Flick of the wrist
Let your life
Sneak from your
Veins
Streaming into
Night
Dreams are dying
Everyone's lying
About the end
When eyelids flutter
And
Lungs collapse
With a gentle swoosh
All you have
Are starry skies
In the tranquility of red
In the bareness of white
Arthritic icicles drip
Shaking with your
Pounding on
My door
Again I mistake
I must stand in
Your wake
I spoke against
It all
This fusion
Your obsession
And I imagine
Arthritc icicles
Dripping still
Deadly and
A bloody body
Icing my walk
A dove in a cage
Suspended in a cage
Soaked in the
Despairing chimes
Of the time-teller
The years have kept her
Disheveled and starved
Entrapment wears the heaviest
Unable to stir her wings
Hopelessness fatigues her
Boring holes in her beating heart
Powerless and weightless
She's naked in the hole
White feathers long gone.
It came to the surface
For an anguished, choking breath
A ringing scream
Fighting to go down again
Submerge itself to be dangerous
Once more.
Hate is every color
Sqeezing from our skin
Not just one
But all
Equal but
Drowning each other
I'm on the
Corner waiting
For the black
Sedan to pick me
Up I've got this
Piece of paper telling
Me this stranger's name
I shiver because it's cold
There's a little girl
At the stop light who
Is in a car with her mom
She smiles at me
An inoccent kindness
As she draws on the foggy glass
With mitten fingers
She won't know why
I stand here for
About ten years or so
So I smile back while
Her mother growls
And drives away
You swam in my eyes
Under my skin
Dragged me under
Pulled me in
I'm lying at the bottom
Staring at the top
My last creation
Will be a cough
My steps in your steps
I am your ghost
My breath in your ear
I'm always this close
My nightmares are
Like shifting
Videocassetts
Fast forward
Rewind
Fast forward
Rewind
I realized what
A lie it was
That dream that was
Almost as pretty
As your eyes
It forcibly turned my head
Lead my gaze
To a promise I knew
Would never be filled
To a new void
I knew would be dug.
No one likes
Sitting alone
In a parking lot
Waiting
No one likes
Being pushed around
Held against a wall
Bracing
No one likes
Hateful looks
Scoffing smiles
Breaking
No one likes
Ignorant jokes
Cruel remarks
Lingering
No one likes
A unkept mind
A bully
They said,
"Don't blink."
I did
Too many times
And you
Sank to
The bottom
Like a
Poison in
My blood
So buried I
Wish to drown
Just get it over with
I think about
Ripping my face apart
With the bathroom scissors
Because I hate
Looking like you
Your skin
Is the freezing
Water on my feet
The reason for my
Pain my
Distance
The only reason
I bleed and
Scream to the trees
Things don't
Dissolve
Just
Liquidize and
Spread thinly
They clump in
The recesses
Like the dead
For we are
I am honest
Untwisted
Unbiased even
In your favor
You hate me
As you hate
A mirror
For you will
Not accept
Yourself
I escape here
This place where
People tell
Lies
Though
Peek-a-boo
Fingers
Play word
Games to
Twist.
With no truth
To scald pride
I hold close
Their lies
Of love.
You are just
The leftover
Electricity on
My tub from
Suicide
Attempts past
And I cannot
Feel those
Waves
Now too
Tremorless
Twitching to
Break in
A sandy sea
drowning in
My love to
Live
I wish I could
Hold you and
Not think of
Sand of
Sifting and
Slipping
Down and away.
I want this
Hold tangible
So I can
Squeeze and
Feel pain through
Your substance
Unyeilding
