the world has not yet met the peace, when this battle's taking place
the men in their camo, doing us right
loved ones, and strangers doing their best
to keep the world peaceful, they fight
for all that is good in the world
they sacrifice by leaving their land behind
we pray for the strength of the courageous
and we give out our all to the ones who have died
while our loved ones are over seas serving
we'd love them to be safe and unharmed
although she's away, i'll think of her today
while she lays her pride down, and bears arms.
while we await their return from the treacherous journey
families eager and anxious to finally embrace
with their trooper that has been gone for so long
to finally see her face to face
they unboard the passengers, dressed head to toe in grey and green
as women men and children jump ut of their seats
cuz we all know, that now she's home
that hole in a families heart, that missing part, is finally complete <3
I don't care where were going
Or how we get there
If it carries my freedom
I'll travel anywhere
I want to run free of shackles
And breathe in the pride
I swear I won't waste one more second
Of this beautiful ride
Now that I've actually
Seen and been through bad times
I must come together
And hear the Earth's chimes
To what he had to do
He sacrificed his life for us
For the sins existence of me and you
So look over his actions
And don't waste your life
Live every moment as if it's last
Overcome all grief and strife
Take a walk through a meadow
And listen to his creations
For what he's made there's nothing like it
His extraordinary sensations
Baby, there's no other,
No someone else,
It's hard to balance this love,
Feelin' like my heart's on stilts
Can't look down,
No, I can't turn around,
They say to love with your life,
But, I don't know how,
Baby, these walls,
They're crashing down,
Just wish you were here to see me now.
Her heartbeat gets faster,
At last her,
Lungs give out,
Just wishin' she was dreamin',
She don't want this life no more,
So used to droppin' and leavin'.
But this game she's playin',
All it does is mess with her heart,
Her soul shatters,
And falls apart,
At the scene,
Left with senseless scars.
Now she's screamin',
As her death's redeemin',
"I don't want this pain in my chest!"
Lord, put me to rest!
Never wake me up, bury me deep,
Make sure it's deep enough that n one will hear my screams.
No rear windows,
Can't change what's done,
Her soul lifts beyond the sun,
It wasn't supposed to be her, she wasn;t the one.
Lucky for her, the guilt lies within the holder of the gun.
So this is my fate?
This Rock hard
Stick it to my wrist, then shove a little.
Leads me t my thrush holding dream
Take me away to destiny,
All my blood inside of me
No other ways to get out!
So I depart,
Broken heart, new start.
No more decisions to be decided
No more laws to be abided
Hell, Imma do what I want, and say what I like,
Yah know why niggah'? I run this life.
Ain't no one gonna tear me down,
Shoo, listen hear baby, I own this town.
Don't waste yur time trying to flip a frown
This one's solid, like cemented ground
If yah like what yah see
I'll break down to my knees
Begging you to set me free
Anyway, let go of me!
Burst my brains out, so I know how you feel
Baby, these emotions are too unreal
As I leave your ring
Beside your bed,
Kiss your head,
Light the match,
No lookin' back,
Burn myself to the mother fucking ground,
Ashes, ashes, my body falls down.
You're my honey, my sweetheart, my one true love,
Your touch releases me, as twelve freed doves
Everytime I dance into your unescapable stare,
I frequently realize the pure burning we both share
As our feelings flee, hands melt to eachother,
When I look into your eyes, I can't dream of loving any other.
I couldn't imagine a life, with any meaning at all,
As i sink into my black hole, you are there to catch my fall.
You made my heart beat with a more vast sensation,
Your lips on my neck, now I'm losing concentration.
The love and lust are what keeps my soul alive,
You were what was right for my spirits to rise.
Will we ever see eachother eye to eye?
Or will everything you told me turn out as a lie?
Everywhere I turn, I see your name, it's on the wall.
Too weak to bear this heartache, my hope begins to slowly fall.
Hope for happiness has vanished, nothing to look forward to.
Wearier to discover my love was but a joke to you.
My whole body begins to shake as I imagine a life without a guide.
I still feel the spark between us, even after you cheated and lied.
I'm beginning to notice all of this is a game you've created inside your head.
I set my heart to every lie you fed me, believed every 'I love you' said.
As I wollow, becoming more hopeless with every shortened breath.
To careless to live, awaiting for the day of my welly yearned death.
My dripping wrists are being scraped with this tiny shard of rust.
So this is my alternative to our passionate lust?
If pain is all that gives me drive to live.
I'll pick up every scent of my blood and breathe it all in.
I've replaced the moaning and pleasure for sobs of agony.
If only you did care that soon, you'll be the death of me.
Exempt from a heart beating in my chest, I start to drift away.
Her whole body, numb and broken, getting sicker everyday.
No one cares for her goodbyes, as she prepares to leave.
Her only choice was to die without love, or so she did believe.
With bloodshot eyes, and her soul still shading rotten.
Her red blood goes out to the girl this cold world has forgotten.
Why do I try oh so hard
For love I never will recieve
I convince myself to fall for you
And your sickening lie, I believe
I give it my all, for us
To be passionate together
But I'm wobbling on this platform
And your heart controls the lever
My heart has been blackened
Beyond what most would attempt repair
Left sobbing in pure darkness
With brown eyes flooded with despair
Heartbreak's first form of agony
Awaiting pain to slash me deep
Just when I starve for your warmth the most
My heart to cold for you to heat
So I scream to the heavens "Why do I live?"
Am I doing this only to breathe
This forsaken love, that never existed
In which I still try to believe.
His voice so soft, his stare is controlling
My head's way up in space, he has my eyes rolling
They are so far back in the pit of my head
So I can picture him holding me closely instead
As I sit, his arms embrace my touch
When I fall for him, he'll be there as my crutch
I listen to his heartbeat, racing in the dark
We lay under the moon, just counting the stars
I twine my fingers into his nicely
We both get lost under the whoosh of the night sea
In one another's stare, hearts pulsing and burning
Getting closer each moment to what my lips are yearning
He reaches slightly forward, wipes the bang from my cheek
Through the pushed strand, he makes it so I cannot speak
We melt as one, as he kisses me, my head's in mars
He holds me tight, forever, as we lay and count the stars.
I try and keep it camoflauged
So no one else becomes alarmed
Since I keep it shadowed so well
Twice as badly I get harmed
Attmpts at doing away with this pain
To start off A new day fresh
But all I can see are these echoed memories
That keep on burning through my flesh
Screaming out, I'm on my knees
Alone with nobody to catch my fall
Keep getting shoved down further
To save my breath, I start to crawl
Spasms burst straight through my chest
My torso sinks to the tile floor
Right when I thnk it finally has ended
It's round two and round three, leaving me bruised up and soar
Clueless, I am dying
With not one person to lend me a hand
Way too weak to move a muscle
Feeling as if I never will stand
As depression explores the rest of myself
Spreading through like a fatal disease
I relentlessly let it kill me
The pain in my heart is finally at ease
Memories, darkness, unforgettable pain
My weariness is your sickening gain
Falling into your stupid, mind-boggling game
Each and every time, it's always the same.
This trickery has led me straight into a deep black hole
They call it depression, I say it's my soul
Sit, cry, review my sorrow
Hoping and wishing I see no tomorrow
These scars I have thrashed so deep in my wrists
Are all my crushed dreams will consist of
When you abandoned me, terrified, alone
I accepted hell was my only home
Getting used to the hurt, entering day in and day out
Now that my mind has freed itself, nothing else to think about
To call this suicide, would simply be a crime
This reoccuring process, is what has caused me to die
As i pick up the barrel, this seems like my only escape
Finger hesitates on the trigger, eager to enter my only fate
Sweat gushes out, and tears pour out of my eyes
At innocent gunpoint, because of your lies
This room's getting darker, spinning as my vision blurs
She fires a bullet, his selfishness was what murdered her
As she lay deceased, sprawled out in her virgin blood
Tears and fear dismiss her body, her hope begins to flood
Free from the sopping red river, she is away from all anguish
How she begs god to forgive her, this was her only wish
As god began to speak, in her life, he took control
He did what he thought was right, before the devil plunged her soul
When her family arrives, to her flesh on the floor
The scene will leave them confused and soar
All she would say, is the pain had led her to a style of strife
She took the one exit that would exempt her from her life
What the hell's your problem
All you do is deny
I guess that's all you ever did
You forced my heart to just up and die
Left me with this anguish
And it's seeping through my skin
Everything is telling me just to hate you
I can't, for hate is the deadliest sin
I just wish you'd hurt this badly
Attempt to see through these bloodshot eyes
If i get ahold of you
There would be no time for any final goodbyes
You are a worthless coward
These memories of me will fade and pass
While I drown in this agony
My heart is shattered into shards of broken glass
Bleeding through my clothing
Oh, it's sopping to the floor
Make all this pain vanish, please
I don't want to experience it anymore
When I suffer, it brings you utmost joy
Just laugh it up, you prick
This fire in my heart seems unhealthy
I think I might get sick
On my knees, trembling so violently
Alone because of you
Cleaning up this mess you've made
Is the least that you could do
You wouldn't do just that
And so you leave me to wollow
Every ounce of pain you've put on me
Has painted my heart hollow
Fucking me over, every single day
Wish this pointless life I'm living, had more to say
All my soul is hearing, is this screaming erray
Losing more grip on life, with every painful good-bye
It is turning out, this whole world before me is all a lie
My heart is telling me, I will never have the strength to fly
I lay here in this bed of thorns, and cry, cry, cry.
Perservering does no good, when all i do is bleed
Dripping out the agony, my soul must soon be freed
Freed today, or freed tomorrow, I will surely die if I'm in lead
Everything I do in life, I'm failing to succeed
So instead of trying for same pride, I bleed, bleed, bleed.
Girl in the mirror
Girl in the mirror
People witness her smiles
Although she lives in fear
Are streaming through her brain
Thinking no one cares for her
Only causes her more pain
Her life is a burdon
To everyone she knows
She's just an outsider
Fake emotion is all she shows
The cutting and burning
Are not doing her well
Has she stooped so low as to
Sell herself to hell?
Doesn't give a damn
If she bleeds until she dies
Nobody notices the countless cuts
That represent her desperate cries
Trying to realize
Why she was made
Her hand begins to quiver
While she pushes away the bloody blade
Her last plees for help
Shine completely through her mask
She needs someone to love
Bever had the strength to ask
Girl in the mirror
Girl in the mirror
You don't have to live in pain
For all you agony has dissapeared
My mom is great
My mom is terrific
She is always there for me
Let's lay down some specifics
She birthed me, she bathed me
And held me when I cried
She was there for my first steps
And caught me on the slide
As i grew older
She sent me off to school
Showed me how to be polite
And to follow all the rules
Taught me how to swim
Helped me ride a bike
Cooked all of my food for me
So I could find out what i liked
She'll be there when I'm off to prom
For my first heartbreak
She loves me and forgives me
For all of my mistakes
I am still growing older
Not long, and I'll be gone
But everything I learned from her
I'll be sure to carry on
On day I'll be laying
She'll be beside me all the way
The day I have a child
I will turn to her and say
Mom, you've raised me strong and well
I'll be a good mom too
I don't think this plan could go wrong
With a terrific mom like you
Is this what I'm seeking
With this wonderful boy?
Not sure what to do
To him and all, my heart is a toy
But he's funny, he's nice
Whenever I see him
The blood rushes to my cheeks
I laugh when he's flirting
I frown to get my way
He's always asking me
Why not today?
The answer to this
I really don't know
Is it that I just don't want
To let our friendship go?
So boyfriend, or best friend
Whatever it may be
This boy will always
Mean something to me
The roller coaster ride
I never got on
Spinning and twirling
Wish so badly to be withdrawn
Feels like the world's crashing
I'm screaming and turning
As we spin downward
My head's thrashing and burning
As the train rises upward
The crowd is ecstatic
We turn to the left, wrong exit
All turn more dramatic
As we're racing our wheels
Sharp turns, narrow corners
We leave some behind
This ride is strictly
For ones seeking adventure
Willing to make difference
Not nine-inning benchers
So as the ride empties
And all fade away
I notice this trip was a lifetime
As some would say
You lived yours quite wisely
Did not take for granted
A perfect example
Of a hip-hooray chanted
You didn't sign up for this
But this all meant so much
Even when your hope sank low
Your destiny was a personal crutch
This, I should have shared with you
Except, I never did
You always begged me just to talk
But, I only kept it hid
Now it's digging way down deep
It's screwing with my heart
I would have tried to tell you
I had no clue how to start
I miss your ripe, green eyes
Staring back at me
The warmth of your smile
That had always set me free
The hand that interlocked
Fit perfectly with mine
Everything that made us strog
Let two hearts intertwine
It has all vanished
All feeling shattered
If i begged you to stay
It wouldn't have mattered
I finally accept the failure I am
While the tears escaped and fled
I reminisce these memories
Rewinding in my head
I can't believe I want this back
After everything we've been through
But before I lay down to sleep
I pray and dream of only you
Every morning I awake
Is yet another dissapointment
I only want to embrace those hugs
That made me realize life's extent
I never even told you
Or explained my jealousy
I never tried to let you know
I miss you and me
You love me
Are you sure?
So hard to believe
After what you made me endure
I want to believe you learned
But you've hurt me so much
We used to be perfect
Now i frown at your very touch
I look into your eyes
But only to see
All the pain and anger
That lives inside of me
Just like a daydream
This all fades to grey
As i'm left in the dust
To rot and decay
When these three words
Are directed from you
Questioning your love
Is the most I can do
The pain and agony, the razor sharp tears
They pour from my eyes, my pain transitions to fear
Fear for our friendship, what do i do?
Those dreaded three words that have always pulled us through
I don't want to believe them
Not sure what is a lie
Feeling this useless
Just results to my cry
These tears of blood
Are all I can show
My heart is broken
In which no one can sew
So as the pain continues
I await another day
Blood is streaked all down my cheeks
There's nothing left for me to say
Don't wish to be remembered for something i'm not,
Or forgotten for the honest of me,
I want to walk tall, be known by the all,
And not fake what the world and I see.
What I am is not broken or wearing,
I'm not one who's known for a crime,
I am the one in the crowd, who would scream it aloud,
That this life is a privelage, and is granted one time.
Where and if I shall live this born beauty,
And pass on to the life after now,
My past yearns to live long, with my mem'ries shared strong,
For my life's adu, take a bow.