skin polished
with oils, salt and husks
i gleam
with perfumed butters and musk
silken smooth flesh
like living warm honey
i languish
in the golden light of dusk
limbs naked
under silks and plush
i wait
i wait for you
we carry scars
and marks
imperfections of pigment
warped bones
and fragmenting knees
we the feel the weather
in our old injuries
if you play
you inevitably bleed
lazy fly on my leg
beer brain and belly
turning on a bed
of cool cotton sheets
golden sunlight
envelops my head
saturday afternoon nap
i smiled as i slept
i put the flame
to incense and oils and candles
cigarettes and all manner of other offerings
the remains of a thousand departed essences
linger in the light of still flickering flames
through the fire
we are set free
slowly devoured
by this love
by thoughts
of the choice that never was
digested fodder
discarded too fast
forever left
in your unremembered
past
sometimes the truth
sits in the choosing
and not the choice
that’s made
sometimes the pain
ss not the losing
but the loss of days
stepping through
to the simplicity
that lies beyond
what is called
intricate
between me
and the layers of you
Disperse
Containment defied
Scatter yourself
As far and as wide as possible
Without losing your mind
Look back
And you will find your answer
you can stretch
until your spine snaps
spreads apart
separates you
from earth
tears tendons
and flesh
the absurd
desire to leave
my feet
and grow
wings
ek dryf in koperson
want wolke is te wit om op te trap
en blou lug te min om my te hou
ek dryf in illovo-stroop lig
wat om my vou
soos ‘n ma se hande wat skulp
om ‘n kind se huil
ek wil iets beteken
nie iets hê
of word
of kry
of maak nie
nie nut
of hulp
of help
of raad nie
ek wil net iets beteken
wat ek nie in myself maak nie
all the blood and violence
awakened ferocious appetite for life
a bright gleaming hunger
on the edge of the knife
every moment a juicy morsel
of the raw red meat
born from strife
good man
bad man
can be the same man
cruel man
kind man
can be one
stand freezing in the sun
the past can be undone
a life saved
and a smoking gun
here i stand
naked
unashamed
no longer afraid
i am open
splayed
so that you may look
into my darkest shadows
and see
me
here i stand
nothing you wish
to know will remain hidden
i show you all
even what i can't see
and you choose to be blind
wind
with sand
grates
skin away
without the rain
in blue and gray
to wash
the blood
and pain
away
fleshmaiden
meateater
cannibal
swallow
the lifegiving
bone blood meat marrow
i feel you
currents and electrical shivers
whisper against my palm
when i stroke the air
around your skin
you feel so gooooooood
gun gas
splash float
murder rape
hate
blood red
bloat blue
death grey
pain true
i drink the poison
and i hope you die
bitterness soaks in
to become the lie
feeding
the decay we deny
