Julia Mullin  

When I was younger, I worked several jobs and only slept a few hours a night trying to raise four daughters on my own. Writing was the only way of holding on to my sanity, and a way for me to gather all the chaos in my life and give some order to it. Now that my children are grown, I am reflecting on what I've learned, and want to share my version of the world to all who will listen.

Poems

Oct 23, 2012

Anger starts off as something simple brought on by hurt, but if the hurt is set over the fire of jealousy, it begins to stir up like a wind and sandblasts away all common sense. It is the wrinkle in the fabric of memory that twists into the depths of things long forgotten setting into motion a dissipating hope that can soon vanish into nothingness.

She must subdue her anger and swim towards the calming shore of enlightenment before the anger consumes her. Can she stand like a tall tree and battle her emotions and slay the emerald eyed monster that’s wounded her by its thorny claws?

I hear her cry but not for me. I swim like the fish in the sea of commitment caught up in the rhythm of every day life. If she would look my way she would find a new beginning and she’d finally tame anger and keep it in its cage.

My name is Love and I course through the lives of everyone who has hope; like blood through the veins. Death happens without me and the body becomes a walking corpse. I call to her but she doesn’t hear me as she spins helplessly in a void where nothing takes shape.

I know she can sense me deep within her chest when she spies a glimmer of hope but her anger hides it in her rage. Her hope moves like sand through an hourglass of bitterness and the last grain is getting close to falling. Her eyes are covered with a shroud of deception and her hope is lost in the darkness.

Suddenly she searches for me and I come – her frozen heart melts and the hourglass shatters – her hope no longer captive. Her thoughts begin to float into a safe harbor where she slays the tall green eyed monster and removes its thorny pricks.

Her tears flow like honey sticking to her cheeks as she cries like a newborn baby. Her heart is free and the red wounds heal with time as she begins to weave a hope filled life. New memories are stitched with bad to form a hero’s tapestry to be displayed in honor and not in shame. All who escape the clutches of hate are the victors. All who find me and keep me are given the strongest power known – love.

Sep 4, 2012

A house is built
Without foundation
This house will fall
In full cessation

A house is built
With flimsy frame
This house will fall
Who’s to blame?

A house is built
Without a roof
It’s needed parts
Have taken hoof

A house is built
It’s all intact
This house will stand
If we react

Let’s build this house
From rich to poor
Let it stand
For ever more

Sep 3, 2012

Fear of anger
Run from anger
Caught by angry
Still alive

Fist is pounding
Heart is pounding
At least it pounds
Still alive

Screams are silenced
Voice is silenced
Words are silent
Still alive

Walk alone
Talk alone
Making lonely
Still alive

Stomach hungry
Heart is hungry
Fight this hunger
Still alive

Scars well hidden
Pain well hidden
Survive to hide
Still alive

Sep 2, 2012

What’s happened to the human race?
We’ve turned so cold and dark
Instead of reaching out to care
We feed on hate like sharks

But that is just a fraction
Of how we have evolved
Instead of reaching out to care
We don’t get too involved

We shun away from feeling guilt
It doesn’t fit our style
Instead of reaching out to care
We wear a pseudo smile

We offer God as solace
So we don’t have to love
Instead of reaching out to care
We point to up above

No wonder bullets fly
No wonder anger blooms
Instead of reaching out to care
We lock them all in rooms

May 3, 2012

In what mind does perfection exist?
In the mind that thinks it know the answers?
Or in the mind that always searches and never becomes stagnant?

In whose thoughts must I structure my words?
In my own or perhaps I should buy the mold from you
So that my mind can become like jello

If these are the words you are looking for
It doesn’t take effort only the feeling of rejection
But it is what I see in your ink blots

Unsavory words flung about in madness
Miscalculate, unworthy, and even insincere
You don’t want the truth, you want your truth

So here are my words flung up in the air
No real thought, and no effort
Let’s see where they land

May 3, 2012

Words
Forged in the mouth
Executed by the tongue
Cut deep without compassion

Words
Hewn from bigotry
Stained with hatred
Abandon love in every nation

Words
Change a friend to foe
Pierce the truth with lies
Are weapons of our destruction

Words
Divide us into faiths
Encourage self righteousness
Paint a picture of mass delusion

Words
Can be melted down
Can turn into plowshares
Can be the crux of our salvation

May 3, 2012

Slander wears no muzzle
Fragmentation
Void of couth

Shove born from a nuzzle
Insinuation
Shoddy sleuth

Guilt turns into guzzle
Fermentation
Robbing youth

Scattered jigsaw puzzle
Imagination
Pseudo truth

No lies can bind the hearts of all
No anger heals the scars of all
No ale can hide the shame of all
No eye can see the truth of all

Aug 18, 2011

The reapers only few in number
Form rules with cunning tools
Knitting loopholes while we slumber
Find jewels in captives’ joules

The reapers take what isn’t fair
In the name of piety
Writing off what they declare
With impropriety

The reapers ravage all our laws
The poor find nothing more
Using all their battle maws
For war of pseudo lore

Jan 18, 2010

The purpose of life is to discover there is no purpose
The goal of life is death
The universe is not the center of all that exists
The soul is just a breath

I search for answers that someday I will forget
And I will be forgotten
All I know is that I’ll know nothing at all
When my flesh is rotten

I hope that life exists beyond the grave
Hope is all I have
To wake up in the cradle of eternity
Hope the soothing salve

 
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