Why are you going to Nashville?
"Business,
That's all I can tell you."

I hug tighter to his chest.
I know what ever it is
I shouldn't know.
I can pretend I don't.
But I know he won't be safe tonight

I look into his eyes
Endless blue skies filled with love
Gaze back at me

"Be careful, love"
I can barely whisper
"I always am, my angel.
This won't be the last time you see me"

I attempt a laugh
"It better not, I'd kill you"
I hesitate
"or rekill you."

One last kiss.
Before he leaves
"Be good" I tell him
"I know you can't keep that promise,
But I can at least tell myself I told you"

"I love you, angel."

I love you too my Hunter..

The wind whispers through the trees
Softly singing, trying to comfort me
But no song could sing me to sleep
Not on a night when the stars are so bright
They look like the lights that were in your eyes
Before everything went wrong

Once upon a time the breeze sang our song
In the moonlight we would dance along
If I fell, I was always caught in your arms
We dared the world to tell us we had to be alone

Never make a dare you can't take if it's done
Your songs will turn to empty sound
Your love will decide to turn around

Your stary nights will turn
To whispering winds and dark skies

I wish I could respond to what you write,
But it would all be the same.
You leave me breathless and curious.
You make me think and I love it.
I don't know what I could say
That would be anything
Worth hearing next to your words.

I hope the day reality hits me
Takes its time in coming
With the blow

I want to spend my days dreaming,
Wishing on shooting stars,
And believing the world is somehow
Beautiful

I hope the day I have to grow up
Is still only the day I have to come home
From Neverland

I want to spend my days fighting pirates
Not wars
Maybe if I keep on believing,
I'll fly to a place where dreams really do
Come true

I hope the day I take off my crown
Takes it's time before I have to realize I'm not
A princess

I want to dance in the sun
And play in the pool and pretend I'm a mermaid
I want to believe
I'm something more than just
Me

I hope the day reality hits me
Is a long time coming
Because the beautiful world I live in
Is all just make believe

What did you feel when you felt me up
The instant hesitation then growing infatuation
What did you feel when you touched my chest
The heart beat pulsing, all my nerves beginning to sing
What did you feel when you felt my skin
The soft warm canvas already painted with sins

That night you were chocolate melting against me
Dark as the night against my moon lit majesty
You were rough hands turned gentle
Caressing my everything
You were dancer, singer, poet, dreamer
You were deep brown eyes that pulled me in
Strong brown hands that drew new lines of sin
In poetry on my skin
You were the midnight sky,
My pale skin against you, the moon and stars

I made wishes on my stars, brighter than my scars
i wished to see you again
But again never came
It didn't matter anyway
You would have left me just the same
Sitting alone with my phone
Clutched in my hands
Remembering the feel of your skin
Seeing the dark eyes that pulled me in
Tracing the lines of poetry
You drew on my canvas skin
Already painted with too many sins

A setting sun shines in his face
Lighting in his eyes
That are bluer than the bluest skies

From the moment his eyes meet mine
There's a flutter in my heart
I can barely breathe

I curl into his chest
His arms wrapped around me
My world is safe with him
I look into his face
Kiss his nose, teasing

His hands
Strong and large
Gently brush my hair
Barely touching as if I were a flower

Leaning into his chest
I feel his heart beat against mine
Strong next to my flutter

He lifts my face to look at him
His calloused hand soft on my cheek
His clear eyes hold my ever changing eyes
I lean in, hesitant

But when our lips meet it's so perfect
Impossibly gentle for the passion
My body goes weak, he holds me closer
A soft chuckle tells me he knows why
Only a few more kisses before he has to leave

"I love you my angel"
His voice barely even a whisper
"Always and forever?" is all I can reply
"You will be my angel, my love, my hope, until the day I die."

Glancing in the mirror
At her broken reflection
She says to herself
One size smaller...
Just one size smaller

But you can see the ribs through her shirt
But not how much she hurts
There aren't scars on her arms
Just scars on her heart
From endless days wondering
When will life start

She says to herself
Just dress in black
And I'll pretend to be a shadow
Or fly to the sky
And become the storm cloud
That unleashes rains like my tears
And my voice will thunder too loud

Still she is silent somehow
She whispers to the mirror
Just a bit more makeup
And I'll fit in with the crowd

But you only see dark rings
Around blood shot eyes
Only blood red lips
That once knew how to sing
There aren't scars on her arms
Just scars on her heart
From endless days wandering
Crowded streets alone
Endless days with no home

She says to herself
Just dress in yellow
And I'll pretend I'm happy
Or fly to the sky
And become the sun
Bright and full of life

Just one size smaller
Stand a bit taller
But no, she's gone too far
All thats left is a scar
On her wrist bright as stars
Except stars are seen
When they first come into being
And this child will never know
Anything but being
Alone

They are my life,
My soul,
My heart.
How do I let that show
They are my words
My creations
How do I let them go

I say I want to be heard
But do I want them to hear me
Do I want them to know me
Once I speak, it can't be unspoken.

Every word is a memory
A part of me
How many parts
Do I have to give away
How much beauty,
How much love,
How many words
Can I say

I say my voice is power
But I manage to remain silent
I say I want to be seen
But I manage to remain invisible

They are my life,
My love,
My hope.
How do I let that show
They are my breath,
My song,
My spirit
Everything of me nobody knows

They are my heart beats, my dreams
They are everything I believe
My words are everything
Nobody seems to see

When you photograph a memory
You keep it for life
For tears, for laughter
For love, for hope
For remembering those golden days

But an image fades
And it disappears in that file
Alone in the dark
Till maybe one day
Someone will see it
And smile or shed a tear
To see your life
In that photograph of your memory

A clear blue sky
A mountain stream
The sunlight on the water
Beauty

A mother and a child
A golden ring of promise
An angel's touch
Love

A whispering wind
A bird cooing softly
The voice of nature
Peace

A baby's laugh
A brilliant smile
An elated feeling
Joy

A comforting light
A rainbow overhead
A breath of air
Hope

They ask me who I am
But I can't answer in words

I give you hope
When you are lost
I give you joy
When your world is dark

I give you peace
When chaos reigns
I show you beauty
When your eyes are closed

I give you love
When you need it most

I am more than words
I am more than melody
I am life
I am music.

Not four letters,
Not even three.
Just two simple letters
Could change everything

So why is it so hard
To talk to you
To just say
Hi

I just want to be invisible
To not have to stand
In front of the world
That criticizes everything

To not have to stand
Against a father
That tells me to just work harder
To not have to stand
At attention
As I receive every insult

But mostly,
I don't want to stand
In front of the mirror
And see my biggest critic of all

Some days I wish I was invisible
Nobody could hear me
Nobody would see me
It would be as it was
It was so much simpler then.

I didn't have to laugh
Every time someone made a joke
I could be in the shadows
And be alone

Its great to be heard
When I have something to say
But I don't want to talk
Just to fill a space

Its great to be seen
When I think I'm invincible
But I don't want to pretend
I just want to be invisible

Do you still think of me?
When the world seems
To have left me behind.
Do you think of me
When you smile and laugh
In the distance.

All I can think of is your eyes
How they use to look at me
With love and passion
Now they barely glance
For a moment in my direction

Do you love me as you did
When you wiped away my tears
When you held me
When I wanted to die
Do you love me still
Are you even still mine?

You held me in your arms
Yet still my tears fell

On the darkened floor
Full of swaying bodies
And flashing lights
Only this moment was still

I wouldn't look you in the eyes
But I knew you could see

In this blackened room
Full of pulsing music
And endless confusion
Only my life ceased to be

I looked away from you
Broke away from your arms

In the cold night air
Benethe diamonds in the skies
And endless beauty
Only my heart beat in the silence

I stood alone in the dark
As a gentle rain began to fall

Breath deeply
Close eyes
Touch the keys
Write what's in me

Step back in time
Open my Eyes to the light

I see the glint of amber light
Flit from string to string
Warming the bow and arm

My Eyes waver and cloud
Blurring the memory

But I remember the sound
Not every note or line
But the beauty
From every breath and mind

My Eyes drift, begin to close
I sigh, I do not wish to open my eyes
To the typing keys, and reality