Overcoming PTSD came about because of one thing, and only one thing and that is love. Love has come and gone so many times in these later years of my life, so I write about it.
Upon discovering that I could love again after carrying so much hate around with me for so many years after my Vietnam experience, I started writing about it. People kept inspiring me to write Poetry and the words just keep coming. Writing keeps my mind off of ugly thoughts of events that took place in Vietnam over 40 years ago.
Changes (the one constant in everyones life) is want makes the world go around and what inspires me to write and is a basic theme in my poems.
Match the frequency
of the reality you want
and you will get that reality
today because yesterday
is history and tomorrow
is a mystery but know
that today is a gift.
Forget what hurt you
in the past and never forget
what it taught you as you
find balance over your years,
as you live for today
and answer to nobody
Start the next chapter
of your life and if you
find someone who
makes you smile
and someone who
checks up on you often
to see if your okay
and someone who watches
out for you and wants
the very best for you,
don't let them go.
Keep them close
and never take them
for granted because
people like that
are just too hard
Get out of your own way
and you will be surprised
what will come to you
and realize that choice,
not chance determines
your destiny, so make
the right choice. Jon York 2013
Different Be vulnerable yet invincible
Individuals and at the same time
Valuing be strong yet weak and
Each other be drunk but sober,
Regardless of staying high but grounded
Skin and stable but chaotic.
Talents or Love yourself first and
Years everything else falls
into line and know that
you cannot be comfortable
without your own approval.
It is not about taking that
first step but in making sure
that a first step can
Know that the pen that
writes your life's story
must be held in your
own hands. Jon York 2013
Sometimes words are not
enough to describe what I feel
and sometimes I just want to
watch the sunsets and dance in the rain
and greet the day with love in my heart
that feels a little less pain.
There can never be a rainbow
without some rain so drink your tears
from the fountain of wisdom as you
embrace your fears for this is your
armor for your battles
yet to come.
We ask what is love,
is it happiness and is it what
every one hopes for and
if I had a single flower for every time
I thought I had found love,
I could walk forever
in my garden.
Love broke through to me
and made me feel so alive and
so fulfilled and I am no longer fragile,
but strong because what was thought
to be broken beyond repair is
healed now as the myriad fragments
were collected and put back together
and repaired as love gave me hope
and a reason to carry on.
Love is the sole reason that I feel
like I do and with each passing morning
I am reborn anew and with the colors I paint
I can't quite capture the hue. Jon York 2013
My words will pass and and be forgotten
but what counts for me is
that I write them.
The longer I live the more my mind dwells
upon the beauty and the wonder of the world
and the more I learn to see beauty and goodness everywhere
and the more I realize that the
joy of life is to love.
Old age will come and it is not always kind
but know that this day will not come around again
and know that every day is a new beginning
so find the strength and the courage
that lies within because it takes strength to love
and it takes courage to be loved as well as
it takes strength and courage to live.
Don't find fault with the man who limps or stumbles
along the road of life unless you have worn
the shoes he wears or struggled
beneath his load.
A spark of loneliness, a memory, a tilted smile,
these things bring tears to my eyes and deep inside
these silent tears flow to that secret place in my soul
and I would rather have one pleasant word in kindness
said to me than flattery when my heart is still and
my life on earth has ceased to be.
But right now I write these words and go day by day
trying just to find something more to say
and too soon my words will pass and be forgotten
but I keep writing them on this day because
this is what I do and that is just my way. Jon York 2013
and experiencing rude
and hurtful behavior
of so many I can judge
those people or I can
love them but I can't
do both at the
Know that there is love
in your heart and it isn't
really love until you
give it away and it doesn't
matter how you love,
it matters only that
you do love.
Have the capacity to create
to overcome, to endure,
to transform, and to be greater
than your suffering.
This time on earth called life
has been such an amazing
journey for me and there
are still so many miles to go
and still so many things
to learn and still so
much to see.
The longer I live
the more my mind dwells
upon the beauty
and the wonder of the world
and the more that I learn
to see beauty and goodness
everywhere the more I begin
to know that the real
joy of life is to love. Jon York 2013
The heart, such a delicate part
of the human anatomy
because it can be so easily bruised,
so easily hurt, and easily broken
but sometimes when it needs to be,
it can be one of the strongest parts
of our body and it will
carry you through when
all else has failed.
Everyone plays a part while
trying to protect their tender heart
but it breaks so easily and sometimes
it is so very difficult to repair
and make a new start.
So sometimes you have to try
to not think with your heart
but you will find that this is where
the love that you feel will always
start and that is in the heart.
Take the time to think about
what you are doing before
you involve your heart if you can
but remember the heart
is always hungry for love
and that it has to be fed
or you will just feel dead.
Give love to others
and you will receive
all of the love that you need
but learn to protect your heart
from the very start. Jon York 2013
My life is poetry and I am always
with pen and paper close at hand
knowing that my experiences
both past and present give me
the words that I write.
I live these remaining days of my
life, however long that may be,
just a soul in this crazy beautiful world
with poetry as my art and I dwell
within these shadows but it is
in these shadows that I can see,
being careful, calm, and free.
Haunted by memories
that return to me in my sleep,
I go to these empty places
filled with empty faces
always trying to
So many thoughts in my head
as I sleep and so many when
I am awake leaving me
to think to myself that it is
such a waste not to write them down,
knowing that what has happened to me
is poetry in motion even though
they sometimes cause me to frown.
I have tasted the fruits of love
and from them come my words
and they prove to be
a never ending
source for my poetry
and I will write as long as time
permits me to do so
and as long as there's
breath within me. Jon York 2013
Sometimes I don't know what to say
about life's tastes because words are not enough
to describe what I really feel because
I find beauty in ordinary things and this is a gift
I hope that I never lose because life is too short to waste
so I remember well life's and love's sweet taste
and the bittersweet taste of the many lies
that always come so well disguised.
Remember well those many loves
that you thought at the time were real
and the many loves that you
were able to steal but most of all
remember those loves that were real
because they tasted so sweet
and never missed a beat so drink your fears,
for it is the armor for the
battles to come.
When all hope seems lost
and you fall tattered and torn and in pain,
look to the light within because there
can be no rainbow without some rain,
so watch the sunsets and dance in the rain
because there is not a minute or a second to spare
while we are here so wash away that pain
realizing how much you have to gain,
knowing that sometimes the other persons
definition of forever is not nearly as long as yours
and that makes it harder to say I'm okay.
And remember that sometimes you forget
what is real and sometimes you forget
how to feel so you ask yourself what is love,
is it what everyone hopes for or is it a drug
or a poison or is it accepting someone
for who and what they really are
no matter what, or is it just an emotion
only a few ever experience.
Does love last a lifetime or maybe just a few years,
or a month or a day or is it only in dreams
and the answer to this seems to come
at the right time for everyone and all we all can do
is remember it, so we drink
in as much as we can and try
to understand all of life's
different tastes. Jon York 2013
One of the greatest challenges we face
is how to use our emotions as a key
for attaining success in life,
so learn to understand your emotions,
and then master them.
the three things that we desire most in life,
happiness, freedom, and peace of mind,
can be obtained by giving them
to someone else and know that happiness
is not in our circumstances
but in ourselves..
choose to have enough happiness
to make you sweet, enough trials
to make you strong, enough sorrow
to keep you human and enough hope
to make you happy and do what
makes you happiest knowing that
if you look to others for fulfillment
you will never be fulfilled.
imagine that every person in the world
is enlightened but you and that they
are all your teachers, each doing
just the right thing to help you learn
perfect patience,, perfect wisdom,
perfect compassion, as you learn
that the secret of happiness is the
realization that life is a gift,
not a right. Jon York 2013
maybe next time. . .
I will realize that life is more than who we are
and that will never change and I will be able
to live my dreams and choose how
to live and what to give.
what if. . .
we could choose whether or not to be born
or we could choose our parents and choose when to die
and there was never any reason to ever lie.
maybe next time. . .
I will realize that attitude is more important than facts
and attitude is more important than the past,
than education, than money, than circumstances,
than failures, than successes, than what people
may think or say or do.
what if. . .
we had a choice everyday regarding the attitude
that we will embrace for that day
and we were in charge of those attitudes
and we could realize the impact
of attitude on our lives.
maybe next time. . .
I can be goodness and mercy and compassion
and be understanding and peace and joy and light
and I can be forgiveness and patience,
strength and courage, a helper in time of need,
a comforter in time of sorrow, a healer in time of injury,
a teacher in times of confusion.
maybe next time. . .
I can be the deepest wisdom and the highest truth,
the greatest peace and the grandest love
and I chose to know myself as
all of these things always.
what if. . .
there is something special I want to do
and I finally learn that I do not receive wisdom
but that I must discover it for myself
and I know that my journey through the wilderness
is something which no one else
can make for me.
maybe next time. . .
I will examine my options closer
and I can be more selective and more patient
and can separate her lies from her truth. . .
maybe next time. . .
Jon York 2013
This bright new day... complete with
24 hours of opportunities, choices, and attitudes
cannot be exchanged, replaced or refunded,
so handle it with care and make the most of it
for there is only one per person.
There are no mistakes, only lessons
so love yourself, trust your choices,
and everything is possible and don't let
your circumstances harden you so much
that you become resentful and afraid,
just let them soften you and make you kinder
because you always have that choice.
Whether you accept life or not
is not really a choice because
really the only choice is how
and always know that "heaven on earth"
is a choice that you must make,
not a place that you find.
We have two choices in this life
and they are to accept things the way they are
or to accept responsibility for changing them
and know that in a time of crisis
all expectations, all pride and all fear of embarrassment or failure
will just fall away leaving only
what is truly important.
Once we start to see the beauty of love and life,
the ugliness that is all around us
starts to disappear and we can begin to enjoy
the life that we are in and we can also realize
that all of the peace, wisdom and joy in the universe
is already within us and we don't have to
gain, develop, or attain them because
all we really need to do is to open our eyes
and realize what is already here
and who we really are.
Learn much from those who have gone before you
and from them learn perfect patience, perfect wisdom,
perfect compassion and always believe
that you will ultimately succeed
at whatever you do,
never forgetting the value of persistence
and never forgetting that the highest
form of wisdom is kindness.
Learn to live for others and they will live for you
and learn that the problem is not that there are problems
but that the problem is expecting otherwise
and know that our time here is limited
so don't waste it living someone else's life which
will lead to strange days indeed. Jon York 2013
I have. . .
lived well, laughed often,
and loved much and I hope
that I leave this world
better than I found it
whether by a perfect poem
or by a rescued soul.
I have. . .
never lacked appreciation
of Earth's beauty or failed
to express it and I have always
looked for the best in others
and given the best I had.
I have. . .
enjoyed the trust of pure women,
the respect of intelligent men
and the love of children
that I have had the
honor to teach.
I have. . .
become aware of the treasures
of love and life and I hope
others have learned from me
and love me before I depart
my quest for a rare
and perfect tomorrow.
I have. . .
learned the hard way
that there is no such thing
as a perfect ending
and that some poems don't rhyme
and that some stories don't have
a clear beginning, middle,
I have. . .
learned that life is
about not knowing, having to change,
taking the moment and making
the best of it without knowing
what is going to happen
next. Jon York 2013
We either embody power
or crave it and sometimes
things just happen and there's
nobody to blame, so just
keep playing the game
and start living and find
something to be
Experience as much as you can
and have fun while learning
from your mistakes
and try to find the causes
of your problems and eliminate them
that nobody is perfect and that
we all make mistakes because
we are only human.
Be here now because
now is all you have
and when you are here,
you are here and when
you are gone, you are gone,
so don't dwell on problems
that don't really exist
and you will be transformed
into living fully while you are here,
so just be here now. Jon York 2013
It seems that all my life from place to place I go
like a rolling stone, no moss and no face,
as the ladies just come and go,
leaving without a trace as though
I was drifting through an endless space
of this time called life.
And oh what a magical, mystical trip it has been
and I have no idea when it will end
so all I do is wish on a four leaf clover hoping
that I will be given more time to experience one
more love and the many gifts
it has to offer before
it is over.
Yes, there has been much hurt and much pain
but that is all just part of the game
and we have to realize
that there are always two sides to everything
that happens and where there is good
there is bad and where there is happy
there is sad and this is a fact
no one can escape.
I know that I am approaching
the end of my journey
and that it could come at any second
or at any hour, on any day of the week,
or even as I speak and if it does
this is what I had to say on this warm
wonderful day while living
this time called life.
And I am grateful for the many loves
that have come my way making
this ride a little easier and I am grateful
to have been blessed with long healthy life
and the ability to write about it
and all of its ups and downs, smiles and frowns,
devils and clowns.
Of course I am sad that I am alone
in these remaining years but the other side of that
is I won't have to shed any tears
watching a love fade away
and disappear or watch as tears
are shed for me as the years go by
and my health may
But it isn't over yet and I still have
a long way to go, and a lot of love
left to show so for now
I stay busy living and
with my words I keep giving. Jon York 2013
rather than allowing
it to master you
and don't mind
as you may encounter
We will not
when we realize
that when we forgive
we don't change the past,
we change the future.
We can't go back
a new beginning
but we can start today
and make a
new ending. Jon York 2013
Daily doses of inspiration & wisdom
are highly recommended for our health and well being
and when you find that you can tell your stories
without bringing up any pain then you know
you are healed or starting on the road to healing
and you will know when you start
to get that feeling.
In my words and poems I tell stories
of changes, stories of love found and love lost
and maybe a little about the cost of love,
and yes in the beginning there was a lot
of hurt and pain but as the words came
it started slowly to go.
At first it was very slow but as
more words and poems came I found that I no longer
had to feel such misery and pain and I actually
began to feel like I had something to gain
and something to give to others
with the same.
So many poems it took to wash away the pain
and I hope my words will let others see
that words and poems can set you free
and as I breathe and release that which
no longer serves me knowing that change
is a process, not an event, I finally realized
that the love you take is equal
to the love you make.
The power of the universe will come
to your assistance if your heart and mind
are in unity so in the end be kind
because EVERYONE is fighting their own battles
and trying to find their own
peace of mind. Jon York 2013
Today is the beginning of a new day so start it
by knowing that you have been given this day
to use as you will and know that what you do today
is important because you are exchanging
a day of your life for it.
Life is not about expecting, hoping and wishing,
it is about doing, being and becoming
and the choices you have made not yesterday but today
so talk happiness, talk love, peace of mind
and talk health.
Forget the mistakes of the past and press on
to greater achievements of the future believing in yourself
and having faith in your abilities because when tomorrow comes
this day will be gone forever and in it's place
will be something that you have left behind
be it love or poetry and all we can do is hope
that others can learn from us
before we depart.
Come out from behind the clouds and shine
and decide that you will not live an unlived life
and promise yourself to be so strong
that nothing can disturb your peace of mind
while you think only the best
and expect only the best.
Be aware of the treasure that you are
and don't lose sight of the beauty
that surrounds you while in your quest
for some rare and perfect tomorrow.
Don't wish me happiness, just wish me
courage, strength and a sense of humor
knowing that I need them all
to go on living.
The real test of courage is not to die
but to go on living knowing that courage
comes first and that reality follows courage,
truthfulness follows courage, so be courageous
and everything will fall into place
and don't overestimate the competition
or underestimate yourself because
you are better than you think. Jon York 2013
If I could go back
over the days and trace my steps
through all of the ways
I think the first thing I would do
would be to find my way to you
and seek to take from out of your heart
the pain for which
the greatest part
I was to blame.
Our love was like a cigarette
easily started...quickly done
then tossed away
without regret and then
you light up another one . Jon York 2013
once I knew. . .
wonderful nights in the month of June,
a breeze softly blowing, a tender moon,
the perfume of roses sweet in the air,
the stillness of your beauty
so perfect so rare.
long drives with you
beneath starlet skies
as I drank deeply and eagerly
of the love in your eyes
whispering tender words
vowing you were mine.
but now. . .
I find the loneliness of nights
filled with dreams of you
and I, wonder, always wondering
if you miss me too
and I wonder if something
about the moon each night
brings me worries poignant
and a teardrop bright.
I played the game
and I staked my heart and lost
but the game wasn't fair
with convention the cost
and you did what you thought
I knew it and yet
my heart broke
and it seems
I never forget.
Would we be parted know...
had things not been so
or did you really love me,
I'll never know. Jon York 2013
I talk not of strength because my heart has known
and fought with weakness through long hours alone
as the days go by and the weeks rush on
and before I know it another year is gone but
I will be happy if someone who has read me says
"I'm better because he passed this way."
Age is just a state of mind especially
if you have left your dreams behind
but if from life you have taken the best
and love you hold as the years go by
then it really doesn't matter how the birthdays fly
because you are not old.
I give many thanks for a long life so far
even though it may have brought me
much bitterness and strife but I give thanks for
all of the many of love's joys that I am given
and I will always cherish the tears and the joys
that I have had for love's dear sake even though
sometimes grief followed in its wake but still
I can forget love's sorrow in loves joy.
As my heart grows empty of every
thought unkind I find peace hovering all around me
and joy filling my mind and I count my blessings
because they have not been few and I wonder
what next I am going to do.
No tear was ever shed in vain
and in the end my sorrowing heart could find
no curse but only blessings in the hand of pain
so I continue to try to write something
that takes a little sadness from the worlds vast store
because I have been blessed to make of joys too scanty sum
a little more.
I grow a little more tired at the end of each day
and a little less anxious to have my way
and a little less ready to scold and blame
as I near my journey's end where
time and eternity meet and blend.
While my heart throbs to the tread
of the passing years I have learned
life's hardest lesson and that
is learning to wait and I have also learned
that through life's suffering
my heart only grew stronger.
Let my words come just when they are needed
like a beautiful breeze blowing wind in your face
like a smile that only takes a moment
and costs nothing but gives much like a memory
that can last forever and know that
it is in loving and not being loved
that the heart finds its quest
and it is in giving not getting that
our lives are best. Jon York 2013