Since we’ve been reunited
I feel as if I walk taller than I ever have before
My soul is so happy that it dances
It’s been so long since I’ve felt this happy
I’m walking on air, because an old friend has returned

You may have won the battle, but you lost the war!
I believe in relationship karma,
And you finally got what was coming to you
After fighting you for two years,
I have finally gotten what I deserve: Peace and Justice!
I can now lay down my sword and rest
The fighting has come to an end
I won! And now I can walk with a smile
The burden has been lifted

All I have left is my faith
Everything else has been taken from me
Music and God is all I have left
Nothing else matters

When Walli walked into my life
I knew things were different
I knew I was supposed to leave this depressing city
I knew my dreams were still breathing
Alive somewhere under all my tears
I knew I had to keep pushing and not look back

It was time to turn and face the music
Become who I was called to be
I am working harder than ever for that now
God you are my every thing
My all in all
The only piece of faith I have left

Gypsy girl or Zombie?
I choose to live again and be free
I will no longer be the living dead
Walking around with no heart beat
I choose to be courageous

All I know is I can’t turn back
God won’t allow me to abort my plan this time
There is no letting go this time
It’s time to follow my destiny
I have to go through with it this time

God will always find me
No matter what path I take
My destiny will always find me
Standing on the edge and ready to fall
God will always save me

This time I will go
This time I will listen
I’m done falling to pieces for now
Now I can see what is in front of me
No more short-cuts
No more excuses
My fate is sealed

When you need me, I won’t be there
When you open your eyes to the real world
I won’t be there
When she leaves you crying and broken
I won’t be there
When you finally remember who you are
I won’t be there

In six months, I won’t be here
I will leave a note on my door reading,
Gone to the ocean without you

I’m the type to say I told you so
I’m not the one who changed, you did
I still walk the narrow road and stay true to myself
You changed for the worst
You’re someone I don’t recognize
You no longer live with a shimmering spirit
One day you are going to wake up and realize
You’re not allowed to be mad at me anymore

Have you removed your balls from her pocket yet,
And placed them back on your body so you can be a person again?
You need to be your own person now
Not just at work but in the real world too
You deserve better!

As your friend I am not asking I am telling you
Leave her and save what dignity you have left
Learn to respect yourself again and finish what you’ve started
Unfinished dreams and projects
Respect yourself!

I am not asking you to leave her because I like you
I am telling you to leave her because it is in your best interest
I am telling you to leave her because you need a positive environment
And if I was with her I would be drunk and stoned all the time too
I know what you’re going through

Leaving someone you love more than they love you
It’s hard
I’ve been emotionally, mentally and verbally abused too
It’s hard
I’ve been where you are and I know it’s hard
Leave now while you’re still alive!

I’m still waiting for comfort with butterflies
I’ve had comfort, complete comfort with someone
And comfort with stomach flips
Comfort with stomach flips usually means something is wrong
The comfort with butterflies lasts for a short time
And the butterflies turn to stomach flips
I want the butterflies to stay
I want the comfort to stay
I want comfort with butterflies

I’ve been thinking all day, thinking too much
I am not thinking logically!
I am still searching for a reason to stay in this dumb fucked up city!
What am I waiting for? Another chance with a man who doesn’t love me?
I can’t sit around and wait for him to figure things out
I need to do something for me now
I need to follow my dreams and stop letting things hold me back
I found an open window to climb through
So I’m going to climb through it
Alex will not hold me back
Benji will not hold me back
Betty will not hold me back
I need to climb through the window and not look back

I just want to breathe again
I don’t know how I’ll get by
But I’ll somehow pull myself together
I can’t escape you right now, but I will eventually
I will fill the space you left behind
The light will go on and I will figure it out

Right now I’m in another world
My mind has left Seattle and I am somewhere else
Nothing is like it was and I am waiting for grace
I’ve lost everything
I just want to hear your voice again
Feel your embrace
If I want to breathe again
I have to wake up!

My heart may not make it
My brain works, my arms work, my legs work
My heart may not come back to life
I waited too long to tell you how I really feel
And now you may not come back either
Without you I may never recover
Not in the way that is suitable for love

I miss my little piece of sunshine
My heart doesn’t beat now
It didn’t beat with you either
But that’s because you took my breath away
I my heart will never be the same
I will never be the same

I want to live on my own, by my own person
I am ready to begin my life without the pain
I am fighting to keep my head above water
I am trying to delete you from my life
Throw out the pictures and drawings and poetry
But I can’t throw out the mental pictures
The emotional memories
The verbal poetry that reverberates in my ears

I can delete you from my computer
I can throw away the pictures and poems and paintings
But when I close my eyes, you’re there
When I go to sleep you’re still there
When I walk around my cold lonely apartment, you’re there
You are still all around me and I don’t know what to do with it
I don’t know how to let it go, even though I have tried

I have tried seeing other people
I have tried dating other people
But no one feels right
It doesn’t feel right
They are not my best friend, there is no connection
They are not right, nothing in my life right now is right

I’m not writing the dreams down anymore
I don’t feel the need to, not since you’re with her
The dreams no longer reflect anything important to me
They are only dreams, things that I wish would happen
Things I wish you would say to me
I do not keep track of them anymore
I hardly keep track of you
I love you, but I can’t sit here and watch you ruin your life
Watching you ruin your life ruins my life
I have a life to live, I want to go live it
And I will
While you stay here in Seattle wallowing
I will be traveling the world at the top of my game
I will live our dream for you

The girl dancing on top of the table thinks she’s the hottest girl in the room
But in the end she’s the only one standing alone
I don’t want to stand alone
I don’t want to dance on top of the table by myself
I want to feel like the prettiest girl in the room when I stand next to you
I want your blue eyes to look at me like you’ve just met me
Like its love at first sight and you can’t live without me
Because I don’t want to live without you
I can barely breathe without you
It’s been a year and a half of torment without you
Just when I feel like I can breathe again
My heart stops

I need a winner
I have a big string of losses and I need a win
I thought you were my winner
You were the one person I didn’t have to worry about
I lost you anyway
I lost my dreams and inspiration

TV makes this city look so much more glamorous than it is
Makes Seattle look pretty and nice
This city is not pretty and nice
The people are not pretty and nice
TV lies, dreams lie, people lie
For a while, my life was one big lie

I will not miss this city when I leave
I may see it on TV and remember it
But I will not miss it
I will not miss the lies that were told to me
I will not miss the lie that I lived
I have regained my strength and inspiration
And an looking forward to the string of wins

I’ve been so consumed in my pain
I didn’t even notice the leaves had changed
Looked out my window to find the leaves yellow and orange
In the blink of an eye spring turned to fall
It’s time for a new season

I was just a pawn in your passion play
I was your lesson to learn
And now I am left with nothing
My heart broke in three places when you left

I grope for a bottle of shattered dreams
I reach for my head which is filled with outrage
This poor body screams in agony
Broken and ill
I hope she leaves you empty handed just as you left me

I feel like my life is an open book all of a sudden
Everyone knows who I am, what I am
Where I’m going and who I’m going with
This city is too small to hide in
And it makes me want to vomit
Makes me want to cry, scream, throw things against the wall
But I know I have to be strong for everyone else
I feel like I can’t let anyone down
I can’t show my weaknesses
Not now, not yet
I’m not ready for that

I’ve exposed too much as it is
I’ve allowed people to know too much
I trust that they won’t exploit me
But I do not trust myself

God help me!
I need your guidance; I need your strength to be who you created me to be
I need your love and happiness to keep me going
I see my world being turned upside down!
Everything is changing so quickly!
So rapid and so unfair
I need to breathe, I need a break, I need escape
Bring me peace and confidence
Bring back the joy that once filled this empty heart

I’m feeling very distressed and confused
I don’t recognize these feelings and I don’t know what to do with them
All I know to do is write it down
No one has been able to make me feel better
And everyone tells me to walk away
I don’t like these feelings, I don’t like where they’re going
All I want is support and happiness
None of which is being given to me
The one person I need to contact is out of reach
I am a mess and I have to work through it on my own
I’ve pushed everyone away because I’ve been let down
It’s been a tough recovery, and I am going crazy
I need something good to happen
I need some good news
I need a good reason to let go and leave it behind
That reason has not revealed itself to me yet
I wish I could let it go, I wish I could let Alex go
I don’t know how to let him go
I’ve tried, again and again I’ve tried
I don’t know why I keep hanging on
I guess it’s because I have never known that kind of love before
And when it’s the love you’ve been asking for all your life
It’s not easy to walk away from
I wish I could take my friends advice and just walk away
I am not angry with him, so I don’t have a reason to walk away
He is not dating anyone, so I have no reason to walk away
I can love again, but it won’t be as awesome as that
I am not afraid to love again, I just know it won’t come anywhere near as awesome
They say we only get one perfect love, I lost mine
My perfect love was taken away from me
And now I am expected to just walk away
Your perfect love is the hardest thing to walk away from

God is going to bless me with so much
I don't know when and I don't know what
But I know God is going to do great things for me
He is going to bless me with beautiful visions
And a beautiful future
I am blessed and I am recieving blessings every day

I have many things to look forward to
And I can't wait to see what will happen 
God, make me extrodinary
Guide me in the way I should go
Make me shine the way you need me to shine
Make your home in me and renew this temple