I want to fall in love with you
in my every single waking
an infinite cycle
I never want to get out of
this true kind of love

I love how you never leave me
hug deprived

and save me
from the carelessly painful words

shot at me
the world rushes at me

and only you slow things down
to make moments with me

and just lay with me never lie
I never understood why

wars were fought over freedom
until I found it in your words

and the ways you change me
you're not even trying

with you I'm a better me
I laugh louder

and smile truer
there's no belonging without you

not a place in the world
can't wait to be home

can't wait to be home  
to be with you

You
my love

are eight days
and a flight away .

Feelings and their mysteries
a lover in mind

I remember the stories you told me
of your adventures and possibilities
I remember falling in love
with every single memory of us

je suis ici
where are you now ?

I want to be in the poetry I have never written
to live the life I had never dreamed

I travel in hopes of bumping into you again
for that's how we met
by fate and crossroads
in the wild we never waited

je suis ici
where are you now ?

The world we have yet to see
Our world we have yet to create

You climbed as I swam below
together naturally
but still going farther our own ways
our movements rippled to the other

je suis ici
where are you now ?

our stones skip four times
for every time we met

We promised each other we'd venture again
hand in hand and to share a tent
we'll meet to hike the mountains
for a date behind the waterfall

je vais être ici finalement avec toi

upstairs  

      with

             a                    

                        3am craving for some shisha smoke

                                         the lemon lime and melon mint
                                  
                                                             ­     to share a double apple

                                                             ­                     and mix it with that cinnamon

                                                             ­                                     to be not quite faded

                                                             ­                                           only relaxed enlightened

                                                             ­                                       to not lose the experience
                                                             ­                                       
                                                             ­                                  remembering the faces

                                                             ­                             at a later time still
                                                             ­           
                                                             ­                       the laughs and inside jokes

                                                             ­                in midst the growing cloud

                                                             ­                        of flavorful smoke

                                                             ­                               we sit smile breathe

these ruffled sheets don't feel like mine .
not quite the smell of my laundry scents either ,
but familiar , like the body pressed against me hours before .
and now again

I was afraid of opening my eyes until I heard his voice
The same soft whisper that came from behind ,
the whisper that drowned out all the other voices in that busy pool hall

I was down by two balls ,
I was stripes he was solid
it was my game but that he didn't know .

I had been kicked out ,
they called me orphaned , homeless
but that he didn't know , or so I thought
until he whispered against my neck
"if you win I'll take you home"

so we played
I played the way my brother had taught me
learning him as I go , to have him against me
from behind , his rough hands over mine .
I could barely see my fingers , as he guided them
under and over the stick , until we sank a perfect shot .
And I did end up winning , but only because I played it well ,
a hustler they called me , but that he didn't know

He took me home and we laid together ,
the game was over when the eight ball fell in .
Now we both knew how this would go
and go it went until I came over and over again
and he touched upon me again and again
until he came as I did
and we fell to rest
our breathing still synced together
as the rise and fall

and I opened my eyes
this time to the whisper of
a sleepy "hey beautiful"
and those hands gently through my hair

this may not be my bed
but this is my place .
He knows me now

They say so sorry for your loss
but that doesn't do any good
I thank them for their intentions
but everything has been thrown
into a feeling cycle
times when I just want to forget
others when I want to go back
regardless of time
I just want you
They say 大個女啦 不要再哭了
You're a big girl now , no more crying
他只是走先一步
He's just gone one step ahead
只要他還在你心中那已足夠
as long as he's still in your heart that's enough
but no
not even the world
is enough anymore
incomplete that's it
words don't mean much
nothing more
I just want you
give me strength
with love from your nena
wherever you are
with love always

echoing through the dark sky from miles away
the sound of fireworks
and you said let's just close our eyes and listen
and I knew you saw the sparks just as I did
I wonder if you felt them
as we laid together in bed and talked
mental intercourse
I listen to the echo of your voice in my head
it doesn't want to end
the last look I caught in your eyes
before I fell asleep against you the night before
told me as much
and we lay here now
your arm on my waist
as if making sure I would still be by your side
when you wake up
is it weird wanting to touch your lips
while your soft breath passes steadily through them
or the suddenly heightened desire
to have your body pressed against mine
with your hands in all the right places
I question whether or not this is all going to stay
being so real
because I'm here writing in the dark
to the voice of Thom Yorke
and the sound of the fireworks I can't see
and when all that goes away

You make me think the most inappropriate thoughts
in the most appropriate times
You leave me stuck hiding blushes and suppressing sighs
I didn't understand what soft features were
until those teasing eyes locked into mine
and I wanted to reach out to close the distance
between my shivering frame and your hands
Was my expression as permissive as I felt
More , was my body beckoning as my thoughts were
I guess you must have heard me through the walls
for I found your body answering my unsaid mind calls
all of you down my neck , along my back
leg to leg , knees bent at the same place
there was a little dancing , so as to appear innocent
but your voice turned me around and we were face to face
your thumb gently up and down my palm
and I took you away , we parted from the crowd
tripping onto the cushions before the door clicked shut
the length of me folded into the length of you
and we continued our not so innocent dance
a pas de deux of our voices escaping
through the rise and fall of our molded bodies
pushing each other to the finish
yes , yes oh darling yes runs through me .

a night time of ghosts
are but the absence of light
on sun lit squirrels

waterless spring rains
of showering maple seeds
and blossom petals

your breath and the breeze
cloth over my back against
the curves of the wood

this uncertainty is frightening
but fleeting

because fading are the echos
of them telling us

how this is not right
but what do they know

about you and me
about right and wrong

for in this bed of secrecy
we still find truth in you and me

so I want you to ask
is this alright
just so I can say

Yes

已超越喜歡
變成這樣的愛
到達了這個
只有兩個人的世界
這個真的屬於我們
的地方
這片
別人已失望的
遺棄了的地
在這遙遠的世界
可想被心愛的
擁抱著入睡
與他同一個夢

Through the eyes of a dying person
Living comfortably with the idea of dying
Knowing there may be more
but believing that there may not
Weighing probability and chance
With wonder

When I die
I don't want to leave with the sounds of sobbing
Nor the sirens waking up the neighbors
I want to be remembered with your love music words hope
and the happiness
of life

Most of all
To love without fear
Your promise of living on

hug me from behind
with your love  
not romance
for I'm getting better
at tearing myself away
from every little thing
that reminds me of you

but I still recognize
even your silhouette