I hold both
      Ying  and Yang
In my heart.
      How confusing to be whole.

My body is a battle ground of
Half and half
and whole.

If what should be is here,
where am I now?

Breath sinks deep
Into this morning breeze.
I am devouring sunlight,
Bring butterflies into
This stomach.
Keep me here
And love me.

I am overshadowed
By my desire.

I look up to it.

Its longings
Dwarf my abilities.

I want to pour into you
Melt to softness,
Like butter turning oil.

You are uncontainable -
you burst into innumerable pieces.
Each fingernail, toe, smile
Sizzles upon the pavement.

I am suddenly shattering-
My courage,
My voice,
Lay atop my feet.

If I wiggle my toes,
I can feel their
Silk shift.

He still smothers me
Against these pillows.

So oppressive,
I can't even speak.

Spiders often spill into the cracks,
Leaving carcasses, still and rotting.
Life sneaks in,
Creeping up the vacant corners --

In this, the ultimate expression;
What you see is not yours
And does not wait for you.

Silence--

(As a mist falls on a lake,
Every crystal clear drop
Dips into gray. )

There is nothing left to say.

I do not think of you
As dead.
I rarely think of you at all.

Time is mischievous,
Stealing you a second time.

Driving in the rain
Reminds me of you -
Slow drip drops.

Collisions so soft,
a violent meeting of souls.

Strength is not found,
But made;
Steeped in action
When life
can no longer be ignored.

Your fate does not wait
For you to muster courage,
Hold it up and examine.
You must take to plunging deep
And refuse to hold back.

Time is counting down
With precision
And a painful sense of urgency
The world spins beneath us,
We're upside down you see

For just one moment,
I wish you could hear clearly

Don't you see the clouds above us?
And the birds that dare to be free
Oh how I wish time would win
Less frequently

Borrowed time or stolen years,
Call it what you will,
But that won't be enough for me
The glass, it never fills

I could write forever
Spill my heart upon this page
Search for the perfect rhyme
To capture you


Oh but all I want to do is
Gaze upon
What makes the flowers bloom,
And sing, oh so sweetly,
Splattered colorfully
All glory to you

This is the beginning of the end,
Ending quite suddenly
With a quiet dignity,
Drip-dropping snow drops
Led away with sun beams

Joy bubbles over,
As if prancing or kneeling
Upon today,
Yearning - straining -
Beauty is the same

They said I could be anything,
Think outside the box,
To hell with limits, burn it all way

You can buy your dreams in color
Give your heart away
Oh you just can't be
that.

no how. no way.

How Newton binds us
Laws, lives, gravity confined
Yet somehow free from floating
Drifting our souls
Way away from
What they can't (won't) love -

Lies are more complicated
Perfect for this  haphazard world
Run by a box of rules
With an orderly guise

Be what you will,
As long as it isn't

that.

The packet contains
Nothing but death
And yet they gobble it down
As if it was the air,
That can't find its way

Smoke blinds them
Coughing up their cigarette breaks
As they suck the vile thing
That might as well drive them mad

Blessed with perfect lungs
Inhale. Exhale.
Destroy whatever is left
Who gives a damn,
You can still smell the daisies
On bottled oxygen

The nerve, the idiocy
To cheat death,
Playing Russian roulette
With six bullets in

Tears are so heavy;
You swear you'll float
After
every.
       last.
           one.
               is shed
Like a well worn pair of jeans

The moon is worn out tonight
Tired of metaphors,
Tired of running from poem

to poem

Rushing to and frow
Circling every
last
word.

For one he's a peacemaker
Having fire for eyes
And -
For the other -
He's actually a woman
Ice cold and solid stone.