
Julia Wildman
On that bed
With your blue sheets
Your one small pillow
Your thick cover
We first kissed
It was new
It was passionate
It was indescribable, really.
We would nap
Always the same
Windows open for breezes
Bodies embraced for warmth
On that bed
A bond was shared
One I thought couldn't be broken
On that bed
Marriage was proposed
No hesitation; yes.
We promised our lives to each other
On that bed
On that very same bed
You betrayed me
In every sense of the simple word
On that bed where we had everything
In one swift move
It was taken from me, from us.
Where I felt most safe, most loved.
I'm now ashamed and broken
On our bed.
I tried.
I really tried for you.
I tried with all my might
all my heart
all my knowledge
all my everything
just for you.
You let me try
I let you in
I realized with all my might
all my heart
all my knowledge
all my everything
at your expense.
I just can't love you
Like you love me.
I wished with all my might
prayed with all my heart
hoped with all my everything
that I would fall in love with you.
I tried for you.
But I just can't.
