I'm holding on
hanging on
not wanting to move on

you've left me standing here
waiting, wanting
not knowing
only guessing

where we went...

Is that me?
      The image reflected in the merky water
            Surely not

What about all the trees
      And the kids playing around
            Could they be real?

Is the scene being displayed
      One of actual worth
            Does it matter?

What good does it do
      Having people on this earth?
            We only screw things up

That image so clear
      Distinct
            In the now crystal clear water
      Is the image of us

But what happens when
      A rock is thrown to the depths?

A distorted image of the world around us

Maybe this is how the world really is
      Now completely unrecognizable from what it once was

It takes someone from the outside
      Looking in
            To see what this world has fallen to
      
What if that person is you?

It's all I ever wanted
      A friend like you

You are there for me when
I need you the most

We share everything with each other
      Our deepest secrets

You're like a brother to me
A brother I never had
But always wanted

So please never leave my side
I don't know what I would be
Who I would be if it wasn't for you.

Nothing ever works out
At least not for me

I've had my doubts
But I wish you could see

This fatal attraction
Between you and me

I needed someone to talk to
And you were there
I needed someone to love me
And you where there

I needed someone to hold my hand
And guide me through this unforgiving world
And you were there

You were there for me when I needed you most
I gave you my heart to keep and protect

I let you see inside of me

I realied on you so much that you became
the very essance of me

I don't know where I would be today
If it wasn't for you

Bu now that you've chosen to leave me
My wold is split into two

Half of me will always be with you
Only time can mend these wounds you created

I don't think I can love anyone as much as I love you

Im just waiting for someone to come along and
Take possetion of thie heart of mine
That not long ago had been torn into pieces

Pieces so small
It takes someone to really take a look
Put forth some effort
To sow them all back together again

But don't get me wrong
I don't regret one bit
Loving you

You showed me how special it can be
The love of two people

If only it were undieing

You and me together forever

But you have made it clear
For whatever reason
That it can't happen

So it will remain in my dreams

My hopes

Of us together

Maybe you will come around
And take me back
If it can't be you

      Then maybe

            Someone else

I didn't know
      the same person you could be so grateful towards
            could hurt you so much

You saved my life
Yet you call me a bitch

You seemed to really like me
Yet everyday you tell me you hate me

If only you could see
      how much your words mean to me
            how much they affect me...

In most cases people only hope for something to happen in their life but never do anything about it. Why is this? It’s because they are too afraid of what may become of it. They are afraid of the implications of their actions. Of something not turning out the way they had planned and there being no way to change it. But maybe that change is for the better. You will never know unless you try. So get out there and show the world you're true colors. Something beautiful may come out of it so give it a shot.

You've got me mesmerized
Frozen in place with your eyes
Unable to move
Through this emptiness around me

You keep me together
While forcing me into insanity

I can feel it
There is no turning back
I've wondered too far
To find my way home

I'm lost with nowhere to go
Because you don't see me the way I see you
So I'll stay here forever
In this lonely abyss

Waiting

Wanting

For someone to come along
And show me the path to where I belong

The lights shine
In this dark room
Surrounded by people
Yet I feel only you

Your touch against my back
Your longing voice in my ears
My head is swimming

Your arms around me
Just me and you in this room
Everybody has faded away

I look over my shoulder
At your wonderous face
And I see a night of firsts

This is the first time I have
Let someone get this close
Let loose

Your whole body against my back
Your arms holding me close to you
Moving to the beat of the music
Not wanting this night to end

We go from song to song
And you never leave my side

The music finally comes to an end
You put your arm around me
And I you
And we walk out together

We reach the point at which we have to part ways
You move in and give me the slightest of kisses
And pull away
Just as I move towards you

I can still feel his lips against mine
And his tongue playing gently in my mouth
And mine in his

I pull away and say
"We can't do this hear"
But on the inside screaming
Please don't go

And with that we part ways

A tear rolls down my cheek  
As I watch him walk away
Wishing for this night to come around again
But I know it never will

The memory of this night is etched into my mind
And never shall I live it down

Maybe its time to take a chance
To drop these fake smiles
To let the world see whats inside of me
To no longer hide my thoughts
That eat me up from the inside

"Just for a day"
I tell myself
maybe someone will see a difference in me

But as always no one notices

Not even the people I have known the longest
Who I call my closest friends
No one stopped and took the time to ask if I was okay
Except for you

You saw what was really getting at me
And tried to help
I owe the world to you
You saved my life that day

Why am I longing for him
Because I know our love can't be true
I see him in the early morning light so dim
And my mood a dark shade of blue

He looks at me
And I think maybe we can be
But deep inside
I know his love doesn't abide

But my heart won't give up this mirage
Of him giving me that vibrant corsage
Of him showing up to bring me a night of happiness and bliss
To think that maybe we could share our first kiss

But truth be told
I could never be so bold
As to let him know
Of this feeling I wish to show

A tear rolls down my cheek
As I watch him walk away
Wishing for this night
To come around again
But I know it never will

Just give up
You keep tryin to win me back but I
Don't want you
I don't need you anymore
I used you
And I am sorry
But please
I'm begging you
Do us both a favor
And leave me alone

The wind playing with her hair
     Her skin perfectly tanned
          And the way she walks
               As if no one was there
               As if no one was watching
With such grace that makes people stop and wonder...
     What makes her so special?
               Is it the way people treat her?
               Or what she wears?
It's like everyone wishes they were her
               The center of attention
               The one every guy wants
But is that really who she is?
Can someone actually be that perfect
     No. No one is perfect
          Everyone has flaws
               Good days
                    And bad days
On the inside she is just an ordinary girl
With an ordinary life

You make promises
Meant to be remembered
And never forgotten
Always to be obeyed

Or at least thats what everyone thinks
Except you
You made the simplest of promises
You said you would send me a "goodnight"
Text everyday

But you went back on your word
And it hurts more than you could imagine

It may not seem like such a big deal
And honestly I could care less if you ever talked to me again
But what hurts is that you went back on your word
And it happened more than once

But like everything else
It will soon become a distant memory

Taken by the wind
And never brought back

And with that wind goes our friendship
Soaring through the sky
On the back of a raven
On a dark cloudy night

So just say goodbye
Because you may never know me again

I'm tired of these games
I'm done trying
We were the closest of "friends"
And yeah I guess I used you
But really there's just some things I need to keep inside me

And you always have to know
So when I don't tell you something
Or I don't let you get too close
Just be aware that this is what I do to
Everyone that I am afraid will hurt me

And it turns out I was right
My heart did end up breaking

And now you are apart of that everyone
And now you are another statistic
On the board
You are now in the group with "friends"
Who have let me down

But just like them I will get over you
It shouldn't be too hard
You will just be another face in the crowd
Searching for answers
But you won't find them here

So just be on your way
And forget me
Because I have forgotten you

Go home and cry in your room at night
Where you will be all alone
With no one to hold you up
And don't call on me
Because I won't answer

We act like we are friends
     We laugh
           We cry
                  We have good times

But only when around other people
      Together we are friends
              But apart we are enemies