Blaise Tyler Beach
My soul is deeper than I dare guess.
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The end.
Don't you fucking see?
This world you have made?
Full of pain and anger,
All happiness will only fade...
I know what I have done.
But what else can I do?
I fight off the nightmares
That haunt my night through
You can't control your demons
without losing everyone around
So just give up this fight
Or you will surely drown
You're right, I have no choice
But to sleep forevermore
So I will lay myself to rest
On this freshly reddened shore
Focus. Focus. Please just focus.
The words don't fucking heal.
I can't seem to concentrate
On anything that's real.
Spinning in this blackness
I'm running all alone
You claim to be beside me
as I break my heart of stone.
As the shards fall all around
like the hope I held inside
You try to sweep it up
Like a secret we must hide
I knew I chose my fate correctly
I showed you who I was that day
The demons that I do carry
Keep all who might love at bay
I ran from these demons
For all my fucking life
Now I stand in their presence
With inner strength and might
You thought you could control me
I scream with a grimacing face
No longer can you hold me down
As I shot them and sealed my fate
So as they were ripped forever
From my scarred memories
I came at last to that final man
Who has been as steady as the sea
So you finally found a way around
This everlasting game? He asked
I smiled from behind my gun
And fired my freeing shot at last
Taught of our scars
And life’s many pains
She will be lifted beyond
Our tattered remains
Brought into this life
As a gift from above
She saves us for good
As a product of love
Mysteries drive us
Insanity makes us
We live in chaos
But onward we march
Into the depths
The black and lonely dark
Forever searching
Trying to brave through it all
Unsure of the next moment
What is Death?
Our end.
A mere figure.
A deadly force.
Is it for us to know?
Or to guess wildly.
Or even blindly accept.
Why must we meet this stranger?
Can we not be ended in familiarity?
Will these questions mean a thing when we meet?
Shimmering with darkness
Forever stuck in shadows
Your soul reaches out
To be saved from itself
Yet none show such kindness
None understand this pain
All left you in deeper depths
Which seemed impossible to leave
Then things began to change
Happiness seemed to reign
For another was found
Another with black wounds
Attempting to help you
Bearing their soul
Holding you tight
Suffering by your side
These words reflect my soul
With the edges gleaming
Sharp and invitingly cold
Stark images flash before me
Causing momentary lapses
And moods flooding the body
Words flow into pictures
Seizing hold of the moment
Tearing apart connections
Forever lost to a sea of thoughts
The idea will soon fade
And with it, I go in-kind
So comforting
and terrible
It haunts us with blood
And calms with love
What we see is not what is
What is felt can be mislead
It's just a game we play
To make others feel our way
Emotions drive us
They make things exist
In pain and sorrow
Yet with love and passion
But what is this
Simple thing that evokes
All this and more within
Yet just a shade of life
Our words are immortal
To those whom are dead
For we celebrate it all
Where others feel dread
A new speaker succeeds
From generations advanced
Speaking good and evil deeds
Truth of life no longer danced
Speakers for the dead show all
None can be hidden
That moment of shoplift at a mall
And care to another's son
What we ignore today
Will be plain in the end
For others will finally say
If they were truly a friend
Society will never change
But it's occupants can
See others without derange
As merely a human
But who am I kidding
When I say things with hope
I know none will listen
Not a soul will really hear
For people are thick-skulled
And hear what they want
Not some beggar on the street
Or an artist wishing to preach
So I continue to write
Not knowing the purpose
With all this blindness
Who will dare to see?
The stars shine so bright
Yet, the moon is filled with fright
For something outshines
Down on the surface
Confused by this turn of events
It searches for this fragment
That steals all the beauty
From the moon itself
As it makes its daily cycle
It finds something far from hostile
Hidden in a broken town
Getting ready to move on
The moon sees no threat
But a mere asset
To make the night sky
A beauty forever
So she asks this girl
To join her daily twirl
In hopes of sharing
This new found beauty
Fog, thick as blood, surrounded me
Blinding and menacing as it swirls
Containing the hate and pain
Forced upon my soul, unfurled
Through my smokey confines
A light seemed to flash
A trick my mind creates?
Or could it just be the ash?
With a sudden rush of air
The fog was swept far, far away
In its place were shadows too tall
Making me give up today
A hand reaches for me
But, I am too scared
It is shrouded in darkness
Like the eyes that stared
But, what is this?
The hand reaches my chin and lifts
I look up to see a strange sight
An unexpected and loving gift
Friends now surround me
They were never menacing or dark
So, I am not really alone
For my life renews from their spark
Echoes emanate from within me
Sorrowful and hateful sounds
From deep within, they exude
Keeping my soul fully drowned
If you listen to this harsh noise
Words can soon be made out
From grumbles of a hollow soul
Chanted like a deranged devout
Vibrating my being so violently
I no longer control emotions
Erupting from me in random bursts
T'was, coursing through me, a poison
Dying more and more each day
I want to fight and remain
But, this world seems to have forgotten
What others look like in pain
So many friends surround me when I ask
But, few complete their promises
Like their barren wasteland of a soul
They keep their word in similar crudeness
So into solitude I am forced
Waiting for a true friend to emerge
Out of this inky black pit
In which the world is submerged
Most revealed are covered in muck
The kind caused by our idiotic hatreds
But, a true friend will shine above
And never be decayed by such acids
And thus I wait
Forever hoping for that friend
When suddenly I realize
No one is so alone in the end
As these days roll forever on
I collect their disappointment
Hiding it and distracting them
To ensure that none fall silent
I am the reaper of misfortune
Or so I hope to be to them
As I make their lives be rich
Distracting from times that condemn
Where I hide all these weighty moments
Is a logical place, I believe
In a blackened abyss that moves all around
My own soul holds tight the moments I retrieve
You may be concerned
But, there is no reason to fear
I live with these tortures daily
Merely causing my vision to blear
Hatred is old
A creaky, broken tree
Green while roots take hold
Set this new hatred free
Roots push dirt away
Slipping deeper in anger
Strangling themselves astray
This tree's death now sure
Roots run out of water
Bark now cracking & dry
Make rain from this slaughter
Red water falls from the sky
This deadly tree sucks up life
Always thirsty for more
It gives you all but a knife
To feed this tree with gore
Crisp, clear drops
Fall so far, so fast
Splashing off leaking life
From cold paths we past
Lying gently alone
As light shines suddenly
Revealing a heart lost
Life flowing out slowly
In gray, dim light
A figure stumbles
Slipping into the light
Leaving a man so humbled
None see this treachery
So I now die alone
Freed from my senses
I grow cold as stone
I jump from this crowd
Slipping through the guards
Snatching your precious crown
The jewels to which they bowed
But you're no king
Not the kind that's revered
Your crown was built from spite
For those you kept on a string
I am no better than you
Stealing hearts to break
A fool filled with self-pity
Always doubting what to do
I don't steal what's not mine
Merely claim my title-to-be
The king of misguiding & self-loss
Just waiting for the end of the line
Sensations revolve around me
All are causing me to react
Some are foreign, some friendly
One is too familiar for any tact
As this world of many feelings
Revolves steadily about my head
One is perpetually bombarding
It's those simple words you once said
You remember those fateful words
That generate nothing but sorrow
I can hear them echoing now
As if you uttered them not so long ago
But it wasn't that long for me
For I never will move on from this
I'm trapped in that broken moment
My mind forever set amiss
So I will sit in a mournful world
Reliving those words that undo
That forever ring in my mind's ear
"I just don't think I can trust you..."
Closeness is the key
When you refer
To you and me
For our lives have not strayed
From each other's paths
Even when lights did fade
Our bond is unique
To say the least it is
An ever-winding creek
Twisting and turning
Digging deep into banks
For the secrets we are unearthing
So as time moves on
We remain the same
Even past our eon
Into centuries not our own
We carry on in this world
Never fearing to be alone
