Put out the light...
My heart has gone to sleep
I give up the fight
Pain now forthwith too deep

What strains may come
When all hope & faith
Once strong now gone
Shall follow into death?

All else has failed
This is the final fall
All dreams long sailed
Dreams I can't no more recall

In darkness, I, sleepless, stay
in this room raped of all memories
From what seems a lifetime away
Once filled with desires only youth carries

Heart violated of all tenderness
Left to unquestionable blankness
Shaping the lines of drowning sadness
  Burying me under total hopelessness

I will be silent now...
Eyes closed, for this is the end  
Come sleep comes the countdown
Then let me...... let me die still unawakened

You have corrupted my mind & inflamed my soul
Bearing heavy, a pounding heart with many an ardent wish
An all consuming blaze only you do fuel
Torrent of burning desire turned loving anguish

I hate you
For making me want you so until I ache with it
I adore you
For making me want you so until i ache with it

So taken with you....
Fiercely, Intensely, tenderly, undividedly  
If you only knew how I crave the taste of you...
Wanting to kiss your every parts rapturously

I yearn for your lips parting as you take mine
Your arms pulling me towards you
Breathing you, bodies entwined
And rise to crescendo within you

When Tenderness will become the single truth of the morning
I will wake in your arms
Body, mind and soul to you belonging
Forever all that I am.

So many of my smiles begin with you
Since you first gleamed upon my sight
Constant day dreams whispers of you
And nights longing to hold you tight

Rustlings of Passion taking over me
Breathtaking fantasy, raging wild & free
Where my want isnt of despair but of love
Sent from Arcadia to me above

Bringing faith to an atheist's heart
Imploring the heavens for grant
For you & I, to no longer be part
And put an end to my torment

All I cant say, gives my heart a glow
That seldom have seen but only you will know

So take away my sighs & my soul's aching blight
Come closer, come closer, all my days, all my nights

Talk about joy, talk about happiness
For our world is in so much need!
Uncessant continuous strain of fitful darkness
From men's ever generous giving greed

Lighten your heart and speak of beauty
Keeping away from darkened paths
Forged by the inclined to vice & ugly
Too weakened to live absent of wrath

Open your soul, waken your heart
Bestow delight to the weary ears
Such wonders & wisdom to impart
A soothing breeze for many to hear

A mother's open arms, full of gentle care
A lover's blissful embrace, promises of eden ahead
The world has enough grief without your woe to bare
So tell tales of joy and beauty instead...

Sitting here breathless, exhausted,
Returned from some uncalled war
Where your spite was none the wasted
In an malicious undeserved spar

Love is a growing seed
Slowly maturing to exquisite bloom
To you, a degrading need
Leaving behind tears in an empty room

The sleepless nights of voiceless pains
Where your indifference was its loudest
Poison pouring through my veins
Invading my soul to its bleakest

Emotional paralysis of the absented mind
From the collapse of elation, the bruised deceived heart
Once filled with bliss... to no more being blind
Returns reason, to heal my scar

Deliver me from hope's agony
Detaining me in this invisible cell
Free me from it's grip of apathy
To bequeath my living hell

Or let me forever sleep
To leave behind this throbbing grief
Taking a final lasting leap
Giving my retched soul lasting relief

I am your dark side
A cold wave of destruction
In the night of your soul i hide
Whispering sweet bloody temptation

Your blood feels thin
As i clutch at your heart
To your fear, give in!
Before i torn you apart

You'll pray & hope to resist
Closing your eyes, clenching your fists
For the voices to finally desist
A feeble faith to stand alone amidst

Brain wrapped in chains
Consciousness fades away
You break all restrains
A murderous rage you obey...

Envy, Lust, Wrath, all will begin
As you fall into the abysses of each of these sins
Swallowed in flames, you'll burn from within
Hate oozing from each pores of your skin

While the night reigns
Hunt down your preys
Their blood filled veins
Soon spilled away

You will rape their souls
Invade their bodies & mind
As your ripper within howls
Hellish wrath & lust combined

You will rip them open
Crotch to chin
Tormented in pain
With a cold blade of steel...

Dark blood gushing out on your face
Their screams filling your ears
An orgasm of furry you will taste
Crying a liberated flow of tears

On their lungs, you shall carve your name
As they breathe you until their last moment
A death they will meet so inhumane
For your own twisted amusement

Breathe in their fumes
Of their grossly opened guts
Sickening stench inner perfume
Steaming out from a thousand cuts

Life leaving their eyes
As sun rays come to rise
Your inner beast satisfies
By the blood lust of their demise

Your humanity to awake
As your Demon asleep & gone
The horror of your deeds taking shape
Oh tell me, tell me, what have you done?!

Razor claws & fangs that gnash deep
Hold the Bible & grab a crucifix
For the Demon back again as you try to sleep
Night after night reborn as the Phoenix

Tears are words the heart can not express
For too many are painful, harsh & cruel
Our very core, weakened under duress
Throat tightened and tacitly rueful

Heart on fire in a burning chest
More fervently sigh after sigh
Hastened in grief and in distress
A bleeding soul seeming to die

Longing for time to quickly come
To heal at once these unseen wounds
Unseen but felt a thousand fold
Awaiting seasons to dispel gloom

Pass Winter come to Spring
With all wonders this season brings
Atone my heart inner scarring
To once more blooms & wildly sings

I have a tattoo in mind
To be an expression of my being
Body & soul that ink would bind
To give my existence a written meaning

You design one that's unique
& invite me onto the chair...
The pain better than any pleasure i seek
For ur art is better than any clothes i could wear

Force your needle into me
On my flesh and across my bones
Carve the long Dark lines deeply
& unravel ur creation amid my groans

Give it expression & color
For i am ur masterpiece and you my sculptor

Use red for my Fury
Black for my mystery
& many shades in between to tell my story...

Give it wing. give it shapes
The silent Roar of a dragons breath
Keeper of a shuddering heart
Burning fire of an unleashed wrath

If i were to fall in love, it would have to be with you
                   If i were to give myself, it would have to be to you

                        I have loved you for so long
                       Wishing your arms to hold me tight
                        I can not ignore what is too strong
                         Or even want to have to fight

                        I keep this in my heart in silence,
                          For you do not see me...
                            As only from a distance,
                             Do i get to tell you implicitely

                             This aching desire of kissing you,
                                To caress your lips so fine,
                                   And so very slowly too...
                                    Steal your heart to just be mine...

                                 Feeling the warmth of your mouth
                                 The taste of your breath,
                                   A fire in me you arouse...
                                   And suddenly brings me faith

                                    The tenderness of you tongue,
                                   Gently with mine entwined
                                    I know to you I belong
                                      Body, heart & mind...


                                    This would not be just a simple kiss
                                     But left open for one meaning...
                                  The wish of an eternal Bliss
                                   And the hope of a new beginning...

The sun rose on me
On the African Continent
On the north west territory
Where beauty meets torment

Dry unforgiving harsh land
Where the sun is King in its mighty light
Bathed by an ocean of shifting sand
Offering an infinite burning sight

Relentless wind, hot and strong
Constantly blowing with a hollow sound
Shaping the Desert's callous character
Invisible merciless powerful master


A Boundless sky, vast & deeply blue
Witness the retched souls & the subdued
Through thirsty lips whispering mercy too
Drinking from a tenacious source of fortitude


The horizon promises much hardship
Scorching heat & tests of faith
The element's forceful grip
Until you may face your very own wraith


Tarfaya & Smara, my waking world
Desolate wastelands where silence thrives
Sandstorms are born here to whirl & twirl
Existence suspended in time, engulfing all lives


I miss the stars filled sky, in the cold of night
Promises of Edens amongst enduring times
Justifying every pains to be worth a fight
Forging dreams in the night's paradigm

I hold you in my heart
For my arms just shan’t
From the very early start
This sickly sweet torment

A quench-less thirst
A hunger I cannot Fill
Loving anguish, turned curse
Is for you what I feel

As I daze in your eyes so green
I am consumed with you
The most beautiful I have seen
And ache the very touch of you

The heart alone has its reasons
To succumb to such forbidden devotion
Unbearable loving emotions
Secret I dare not to mention

You are the treasure I hide to keep
Buried in my chest’s own heartbeats
The one & only so many do seek
The one who would make me complete

A barely audible whisper
Surround my thoughts of lust & sin
A dream state I relish to linger
Shivers overtaking my skin

Desire of lips tenderly touching
Hands passionately holding
A sweet embrace quietly waiting
Patience Painfully persisting…

So close, yet away from my reach
I will be waiting for all seasons passing
Shall life be kind to grant me my wish
I vow to give you my heart forever loving

What is meant to be
Will always find its way
So I hope, beg & pray
Fate to bring you to me one day

...I hold you in my heart...