Cold as the air
Hard as a solid metal box
I am tired
I am hurt
I am scared
and I am lost
I feel confused
on everything
How is it that simple
to replace me
Do I really not matter
Am I completely worthless to you
How could I lose two people at once
yet they both still be present
in my sight
in my grasp
close enough to hug and hold
I guess I have ran dry
I cannot offer you anything more..
goodbye
I am sorry I have failed you
and you

It is odd,
the creation of emotions.
Matter can not me created
nor destroyed.
Yet in a matter of seconds,
all energy condenses
weighing on your heart.

With such an enormous change
of energy and matter,
you look around expecting
a rock to have disappeared  in air
or something missing to explain the change,
but nothing is different around you.
It is all same.

It is odd,
the creation of emotions.
It seems to defy the laws of science.
One second you feel nothing,
the next you are hit with a ton of bricks.
There is no warning.
Just the raw, unexplained emotion.

Breaths become short.
Chest turns into 200 pounds.
Body becomes numb.
I can not move.

Tears start to pour over.
Emotional overload.
I can't take this any longer.
I fell and have failed.

Believe in the mask that sits on her face,
or believe in the lies within the leather and lace.
She's not okay, not anymore.
She hasn't been for awhile, since they all call her a whore.
Everyone must talk about the unknown,
leaving a girl little room to have grown.
Conforming to everyone standards and ways,
she starts to lose track of her days.
She is living her life, yet barely living at all.
She's walking around so numb, even a hill seems too tall.
Finally giving up, she collapses to the ground,
not even bothering to stand for another round.
no one is around to give her a hand,
but then again, she is use to being a one man band.

Fire and fire,
only cause a blaze.
Water and water,
only cause a flood.
Both leaving a
path of destruction.
On the other hand,
Water and Fire,
balance each other
and cause true peace,
but in return
they destroy each other.

Fed up in this world,
where everythings labeled,
friends change,
and you hurt.

Do I want to end it?
No..I just need an escape.
Yet Here I am,
locked in a room
all alone, no windows or doors..

Will you help me,
or move on with your day?
Will you try to cause change,
or let me be?

For thy beauty paints the sky,
and thy heart ignites the sun.
Thy twinkle of the eyes is the stars
floating in an endless mass of blue.

If my tears were the ocean,
you'd be the beach that grounds me,
calming the waves,
and warming me.

I never could explain this,
not to you.
for you would not understand..
that you've become my world.

The irony of all this is,
while I see you everywhere I go,
I'm just a grain of dirt
in your own little world.

I thought you should know,
I think the world of everything about you.
You make my heart start to glow,
when you look with those beautiful blues.

I thought you should know,
I never planned to hurt you.
I would never deny you and say no.
I'd fix your heart till it's brand new.

I thought you should know,
that I have been thinking.
I think it is time to let you go.
I know that's what you've been wishing.

Diamonds sparkle and twinkle,
as they fall and hit the floor.
While rubies shine and glisten,
as they slide down off my arm.
Both so painstakingly gorgeous,
and yet filled with corruption.

The golden beach that your hair conveys,
and the cooling sea your blue eyes bring
The mystery behind the little smirk,
the one that compels me to ponder.
You're heart shaped lips hold me near,
like the earth grabs hold of the moon.
I can't forget your brilliant smile,
that's greater than any diamonds.
You are all of this,
and so much more.
You are beauty,
that outshines the world.

Can't you see me?
(I'm over here!
I'm not a bee;
I'm that little voice in your ear!)

Do you think of me?
(I think of you,
more than I should be.
To the point I grow blue.)

Can you feel me here?
(The way I do?
I feel you whenever you're near,
and as you show me the true you.)

Will you ever look at me?
(The way I look at you?)
Will I remain hidden to thee?
(Should I say adieu?)

That person you fall for,
with no intentions.
The one you never looked at before,
or aroused deep emotions.
You try to forget them,
but you can't shake it.
Emotions busting your heart at the hem.
You just can't forget,
or stop the dreams,
or the wondering,
that makes you wanna scream,
floating in an endless sea of pondering.
Yet you know,
you can never have them.
Their answers a no,
no matter how you try to sway them.

I see your stares,
along with your glares.
Can you just accept that we aren't the same,
instead of playing the gossip game?
I'm just like you,
and all of them too.
I just have a different attitude.
I don't appreciate being booed,
or treated like gum off your shoe.
I just have one thing to say to you-
I am me,
and that's all I'm ever gonna be.
Now that you have heard my voice,
Take me or leave me- make your choice.

I wish I could tell you this feeling inside,
                                                  but the words wont come.
It is hard to hide.
                                                  I fear you'll say I am dumb.
I see your sincere curiosity to help.
                                                  I just can not falsely trust someone again.
You want to find the reason for my yelp.
                                                  I just can't help but remember way
                                                           back when.
One day I hope you'll see the face behind the mask,
                                                  but it is gonna take some time.
The mask will be gone and no questions to ask.
                                                  Then you and I can begin a new rhyme.

I keep waiting,
with nothing in return.
My smile is broken.
My laugh is off.
I keep waiting.
Waiting to wake up,
wake up back to when I was five.
Find out that my life was one big dream.
That none of the mistakes were true,
but for now I'll  just keep
waiting.
Eventually things would fall together..
Smile for me now,
I'll be there in the end.
Just keep..
waiting.