I'll think of you tonight
As I drift off to meet you in my dreams
In the rivers and streams
Of unconscious delight
And in the morning
Everything will feel alright
As I remember our adventures to places unseen
Because I'm waist deep in love
And nothing much can fix this tug
On my heartstrings
Until tomorrow when I
See you again
And hold your hand
Where everything is right
And nothing fully planned
Because with you it could be
Anytime or place on land or sea
As long as you're here with me

Hello to you whom I've missed
A welcome sight you are
Like a dreamweaver
Amongst the midnight stars...

I cannot wait for spring
For the burgeoning,
Grass, flowers, trees
All each emerging
The secret tender growth of youth
A slow but bold display
Revealing to us beautiful truth
The white sweet lilies of May
I anticipate the morning dew
The crisp, brisk air
That carries on
And heats with sun
To become
June's evening fare

That spindly spider,
I watch as he weaves
A tale of luring dreams. Of captivating fantasies
Trapped within those thin silk threads
A story only the privileged see,
Glistening with dew,
Beneath the gibbon moon,
The dreamweaver,
He makes for you a tomb.

In between the waking and the dreaming,
A landscape of fantasy,
In between the real and unbelieving,
A question of reality,
In between these lines, I dare to live,
In Sanity

Your touch interrupts my thoughts
Words flee my tongue in knots
I forget & am undone
My focus lost on all else
As if my brain just melts
Have you noticed this power
You have over me?
Controlling my ability
Suspending my faculties?

You seem to have captured me
Infiltrated my dreams
And crossed into my seams
In your company
How well you mesh with me
Your hand fits mine
As if perfectly designed
You fill the spaces where I lack
The heat to my cold
The knick to my knack
The strength to my debility
The simple to my complexity
The caution tempering my impulse
The kindness to my insults
I've decided you're good for me
There's nowhere I'd rather be

Your presence muddles time,
Suspending its consequence
Hours stretch to days
Minutes melt away
Seemingly unconfined

But as we are apart
Another shift occurs
Time elapses
Slow as molasses
Ever to be endured

And I cannot wait
To be back again
Where never is there late
And time has lost its end.

Conscious loss of consciousness
Hazy stream of dreams
Brimming space of imagination
Behind the shutters
Of my windows to
The world.

Burrowed in the blankets
Between the sheets of a
Waking world
And insensible slumber

I melt into
Fantastical space
Lost to rules of
Reality or certainty

Miles traversed
Yet respite gained
Entire journeys
To spaces unnamed

Each instance
Of forgetfulness
A salve to the
Deep wounds
Of living

Cocoon of healing
Peaceful loss of time
Whole darkness
Drifting within the mind

Swaddled in warmth
The gentle sun
Signal of the day begun
Shakes the sleep
From within
And I return to
Learn and work and live again

Dryness pervades
On the arid wasteland
Cracks spider through the earth
Desiccant littered through the fissures

Wearied, I seek
Searching, I stumble
Through parched land,
Limitless

The horizon bleeds
As the day ends
Coldness permeates
Into my soul

No direction
This landscape
Void of paths
Here, my footprints
Circles, I wander
Days, I suffer…

Lost.

Lips split from drought
Yearning for balm
Open, asking
Yet not without doubt…

           A
        Clear
      Singular
     Dewdrop
     Answers
        Hope

A jewel from the sky
Promise of Mercy
A tear from God’s eye
I am but unworthy

Dizzy and haggard
I crawl to deliverance
Where once was a droplet
A stream burgeons forth

This water, a well within
Flowing to restore
Never shall I thirst again
Only You do I adore

Again and again
A kiss exchanged for a piece of me
Steadily fading away
Vanishing into the mouths of men
They care nothing for me
Nor I for them

Bows in my hair
Clothes donned with care
Tears swept aside
So much effort lost
To the inattentive eye

I’m a fragile package
Patched with care
Chipped and ragged
A state of disrepair, despair

Numbed from repetition
Baited. Hooked. Released.
Lost to my worth
Played for gratification

The lies
Expectations
Distortions of half-truths
I bought them all

Run ragged
Through Runway
Mere shades of Beauty
Led me to fall

Feeling damned, yet finally
Learning slowly
The meaning of
For Who I am

Searching for the One
Who accepts this gift fully
I found myself as I was received
The Giver, He gifted me

The exquisite taste of iron
Lingering enclosed
A sanguineous river
The bequest of mine adversary
A purple mottled blossom
Burgeoning forth
Flowerbed of
Battered frame
Extinguished flame
The corporeal battlefield
Ravaged

Iniquitous intentions
And dominating force
Unabated terror
Reigning forth

As with every new bloom
It claims new ground
A daring boldness
Possessed of strategy
With motives unsound

A brink battled raged
Body consumed
Lost shattered frayed

Within and closer
A planted cerebral seed
Rising forth malady

Nevermore unchanged
Though the body heals
The mind retains
Lasting casualties
Slivered charred remains

We sink into our graves
Nicely built for us to stay
A long repose, a rest no one knows
Some of us, we chose
Others never wanted to go
Threads short and long
Stories concluded and others just begun
We lay to rest our worries, uncertainties
No more anxieties to plague us
We leave harmonious
As pounds of dirt weigh down on us
In peaceful rigor mortis

Those colours melt and drip and skip
They play on your face and
In your eyes
Whirls pop and sparkle
Like bubbles, first floating and
Falling like lead in the sky
Your chemical properties
Alter in the moonlight
The grass is the ocean
And I’m sinking down below
An underground explorer
Rediscovering what I don’t know
What I thought I knew
The universe like a project
Scattered and unglued
Pieces into pieces
Your molecules separate and congregate
I see a whole new reality
A beautiful complexity
Now so simple in a moment
Inexplicable, understandable
Epiphany.

I was running,
Until you caught me
I was holding up my walls,
Until you broke them
Down, Inside, I was dazed
That insidious mist l e a c h e d out and
Penetrated
You wielded your words like knives
Explosions of your logic
Shattered my glass vases
Up
    rooted my living room carpet
White and stainless,
Underneath
That pristine exterior,
A chasm
Of waste,
Darkinfectiouslies
Seeping, probing, l e a k i n g out
Bodies refusing to decay
Eternally rotting,
Awaiting proper Rest
Tired of their
Hastened closet graves
Grinning knowingly,
Daring me to act,
Clawing at the edge of
Subconscious suppression,
Ever l i n g e r i n g at the periphery
They GORGE their holes
Sporadic bursts of guilt
Digging at my scruples
A spark, quickly smothered
An idea, quickly silenced
I kept up those walls
Running,
           running
Until you
           caught
                     me.

My fingers felt those synthetic polyester fibers
Small little worm like strings
Moving as my hands made waves
Moss amongst the water
Seaweed in the current

Ripping them up,
Unplanting them all
Tossing them to burn
Little strands of law and order
I sought deeper
Driven to my end

Repetition drove me
Pulling, tugging at those roots
Of your history
Tearing at the surface
Plastic woven particles
Frayed times gone past

I couldn’t cease, stop, leave
The beginning had begun
Closer I came
Yet knowing unnamed

In the movement of the motion
Those peaks fed my yearning
An underground history
To explore
Impossible to cease
I hungered for more

I held those fibers of truth
The dirt was ridden with a story,
Discovered, unearthed
My thirst fulfilled

The crowd pushed in and I lost myself
Amidst the waves, the boisterous clash
From where did I begin?
From where was I set in motion?
Absorbed into the great masses
A singular entity lost inside this sea
I move, sway, fall
Crashing with the energy of it all
The surge lifts me up
And sets me down
Colors burst and fires form
Scattering dust and ash
Leaving some things whole
Others torn
Reaching into the distance
A new frontier is found
A sudden consumption
Of all that surrounds
I stand here alone
My two feet
Steady on the ground
Skin prickling like pins
Hot from the forge
Malleable at first
Hardening at last
A new celebration
In this conflagration
Much greater than glass
I shall not shatter
Nor shall I crack
Given a new Hope
I am hard as diamonds
Come forth from coal
Stripped of blemish
Flawless and whole

I glanced your way
You matched my gaze
A brief exchanged
Lingering close to the edge 
Of social awkwardness 
A brief convergence into your soul
For Unable to control am I 
That urge to discover 
Your very gemini 

You broke away 
From our bondage 
Refused those connections 
Scared of what could be 
Of a dalliance too lengthy

The lingering mist,
A fog of forgetfulness
Cleansing all that you ever were
This new beginning, your cure
Forgotten yourself and left empty
A lost identity