Your love keeps me going
For too long I've been so strong
Unwavering faith held me straight
Now it's time for me to break
And fall out of love with you
And into someone new

Lovesick for the sound of you
Scuffing up the floor
Waiting for your return
The candles burning out
The rich scent of food dissipating
Into the darkest night
Loneliness creeping back on home
Keeping me up all night
Wind howling beside me
Keeping me company
Foolishly knowing
You left for good

Forget the pain
Runaway with me
Your tears are temporary
They will dry another day
Open up your mind's eye
To see a brighter future
Without the hurt

Reality killed me tonight
Concluded I will never be your valentine
Just a blurry face
With an unusual name
You tried me on once
And threw me in the dirt
Stared at me
And said 'never yours'

I sink in to quicksand
Your words force me down under
To a place where I surrender
Give up all free will
To wander aimlessly
In a desert land
With a mirage

Bittersweet memories
Happier days, happier times
Lingering scents, familiar smiles
The ghost of you
Haunting me still
Following like a shadow
Disappearing from sight when night comes
Only to end up inside my mind
Taking over thoughts

I won attention
Not by my family, but by friends
I chose words carefully
So as not to hurt others
I arranged them neatly
To please perfectionists
I sang low
So as not to disturb a sleeping bird
Sang high
When I was alone and no one could hear
I gave my heart to many
But never received one

Liquor lips
With a caustic tongue
Kiss a whiskey mouth
Till the sadness leaves
Indulge in finishing bottles
Leaving only a faint whiff

The faint smell of whiskey
The taste of you
Lingering
Even though you left a long time ago

Those were the days
When we got high off prescription medication
Feeling good
Hoping for a new fix

The fragrant smell of gardenia
Wafting through the neighborhood
Leaving a familiar you
With a mind in tact

Those were the days
Asking if I could pluck a flower or two
So the smell would last forever
Even if you did not

Hold on
To these memories
Let them take you back
To a happier time

Those were the days
When I played until dusk
Smiling and laughing
Being a child if only in my mind

You were the doctor
And I was the boy who waited
Days passed by
Nights crept in
Loneliness settled
And happiness went
I waited by the telephone
Hoping you would ring
I waited outside a mysterious blue box
Wishing you would pop out
And whisk me away
To a foreign land
That we would call home

A funny feeling stirs inside
A memory of you
That intoxicates me
With a sense of dread
And a warm sensation spreads throughout my body
A funny feeling
Where I remember who you were
And how I was smitten with you
Starstruck
By a million words you said

Love in bad weather
Storms halting me from seeing you
Parting lands kept me from running to you
Words were the only thing keeping us together

Love in bad times
When your heart was taken by another
I can never call you mine
So I shine a little less

Love
Will never come another
Who compares to you
So I die a little inside

I can never love another
So I will choose be alone
Is it any wonder
That I fell in love with you

It was nice living in a make believe land
But now I’ve come down
From a fairy tale high
Where I believed you to be a prince in shining armor
And I just a helpless stranger
The bittersweet romance
That ended in tragedy
With you becoming a king
With a queen to match
And I a beggar
With no home to go to

I hate you I shout
You leave in a hurry
Slamming the door
Taking the easy exit

You leave, dragging yourself
Slamming the door as you carry your luggage
Making haste to the exit
I hate you I murmur

I will never grace the stage
Or sing opera
I will never attend a red carpet event
Or be published in magazines
I will fight demons inside my head
But you will never know of the struggles
You will never pick up a novel
With my name gracing the cover
I will never see the smile upon your face
If I never tell you
I will die
With people peacefully ignoring my demise

Rain heals the wounds
The loneliness filled with bottles
Awakened to the sound of light taps
Asking if I am ready
To stop drowning myself in liquid sorrow
To stop avoiding social interaction
To seek a new adventure outside a glass of poison

Puddles forming underneath my bare feet
Rinsing off the dirt
Gloomy forecast
With a chance of sunshine for an hour, maybe two
Rain filling my empty bottles
Overflowing
Rain washing away who I was and who I am and who I will be

It was too late
I rode off into the distance
Only to find nothing remained
Ruins of your love
A crater remained where you should be
Broken buildings, crashed cars
No sign of you
You tried to tell me
But it fell upon deaf ears
I was late
I loved you too late

Follow me into the unknown
Join in the underground society
Where the lonely hearts dwell
We drink until love is real
And whenever our love potion dwindles
It will be replenished with generosity
We have no need to surface above
To mingle with cloud nine lovers
We like to sleep in the darkness
Where are own lonely hearts can never be hurt by sunlight

Try a little harder
Maybe I will forgive
Love a little more
And I will open up to you
Say something meaningful
To make me stop talking
Kiss a little rougher
Take my breath away

Money makes me greedy
I do not like to give
But do it anyway
I lust after luxurious items
Knowing I can never attain them
I am not loving
But I crave romance from Paris
I am American
And I take my freedom for granted
And when I lose it
I fight for it
I work hard
Only for dollars to slip through my fingers