Baby I want you
so come to my room and make it soon
cause its been a while
and i want to make you smile
If you come, i promise
you will be happy for days
and remember it always
if you're not convinced yet
then let me tell you what ill do
As soon as you come in
on my face there will be a big ass grin
First ill give you a kiss
then i will take a pause
and breath down your neck
let you wonder whats next
then i will pull you in close
and lay you in my bed
ill take a moment; stare in your eyes
until your face turns red
as my hand gently falls down your back
and pulls your shirt off
you'll lean back and giggle a little
as i take off mine
ill tell you your beautiful
but in my head its damn your so fine
as i hover over you for moment
and admire your body
right before we get naughty
it the calm before the storm,
and your body feels so warm
i take a breath
then ill take you
ill put you on the floor
have you on all fours
begging for more
and thats just the beginning
the start of our sinning
so bring that ass
and make it fast
the sooner you get here the longer it last.

I run to my car
and speed to the ER
there's blood on my face
running like a flood
stuck in a death race
i fear that i might die
because im bleeding from my eye
i finally get to the nurse
but the pain just gets worse
she asks me whats wrong
theres a pain in my heart
but im bleeding from my eyes!
i see, so when did this start
i  tell her about you
how i had a strang feeling in my chest
from the moment that we met
it felt good so i thought it was for the best
but the pain didnt start
until the moment that you left
she told me i need to rest
and cleaned my face
dont worry, this is a very common case
you have a broken heart
well in your case it was torn a part
basically on your heart the is a tear
it happens a lot even though love is rare
when heart is broken, your body lets out a tear
its like blood but it comes out clear
its like that since you have nothing left inside
don't worry you will be fine
the fact you can talk is a good sign
your heart will heal with time
and you will be back in your prime
so how do i keep this from happening again
its a hard fight to win
your heart will be stronger once it has healed
after that you just have to keep it sealed

with you i feel like super man
like i am just the fucking man
when you kiss me i get so high
everything you do makes me smile
basically you make me fly
and i stay up there for a while
much longer than just a few hours
im up there for weeks
like you gave me some sort of super powers
and you are my only weakness
you give me weak knees
but even though my knees buckle and i drop
you take me to the top
cause when you fall in love
you fall up
and everthying keeping you down you rise above
you bring out the best in me
in short
when your around i'm a better me
so i guess i must confess
that with out you i am much less
you inspire me to be more
now imagine standing on the shore
starring at the ocean
and compare what you see
to the vastness of my emotion

you use to make me smile whenever i saw you
but now
i make myself smile whenever you see me
how did we get turned around
we were so close
nose to nose
how is it we never kissed
i shot his arrow
but i guess its no good without cupid's assist
it seems you think feeling go away
but thats only when they arnt real
you must not know how i really feel
cause mine will never leave
and i will never say farewell
until i see your are happy
until i know that you will always be well

lying in this bed
unable to sleep
thinking of my pain
unable to weep
the mess in my life
unable to sweep
i'm on a falling ledge
unable to leap
everything dear to me
unable to keep
feeling like i'm about to crash
unable to beep
all the benifits of life
unable to reap
my wounds wont heal
way too deep
just leave me alone
and let me sleep (forever)

When i look at the moon
i wonder how it must feel
to be surrounded by so much
nothing but space
surrounded by stars
lights years away
how lonely the moon must be
above a busy city
there are no stars
and the moon is full of craters
it must have many scars
no one to understand
how much can a star compare to the moon
its easy to see how lonely it is
when at night it is put on display
for everyone to see
but it still shines bright for us
each and every night
sometimes the pain is to much
you only see the moon's might
but never its pain
because thats when its hides behind clouds and rain
such a beautiful being
with such srong feelings
all this it shares with me
as i look at the moon
a sight truly worth seeing

you make my heart melt
and then evaporate
let me elaborate
when i see you i get butterflys
so much; i throw up
this means i love you too much
not an obsession
more like an addiction
something only seen in fiction
you can tell me anything
but i wont listen
i use to say life's not fair
but now your here
and its too good to be true
i finally found you
like you were the olive branch
and i was the dove
call it true love

setting goals worth achieving
saying no words without meaning
trusting only those worth believing
putting my heart in gril worth loving
looking for sights worth seeing
carrying any weight worth lifting
taking on any pain worth bearing
rescuing everything worth saving
indulging in things worth sining
letting go of affliction for those worth forgiving
staying in my own world that's not worth leaving
sharing anything worth giving
looking in the mirror at a man worth beeing
i'm living a life that's worth living

haunted by things that could of been
or are they things that should of been
i guess if they were they would of been
my lack of commitment seems like a sin
when everyone around me is happy
they have someone to be with
they have someone to kiss
when i have nothing but people i miss
all the ones i  really cared about
i forced myself to live without
to me it seems beautiful some how
thinking bout that girl from the past
but i went for another girl
becuase i knew it wouldnt last
now it seem like time is passing by too fast
and im losing the chances that i thougt i would always have with the women i thought would never leave
but they all do
what reason would they wait for me
they dont know how i feel
and they dont know how i am
i didnt let them in
because they were already too close
and thats when we hadnt even kissed yet
its like when you texted me
but i took ten minutes to reply
because im not sure exactly what to say
maybe i should have said
i want you
and i want you to stay

All i want is one kiss
one chance
to see what it would be like
to have your lips
i know it is forbiden
but i dont care for the rules
your not that kinda girl
and he's not the forgiving type of man
you guys have something special
but you cant deny our connection
that's something yall dont have
i see you for more than you do yourself
and i know my time to make a move has past
feelings refuse to subside
its my fault i let you slip by
our first and last
all i ask for is this
a small piece of everything i missed
just this one

single

kiss                 (bliss)

my heart is in a cage
the cage is invisible
but my heart is barely visible
hidden behind so many bars that are practically invincible
because every bar is made from a scar
i dont even know how many there are
so many; it seems more like a prison
everytime feeling have risen
they couldnt get break out
and who wants to break into a jail
when every attempt seems to fail
it seems ive been trapped in this cell
ever since that one time i fell (in love)
how long have i been here
i cant even tell anymore
sometimes i just sit and stare and the lock
and everthing that is blocking the door
someday it will open
as long as the lock isnt broken
atleast thats what i'm always hopin
I do believe one that
you will find the key
to this invisble cage
but you better hurry
it only gets stronger with age
beaware of jokes
and meaningless conversations
that never get serious
because they will turn you away
as i try to run away
but i hope you swill stay
and break these scars
so i can let go of all the pain
and all this rage
stuck inside my rib cage

Pain sadness and fear

i was left with these...
feelings i can't appease
they rarely go away
atleast never with ease.
and when ever i get close,
my heart will freeze
put my feelings behind my head
as they put me behind bars
when i look around my cell
theres nothing keeping me in
nothing but Scars

I'm in a deep sleep
and im living my dreams
so dont wake me
i like how everything seems
to be
i dont think you even could
these dreams are reality now
they become real
every time you look at me now
i am blind to everything but this
so i cant leave this world
when everything is right
reality is out of sight
and for my dreams I will fight
so i close my eyes                        and take flight

True pain....
true pain is a secret
the kind you bear alone
no ones even knows
and as time goes on
it only gets worse
tell some one it hurts
get some help
it only gets worse
so you go on by yourself
an invisible load you carry
where every step is pain
and every step is harder
but you carry on just the same
this is true pain
the kind that is unrevealed
locked inside you
this pain is sealed

I curse this iron Hope i have
That ties me to you
Like an iron rope,
That forces me to chase you
It has taken hold of me
and it wont let go of me
So I cant let go of you

I have every reason to forget you
But there is no reasoning with a heart
So every time I see you
I feel like this could be the start
I know its cant be true
but still I Hope
When I know there is no Hope

Even after all the lies
All the painful sighs
I still act suprised
To see my happines denied
Because my hope never dies

This Hope is so cruel
No matter how hard i try
No matter how many times i cry
I am still a fool
Still chasing after you

I am cursed by this idea
and the feelings it brings
forced to chase
what i know i can't have
these feeling are the worse
so i curse this Hope
Because,
This Hope is my curse

love is blind but it shows you the way

love is unreasonable but is gives you reason

love is pain but it takes it all away

love is priceless but has a cost you must pay

love is earned but also given

love is right even when its wrong

love is not needed but nothing else matters

love is crazy but makes the most sense

love is....but love

You did me wrong
always said i was your best friend
should have seen it all along
you see, i dont see you in the same way
not like i use to
i feel like you need to pay
how could you tell me to home
i spent your birthday all alone
while you were at your party
i was the least of you worries
thought you would want me there
but it seem you'd rather lie to me
i told all my friends this story
how i took you to your birthday dinner
but barely talked to me
none of you friends knew me
still you didnt introduce me
and everyone there went to your party
everyone but me
because you didnt invite me
"so what are you gunna do?
are you gunna go home?
because you cant come"
my friend told me to treat you the same
like you did me, leave you in the cold
our relationship is getting old
i see now what it means your best friend
said you would be there till the end
you commited the ultimate sin
so now it seems we're near the end
you just lost your bestest friend

Your love was the sweetest
So your cut was the deepest
Now all my scars are open
and you can see my heart
So dont act suprised
When you see that its broken
Because thats where you shot me

But I know who to blame
I let my gaurd down
I told you where to aim

My heart beats out my chest
At a slow and steady pace
Every beat pushes out my feelings
Beats so strong, like i just finished a race
And with a every pulse
An heart aching pain
My whole body is sore
As its travels through every vein
It continues throb
It hurts to be alive
Sometimes i wish it would stop
This feeling is unbearable
My heart is broken
Unrepearable

I sit here and look at your pictures
Sometimes they make me wanna cry
Because you're so beautiful
In every photo
You're the prettiest one
Seems like you're having fun
But still i cry
As I look through these picutres
Im not in a single one