The beat of the wings
laced with dusty memories
haunting me as I lay in the swords of grass
as the grey puffs in the sky
release their wet bombs onto me
The trees sway with mimicked exhaustion
the sky groans with an empathetic pain
and then flashes
the light at the end of the tunnel
the sky extinguishes the fire in my heart
You can’t see me there anymore,
don’t waste your time
all that’s left is the echo in the trees
and the scorch mark of my heart.
Things are better when you're around
I worry less
I smile more
my heart begins to pound
Things are better when you're around
I laugh for hours
I dance in snow
my feet fly off the ground
Things are better when you're around
I rhyme my words
and kiss through tears
I'm glad it's you I've found
So let the winter winds blow
and swallow me whole
just like the thoughts of you
have consumed my soul
So let the snow fall
soft and sweet
as your words
flush my cheeks
So let the cold
chill me to the bone
your arms wrapped around me
feel like home
Sleepless in the city,
or so it always seems
it feels like I love you,
but is it just a dream?
I feel you through my veins
like a fish through the sea
I can't seem to be without you,
why can't you just let me be?
suppress
drown
just go away
don't come back any other day
I don't want to think you
I don't want to feel you
get out of my mind
I'm losing it
I could lose you
I'm just so tired of trying
Your boyish beauty breaks
my vacant chest aches
To see you’re fragile wall shatter,
your heart stops the pitter-patter
I’m trying to sew the seam
where the crack ruptured your dream
Being around you helps me fly
And I can’t bear to say goodbye.
drifting along, out to sea
when you stop, do you think of me?
I watch the water, as tears flow
did you really have to go?
and as I watch with glittering eyes
the whole world, dark and wide
crumbles.
We lie awake and dream our dreams, letting our thoughts flow like streams,
Like mist around the moon, on a warm night in June
They vanish.
Tick, tock the time rolls around the clock,
Slowly but surely fought, lessons, they never seem taught
Forgotten.
Although changed is expected, it is never fully accepted
A frightening contemplation, but a permanent deliberation
Such is life.
We’re positioned at this conditioned point
As time rattles on, like you’re just a pawn
In this short game.
A careless thought, no longer sought
Left alone life a leaf being blown
Away in the wind.
You can try screaming, just to find meaning
But what you desire will soon expire
As will it all.
Sewing the seam never truly gets rids of the dream
A life without strife
Would be wonderful
The thought of life without good-bye could make one’s heart fly
A million miles above, soaring like a dove
Away from the world.
a poem I wrote for an assignment in English class,
was nearly the death of me
shooting stars
wishbones
dandelions
coin tosses
and birthday candles
I wish for you
friendship
love
happiness
kisses
forever & always
I wish you could see
It's like you don't hear them at all
they know what she is
what she's doing
to you
it's like you've taken you're fragile heart
hidden it, far away
and I don't know how to get there
I don't know how to get through
to you
you know what she's doing
still you stay by her side
because in your mind,
she's everything
to you
and here I am, thinking of you
wondering what you're thinking of, or who
wishing I could mean everything
to you
on the dock,
the wood beneath my palms
the sun on my face
the water glistening below
the same sparkle that was in your eyes
last summer
the last time I saw you
calling me crazy
as I jumped
plunging into the sparkling oasis
with laughter, you followed
I'd give anything to go back to that time
where I held your heart, and you held mine
now what you want
has ripped me apart
like that plunge off the dock
tearing through the water
there's a hole through my chest
The cold wind whips around my face
throwing my hair and turning my cheeks pink
the snow falls daintily, dancing within the wind
each flake a different pattern
just like every person has a story
you take my hand and we collapse into the white covered ground
later it will be shivers and sniffles
but right now, it's a cold bliss
Sometimes,
I'd like to break every clock
just so time would stand still
and I could stay in this moment
with you,
forever
But as I blink,
I discover time, like you, has moved on
and like a broken clock, I haven't
and while you're out there,
looking for yourself
I'll be here
without you
But you'll never know
because you seem to have forgotten
what your heart is for
I watch you pace back and forth
in your apartment,
grasping at faded memories
and moments long since forgotten
You collapse on the couch
with a heavy hearted sigh
you fidget and fiddle
as you wonder where I am
I always lived like this
keeping a suitable distance
it's almost comical to think my afterlife
would be the same
I wish I could move on
but I can't seem to let go of you
I can't bare the thought of leaving you
here all alone
but I know I have to,
it's for your own good.
I move closer to you
and kiss your forehead
within an instant
I begin to fade
I know you'll be okay,
but I'll never forget you...
Victimize, yourself
Tantalize, everyone else
Agonize, her
Moralize, you try
Critisize, they do
Apologize, can't you?
I can feel it pulse
rush through my veins
like acid
it burns through me
this surge of power
this wave
of red heat
it gives me strength
I shouldn't have
you're too busy
it doesn't matter
I'm not worth the effort
it takes two
too make this friendship work
why am I the only one trying?
I want to scream
just to let it out
this mass of feeling
not sad
not happy
just there
in my chest
making me choke
there you go again
knocking me off my feet
with a single blow
I crumble
the scene replays in my head
going over everything that was left unsaid
just like the times before
and the times that will follow
like setting off a box of fireworks
right inside my head
silently my mind explodes
just because you smiled
