Alex Caldwell
To the girl with flaxen hair,
For the feelings I do not dare.
I must remain true,
Even though I want to be with you.
If only I could tell you so,
And make my heart strings no longer grow.
My heart is bursting out with song,
Even though these feelings are wrong.
Lust for a taken woman.
Wanting to unleash my carnal desires,
Ravaging her softly.
Willing to sin,
Corrupt a friendship.
Destroy lives.
I am no longer myself,
Giving in to the flesh.
Taken from this world too soon.
A tragic end to a just flourishing life.
On your way to being a champion rider,
A cowboy.
Cut short in the screech of tires.
May you be at peace my friend,
Guard us all from the evils of the world.
Until we meet again,
I miss you.
She stand before me,
Skin caressed by the soft moon light.
Her hazel eyes,
Dancing like the stars above.
Mesmerizing,
Electrifying.
This beautiful woman before me,
Is everything I have longed for.
She stands within reach,
All I have to do is reach as well
Why do I care so much,
When I feel as though I've moved on?
I've found someone better,
Someone who will give me the time of day.
But why do I care,
Why do I try?
Love and be loved,
I love and get nothing.
Not an ounce,
Not a drop.
I'm better off alone,
Forever alone
To lay under a sky so blue,
Watch the clouds stroll on by.
A dog,
A horse,
Cumulus,
Or stratus.
Waiting on the sunset,
As the fluffy white monsters absorb the colors.
Radiant reds,
Or subtle pinks.
Troubles all washed away,
Laying under the sky.
All I have to do is open my mouth,
And everything is shot to hell.
I babble like a brook,
Diarrhea of the mouth ensues.
I do myself more harm than good,
Especially in the presence of a beautiful girl.
I should learn to not stick my foot down my gullet,
Cock block my attempts at a relationship.
Nothing but my worst enemy,
No one to blame but me.
I need to back off,
Maybe disappear.
Or just shut up
Night falls softly on her eyes,
Tears run down her cheeks.
She fears she is alone,
Abandoned in this life.
No soul to turn to,
No one to lean on.
Things may be bleak,
But this I know.
You my dear,
Are never alone.
Standing guard,
At the gates of hell.
Protecting the world,
From the evils of the past.
Ever vigilant,
Never faltering.
Unnamed protector,
Dispatcher of horrors.
Sitting in my dreary room,
Cold and drafty.
Space heater pumping out warm air,
Still I am chilled to the bone.
Shivering as I attempt to type,
Sounding out words with chattering teeth.
Physically drained from a long day at work,
It will lead to my untimely demise.
Searching for thoughts of comfort,
A reason to smile.
A text,
I smile.
Drowning in the world,
Screams muffled by nothing.
No time to breathe,
To slow down,
To stop...
Body ceases,
Eyes go blank.
The world is once more the victor,
And I am,
Nothing once more.
When you lay your head down,
Do you see me as you close your eyes?
Hear my voice,
As you drift off into slumber?
Am I your knight,
Your prince charming pursuing your rescue?
Take your leap from the tower,
I will be there to catch you.
Fight for you,
Even though you'd never ask
It's been two long months,
I need to see your face.
I want to hold you tight,
Your body against mine.
I don't want to hide anymore,
This secret is killing me.
Emerge in the warm sun,
Your hand in mine.
Please don't refuse me,
Cause darlin' you'll lose me.
I miss the sound of your voice,
Your laugh.
Soft blue eyes,
Smile.
I've lost my train of though...
I quit,
I'm done,
I can't go on.
The bell has wrung,
The fight is over,
The war not won.
I stayed strong as long as I could,
The smile on my face has run its course.
I cannot keep the facade up anymore,
I quit
All I do is dream of you,
I toss and turn,
Flail and flounder.
I close my eyes,
And I see your face,
My heart goes pitter patter.
I never sleep,
I lay awake,
In hopes you were in my arms.
Because all I can do is dream of you,
When we are far away.
I can't go on living like this,
I can't go on being this way.
When I walked out your door,
Inside me I wanted to stay.
Hold you tight,
Kiss you softly.
I hate to sound cliche,
But you made me this way.
You are the drug I need,
I hate not letting you know.
But this ran through my head,
As I walked out the door.
Too proud of my heart,
Unsure of my actions.
This isn't puppy love,
But full on attraction.
You have me hook line and sinker,
And you don't even know.
All these things through my head,
As I walked out the door.
I'm ready to plummet,
Feel the wind rush through my hair.
Whistle in my ears,
Escape my lungs.
I'm ready to dive,
Into the depths of something.
Leap into the world,
Pounce upon life's journey.
I'm ready to fall,
Into her arms,
In hopes she is there to catch me.
I feel like a fool when I'm near you,
I want to hold you.
I love you,
And no one knows but me.
As soft as the gentle rain falls,
Is how much I've fallen for you.
Gentle it may seem to be,
But with force and vigor it truly is.
You have stolen me completely,
And I am forever your gentle rain.
If I walked the world with my head held high,
Would I see the horrors of the world?
Will I see the light through rose tinted glasses,
Could I fall for her and not get hurt?
Is the grass always greener,
Is there always a silver lining to the darkest cloud?
Or am I just dreaming about things that can only be found,
Somewhere over the rainbow.
