercy
It makes a point it is here to stay.

Like a hurricane
In your soul
Knocking your emotions
In a turmoil.

Up heaving your bitterness
Reminiscing your past
Evil words the script
Your enemies the cast.

Blocked from minds view
Away from heartaches path
Hiding what you've been through
How much longer can you last?

Entwined our love from deep within
Emotions we both do share
I pine your love
And want you so
It is underestimated how
Much I care.

Tenderly attached in a
Potent way
A connection between our
Hearts
The warming feeling when
You approach
I never want us to be apart.

Glass eyed,
Destitute stares,
Savagely consumed by this empty space.
I cry pleading to the hollowness of,
These four bleak walls,
But I do not hear, nor see another living soul,
Only the reflection of my despairing face.

I question my existence,
My tongue coated with the sour,
Taste of my own termination.
Thoughts shattered aspirations torn,
Deceased with this on going,
Feeling of devastation.