Stay by my side
Listen to my troubles

Be there for me as I am for you

Give me a shoulder to cry on
Open arms to rest against
An open heart to shield me
From even my own fears

Fill me with warm reassurance
Of a promising future

Hear unspoken words
And I will listen to the beat of your heart
Though that is what we do
You and I

Listen
Talk
Stay close

My Soulmate

Keep me always by your side
Love me when I'm at my worse
Kiss me truly and with passion
Then make love to me with even more

Hold my hand always
Take me places
Show me off
Keep me close

Let me curl in your arms and be safe from the rest of the world

Let me love you
In every way that I know how

My True Love

Starlit lady read my strife
Tell me something of my life 
Tell me lady what's your theory
Draw a card to hear my query 

First I see a table setting 
Nine cups maybe at a wedding 
That oh so long ago had passed 
Since time went quickly, oh so fast

But those cups are upside down
Lady whispered with a frown
I see much effort has been sworn
A whisper of reward was torn 

Now there is a break in space 
Away from ruffles and the lace
Justice now prevails, the savior
Mental clarity in your favor 

Slashing at their every word
A queen you stand now with a sword
Standing tall and shining bright
Independent of their plight

Shackled in your mind I see
Five more cups scattered in glee
The past is clouding up your mind 
Those little thoughts you always find

And yet another sword shall lay 
Amung the cups in a display
Of a king so very fierce
Your body now his sword has pierced

Four fires lit, four branches broken 
Leaving wands now for a token 
Though broken wands matter not 
Apathy, my friend, cannot be fought.

She took a breath, her face contorted
Some issues you need rather sorted
Then I begged her to move on
Before night left and came the dawn

The queen has fallen from her throne 
Regret I now heard in her tone 
Eight swords have pierced her body so
She feels restricted and alone 

Though now I see a knight has rode
To the aid of your abode
To lay his sword down for your life
Offer An answer to your strife 

How I knew what she had meant
I slumped forward, my neck bent
Trying hard to hold back tears
Trying to hold back my fears

She did not know what he had said
How he got into my head
He is my friend, so very close 
He is the one I trust the most

He was kind and gentle in a way
Talking things I'd never meant to say 
He offered me a lovely future 
But without my love, it would be torture

Love me, not him! He had pleaded
I told him not to be conceited
He told me it was not conceit 
But hung his head, in defeat

Think about your future, love
You're caged just like a palace dove
So long I want to see you soar
so long I need to hear you roar

You shine so brightly in my eyes 
To him, you're just another prize 
I love him not you, please understand
His heart then cracked inside my hand 

You're afraid, the starlit lady spoke
Not of this knight, not of this bloke
But of title you'll inherit 
Drama queen that has no merit

She tapped her finger on the card
I know you think it's very hard 
The queen here tells me you are strong
Though you've picked up just a wand

So now a queen of sword no more
A knight of sword came to your door
A queen of wands is now your name 
A knight of wands is now your claim

The knight brings forward no solution
No ending and no resolution
Though this should be the very end
Conflict I see now is your friend

Starlit lady now has spoken 
I'd never felt so very broken 
It doesn't seem you have a choice 
I could not seem to find my voice 

I picked the cards and set them straight 
Now all I had to do was wait
I found no answers to my plight
Nor a way to set it right

I put the deck into its case
And then I lifted up my face
To stare directly at the lady 
Who was now so quickly fading 

She faded back into my mind
I'd never felt so very blind
For the lady was replaced
By a reflection of my face

You think you have the upper hand?
Ha! I say to you, good sir
Ha I say, you delusional fool

Bring it on
Your hurtful words
The hidden threat behind the syllables

Careful what I wish for?
Nay, if I actually get what I wished for
Then you would be a man

You would treat her with respect
With dignity and honor
But it is a failed wish on you

So go ahead
Do your worse
Just try to reach me up here

this feeling inside of me
this hatred, this jealousy, this worthlessness
leave it me
leave me be

i want no other feelings
no love, no hope, no faith
just because of a single fear
that my emotions would intertwine

maybe one day those feelings
can come out of the hiding spot
that I stashed them away in
to protect them

but until then
let me cradle those negative emotions close
so at least i can feel
something

I didn't lie when I said I wanted to be alone
It was a mantra I repeated
Engraved in my mind
Forever a scar on my brain

Maybe that was when I broke
When I thought I couldn't be with you
But now that I am
I'm afraid that I dragged you to hell

With me.

I want to be your princess again.
but your princess was cruel.
so I'd rather be nothing.